You know the chills you get when you feel like someone somewhere is watching you? That's what I was feeling as I ate my food. I turned to look around me, hoping I'd see a random child looking at me or something; I didn't see anyone.
"What's wrong?" Noah asked me, I smiled at him and shook my head. It was probable nothing, and I didn't want Noah to make a big deal out of it.
"You sure?" He asked me, looking around too like he knew I was looking for someone.
I finally came down from my high of not having work to do, it was really nice while it lasted. As I sat in my office, looking at the amount of work I had to do, my mind wandered to Antonio and what Noah said about him. On cue, my phone started ringing, it was Antonio calling; I picked up almost immediately."Hey" I hailed, there was no response."What's up?" I asked.
I was exhausted from all the sex; Antonio didn't disappoint, he did exactly what he said he would do; he fucked me like a stranger and I loved every bit of it.I laid on the bed either the duvet around me with Antonio beside me. I turned to him, staring at all his features."If you keep looking at me like that, I would think you want more" he said and I smiled. Then the thought came to me, it was the perfect time to ask him if he did anything apart from photography.
I went to work, regretting ever opening my mouth, but like I said, what I told Antonio, needed to be said. I missed him, but I couldn't call him, I couldn't see him because he didn't want to see me. Ever since that night, he hadn't called me or even texted me or anything. I wanted to call him, but I had nothing to say to him; somehow I felt like things had changed between us, even without being close to him, I felt the change. It was a good thing though, I couldn't be with someone who didn't trust me with the smallest things, it just meant that he'd never fully trust me with anything.
Work was becoming too much for me, and Antonio didn't bother to check on me or the document he kept on my desk, which I didn't read by the way, no time to waste on pointless things.I was at work pretty early, earlier than usual, because the looks that I had been getting from Mr. Blue scared me; it wasn't the usual mean look, it was more of a relaxed look, which I think meant he was tired of my bullshit and was going to fire me soon; so I decided I wasn't going to let him make that decision.
One week! That was the last time I saw Antonio, not like I was counting the days, I just unconsciously knew. It was good. More days without him and I'd terminate the contract and find a tangible relationship. I wouldn't lie though, my body craved him, I used my fingers and dildos but I wasn't satisfied, I needed Antonio, but I couldn't bring myself to call his stupid lying ass. Lord knows the amount of time he had gotten laid since the last time we fucked. I knew I was acting all tough, talking about how I didn't really need him and how I was ready to terminate the contract, but the truth was, if I was to get a call from him, I'd run to him without thinking.
I tell you, being on Mr. Blue's good side is the best place anyone wants to be, I was enjoying favors that was unusual. I could happily arrive late at work without being yelled out; for the first time, my job was not on the line, it was good to know; and you know me, late coming is my second name.I arrived late at work, again, strolling in like I owned the place."Hey uhm, you have a visitor" Melissa told me when I got to the floor my office was on.
It turned out that Aliyah travelled and she only just got back, I felt really bad for not having a close relationship with Aliyah as much as I'd like. She is the coolest person I know. She honestly had a good heart, the best heart. We promised we'd keep in touch more, and I was more than ready to keep the promise. I didn't have female friend while growing up, because I intimidated everyone; I'm not even trying to be cocky, that was what I heard a few girls in my class say when I was in high school. It felt nice to finally have one, and a beautiful one at that. We slept really late, because we had a lot of things to talk about. I told her everything that happened with Noah, Antonio and even Mr. Blue.
It surprised me how I was able to get to work on time, with my encounter with Antonio. It felt like the man just knew what buttons to push, and when to push them to get me annoyed; he was a pro at it.When I stepped into the building, there were a lot of eyes on me; it wasn't the first time I was stepping into the office and having everyone look at me, but something was different; everyone had disgusted looks on heir faces and they were whispering to each other. Office gossip had never been my issue, in fact, there was nothing worth gossiping about, so I had never bothered myself with office gossip.