“Why weren’t you in the Selection tonight? You’ve got power right? I mean, you’re old enough to have taken a mate by now. And it’s obvious the females like you. Is it part of your vow? Do you have to stay single because of… the church?”
It wasn’t part of my faith, but I knew some people chose it anyway. Choosing to give their devotion wholly to God so they were free to serve.
Rake looked distinctly uncomfortable as we sat down on the couch in front of the cold fireplace.
“No, it’s not. I don’
~ CASIMIR ~“Speak to me like an adult, or don’t speak to me at all, Cazz,” she snarled and it was such an unexpected reaction from her I drew up short, gaping at her. She was standing behind the couch in nothing but sweats and a tank top, but then she was in motion, marching around the furniture towards me, her eyes narrowed and hands clenched, and ranting at me.“I misjudged that, and I know it, and I told you I was sorry—and I am. Rake explained how that felt for you and them and… and I would do anything to go back and handle this differently. But don’t you dare come growling in here like you took some kind of interest and I hid it from you. You threw me at Rake, you threw me at Maya, and you didn’t think I was capable of… anything! This was supposed to be me showing you—and them—that I’m more than just a fucking womb. And I guess I did at least achieve that, so
~ CASIMIR ~There was a hush in her voice that made the bond clang so dissonantly that the words I’d had prepared just died on my tongue. Something in my chest shifted, and even though I was still furious, something muzzled me.Warning shrilled in the bond. I felt it shiver between us and I snapped my mouth closed, clenching my hands to fists and trying desperately to leash myself, because I needed to think. But having her standing there, staring at me like I’d betrayed her…It made my heart crack. And made me rail inside.“Jesse… this isn’t about us.”“Oh, for fuck’s sake, Cazz. Of course it is.”For a moment I didn’t move, didn’t say anything, made myself breathe and think and focus.You call this love?The implied accusation stung, because I did love her. And every wolf in the pac
~ JESSE ~I woke up the next morning on the couch with a crick in my neck and a heart hammering in my chest.It took a second to remember what had happened, and why I felt like a pit was opening in my stomach. But when I did…I sat up, pushing my hair back and looking around. The chamber was empty and even though there was no sunlight here, somehow I could tell that I had overslept.Or rather, that I had slept late.I’d sat on that couch for at least an hour after Cazz walked out, just in case he changed his mind and came back. But I refused to ask him to. And even though he didn’t shut off the bond—which kept me sane—he also didn’t use it.
~ JESSE ~I gaped at Maya, stunned, but also with laughter bubbling into my throat, though I was pretty sure it was more hysterical than amused.“You’re laughing?” I asked, breathlessly.“That was the funniest and most dangerous thing I’ve seen anyone do for generations,” Maya cackled, leaning back in her chair and wiping her eyes. “Cazz’s face… I don’t think I’ve ever seen my nephew so obviously taken by surprise before.” She giggled again, then sighed and straightened herself up, smoothing out her skirts, and wiping the tears from the corner of her eyes. “Of course, it was quite a serious misstep—and Cazz’s meeting with the elders was… well, there’s nothing to laugh about there,” she said, widening her eyes. &l
~ JESSE ~When I left Maya, Sven was waiting to walk me back, which was sweet since I hadn’t even thought about asking him to.I was deep in thought, so we walked in silence for a minute, while I got frustrated because I was too far away to link with Cazz—not that I was sure what I’d say, since he hadn’t spoken this morning—and I couldn’t reach any of the others either.Then it hit me… I had been so consumed with Cazz I hadn’t even checked in on Reeca!Shit.“Sven… are you able to link with the packmind and see where Reeca is right now and if she’s free to speak with me when I get back?”“Sure.
~ JESSE ~Reeca nodded quickly, but her expression was wary. “I mean… I knew that you would choose me and there would be disruption. I knew it was right to… to just follow this path. I didn’t know… I couldn’t see how it would all come together. And I had no sight on what the males’ reactions would be. I was just waiting to see…”“You’re a prophetess?” I said breathlessly. “Rake told me. I had no idea… That’s why the others listen when you talk, right? Why didn’t you tell me?”Her face kind of pinched as she winced. “I’m sorry about that. Truly. At first I was just nervous. I’m still learning—I can still misread situations or… or just see nothing. But even once I knew that you shared my
“Beware those who come to you in sheep's clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves.” - Gospel of Matthew 7:15 ***** ~ JESSE ~ The guards tipped us out into the room like puppies out of a bag. I landed heavily on rough stone, scraping my knees and palms, hissing against the pain. But they'd freed my hands and ankles before they shoved me in here, so, with my heart thudding in my chest, I scrabbled to pull down the blindfold that was over my eyes and get my bearings quickly. Dark room. Stone walls and ceiling. Warm lights. Cold air. Damp. Shadows my eyes couldn’t penetrate—and more shadows behind us I wished they couldn’t. Left and right, women shrieked and sobbed, hitting the floor, some rolling, one planting face-first into the rock and laying there, unmoving. Behind me, a cluster of guards filled the doorway, with more spreading out along the wall. They didn't carry weapons, but they didn't need to. They were all well over six foot and huge with it. Strong and rugged… feral. B
~ CASIMIR ~I was horrified.When I’d told Ghere to order the Reapers to find women from the poorer side of the human city, I had imagined the wicked types. The women who embraced their fate and it made them bold. Instead I’d been sent a box of poorly bred puppies suitable only for drowning?What the actual fuck?“God help us,” one of them murmured.I snorted.“I assure you, God abandoned this place long ago,” I drawled.The woman looked at me, shocked. It was the one at the center who’d stayed on her feet. She’d been staring around the chamber in horror, murmuring to herself, clearly forgetting that we wolves enjoyed heightened senses.She remembered now.The guards laughed, but the women’s eyes snapped down to her feet. She dropped her chin. Her hair, a rich mahogany brown, the kind that would spark red in sunlight, fell around her face in long waves, though it was messy and matted now.She was a thin little thing, though there was evidence of muscle under those terribly fitting clot