I stormed through the tunnels of the Palace, furious at her and furious at myself, and even more furious about that because I didn’t understand it.
But one thing was becoming clear; I should never have claimed her. I should never have invoked the immutable bond. I should have known. I did know! But I’d been caught up, and the pack was descending and…
“Fucking fuck!” I muttered. One of the servants passing me squeaked and cowered.
I kept walking, muttering to myself, my mind closed like a steel trap so no one else could overhear it.
She is my mate. She is a breeder.
~ JESSE ~The next morning I woke feeling pale. I didn’t even have to look in the mirror, I knew what I would find, because it felt like my entire body was… less there. And when I forced myself to get up, it felt as if at any step the floor might fall out from under my feet.I had barely slept, haunted by those images of Cazz, fierce and disapproving, despising me.I had to scramble to push away the chittering fear at that thought, the desperate hurt, and make myself move. Make myself dress and brush my teeth, and be human. But my eyes ached with tiredness. I didn’t want to eat.
~ CASIMIR ~“Where have you been?” I asked abruptly as the other wolves settled and stepped back to allow Jesse to greet me first as was our tradition. She was my mate. She had first right to my attentions. But she didn’t seem to realize it was an honor they bestowed upon her and she blinked nervously, glancing at them over her shoulder before turning back to me.“We were… playing hide and seek, I suppose. I’m learning to sense others. I was using a group link to find them.”My heart rose sharply—she was linking? I was stunned.“You can access the packmind without an aid?”She shrugged, but a hint of th
~ CASIMIR ~The flash in her eyes sent a zing of power and desire through me so shockingly potent, my breath shuddered.I didn’t break eye contact. I had one hand planted on the wall over her shoulder, the other gripping her throat. There was a fleeting urge to curl my fingers into her flesh and tear out her throat—a flash of threat and fear. But then she swallowed and I felt it under my hand.With a low growl, I lifted the hand from her throat to trail a finger along her jaw, down the line of her elegant neck to her collarbone, then dipped my fingertips into the V between her breasts.“And if I said strip… right here?” I rasped.Jesse hesitated. Then to the delight of my wolf, she began unbuttoning the jeans she
~ CASIMIR ~“Cazz… Cazz…”I was panting hard, fighting the urge to bite her, as she tensed and writhed, seeking my touch, my tongue, and the fleeting promise of her climax. But when she began pulsing around me, her breath stopping, I knew it was time, because I wasn’t going to give her that satisfaction.Not yet.So, when she began to shake and her breath was catching and holding, I dropped her knee off my shoulder, but cupped her thighs as I stood, pulling her knees wide and high, hitching them over my hips as I straightened, lifting her, pressing her into
~ JESSE ~I stumbled out of that room in a blind panic.For a moment there, I thought he’d given in. Surrendered. I’d had tears, it was so beautiful, so thrilling when he cupped his hand over my head and just held me. Those few seconds had touched a place within me his body could never reach. And I’d responded, unable to stop myself. I was hungry for him. Not just for his body, but for him. To be close. To be held. To be… together.When he’d dived into the bond and held me so gently, I thought
~ JESSE ~When I finally found the strength to raise my eyes and sit up, my legs were over Rake’s thighs where he sat with one of his thick arms on the back of the couch, the other elbow leaning on the couch arm behind me, and his face… his face was a picture of worried grief.I didn’t realize his hand was on my back until he moved it, catching my hair in his fingers and pulling it back over my shoulder as he sighed.“I’m so sorry, Jesse.”“Wh-what for?” I inhaled deeply, still trying to get control.“Because I saw this coming and didn’t stop it. I should have stopped it. I should have stepped in when h
~ CASIMIR ~I was numb as I led her into the bathing room, my head spinning, but none of it touching me.When she had left me back in the dining room I had felt relieved. But as the hours passed in the wake of her strange farewell, my uneasiness grew. Something wasn’t right, and I wasn’t sure what it was. The bond was dead—I kept it that way.I was considering going to look for her, assuming she’d be in her chambers, or with Maya, but before I could make the decision—because in truth, I didn’t know what I was going to say if I did find her—Rake scratched at my mind.‘What is it?’ I growled.
~ CASIMIR ~Jesse tensed at first and didn't look at me. Her body a rigid, resistant plank. But I kept my touch gentle and as she began to enjoy the touch, she slowly opened up, eventually going so far as to rest her forearms on my thighs and watch as I lathered, and rubbed, then used the cloth all over her.“Scoot forward,” I whispered, annoyed with myself because I meant it to sound stronger, but my voice was gone. Little more than a hoarse rasp. I cleared my throat and tried again. “Put more room between us so I can wash your hair.”She went very still. “You’re going to… wash my hair?”I grunted.She did as I had asked and scooted her ass forward.“Hold onto the sides and use my legs to lay back, tip your head back, so I can get water over it without getting it in your eyes.”There was a moment I thought she would refuse. She didn’t move. But just a