Chapter 68

EMILIO

THE NEXT DAY

Fuck. I blew it. I ruined it all yet again with my rage. I threw the umpteenth cigarette in my hands into the bin and fell back on the bed.

What have I done to Sarah? How could I degrade her in such a manner? The regret and pain attacked me on all sides, the aftermath of my rage jabbing me.

I wanted to fix us, fix the sour relationship we had for some reason unknown to even me, but I shattered all my efforts last night and wiped every bit of smile she had.

I couldn't even face Sarah when I was done with her. I completely turned her into a mess, she had no say on her own body.

I fucked her over and over like a slut until she was close to passing out. Her tears were soaked in my bed.

Yes. She was always right. I am a beast and I will never come to know what real love and compassion feels like.

I didn't have the braveness to soothe her. She quivered next to me, trembling like a leaf in a storm and her body had been curled to a ball on the bed.

I had to leave the m