I place my bag and my stuff on the chair when i reach home and change into my nightwear. After dressing into my pjs , i make myself some ramen noodles i have been craving since some days but haven't got the time to make . FUN FACT: Ramen is most probably the only thing i can cook without burning though i make the best ramen with many twists and turns. After cooking my dinner , i pour myself some beer and practice on my song that i have been writing. I strum out some chords and write some more lyrics and my songs is done and finished although it does require some practice but we will get to that when the time comes. I check my latest photos and videos for that story we were required to post . I come around a video of me and harry messing around during that time he came to my gig before s few days. I get a flashback of that day .I am on the stage singing and harry is jamming on the floor near the stage . We both are bobbing our heads and singing . I bend my neck down so that my
I wake up with a different level of excitement and nervousness. After having breakfast ,I take a quick shower since we have to report early today for all the finale duties . I wear jeans and a crop top and pack a pair of sweatpants and tank top to wear after finale . I don't wear makeup since we will be dolled up anyways.I text shawn and the guys the timings so that they can arrive in time .I reach the set and am already dragged to the dress up room . For the first round , I have chosen a silver sequin dress which is full sleeve and lands rught above my knees. I also have matching silver shiny hoops and red lou boutins. After dressing which is harder than I thought since the dress is pretty heavy and stiff ,it requires all the help available, I make my way for hair and make up . Teh stylist does my hair in a high ponytail and my front bangs out . After the makeup is done which is black smokey eyes and red lipstick . We are called for performances. I am on my way to the auditorium
I make my way and wait for the results after changing into a robe and removing my makeup so that i can get ready for second round if I get in . The crew member comes in with the results . He takes jaydens name and finally, my name is also taken . That means I made it. I get up and hug the ones who made it and also the ones who didn't. I hug jayden but she pushes me away . Huh."Eww, get off of me" she speaks in that squeaky voice of hers."I was just wishing but if you don't want that , suit yourself" I say and walk away not wanting to get involved with the brat herself. Come to think of it , she hasn't been good to me since the start when we bumped into each other during auditions. I don't know why I even bothered wishing her .I make my way to my hairstylist who looks at me sadly and apologizes. "No need to apologise ,its not your fault, mrs. Gray" I say shaking my head."I know she can be a handful " "I know , so do you think the messy braid will go with the dress I have chosen
I make my way into my green room and notice that no one is here because everyone is enjoying the finale. I take a glimpse at the mirror and notice my face. My tears have dried but my makeup is still intact . I take a make-up sponge and dab some makeup under eye and think about what just happened. Back at the stage during my performance , the words slipped from my mouth so fast ,even I didn't realise what I honestly felt inside until i said it put aloud , i knew deep down that I was hurting harry and me . I feel a little relieved too ,since I have apologized to harry even if indirectly. I am still applying some makeup when Shawn approaches me ."Hey! What are you doing here?" I ask him with my eyes wide with confusion. "Well, I wanted to check on you what happened back there? " He asks ."I am alright. It was just stupid hormones . I am okay now. What is happening out there? " I end the topic ,asking about the final results."They will be announcing results soon . And everyone loved
Harry's pov:It's all chaos. The performance . The finals . The paparazzi. I look at claire sitting on my lap ,hugging my torso in a tight grip ,her eyes closed.I never thought I would ever feel pain for others but I can feel her pain, her hurt coming off of her right now. I want to kill the bastard who became the reason for her panic attack . I have never felt such an anger towards anyone. I hate violence but now I am having violent thoughts . I have never seen anyone have an attack such as claire's. She stops breathing and just stares . It's like she relives her pain. I still don't know the reason behind the pain but it ill find that out. Rather sooner than later. Claire opens her eyes and looks at me then starts sobbing. It hurts to see her cry and in pain. I rub her back while she hyperventilate . The more I hug ,the more she sinks into me . I know now's not the time but I love this feeling ,knowing that i am her anchor ,that I helped her when she was low. I pull her hair out of
I am woken up by my stomach grumbling. I stir and turn until my head hits something or yet someone . I open my eyes slightly and take a look at that said someone. My jaw drops when eye are met to harry’s closed ones. He is sleeping as he usually does but he is shirtless . Panic sets inside me . What have I done? Oh my god !! I groan and wrap my blanket over my head and muffle my groan. My stomach rumbles again reminding that I slept without eating . I specifically don't think about yesterday and max because I don't want to go down that memory lane. I don't remember removing my blanket or turning my face towards harry but harry’s face comes in my view as he looks at me peacefully. His eyes meet mine and i am reminded of what I lost . I bite my lip to keep myself from leaning towards him and yearning for his warmth. He looks at my lips and then in my eyes . I shake my face and get up from the bed before I make a mistake . Harry sighs . I look into the mirror and am shocked to see
On the flight ,I message justin letting him know about whatever happened with me lately since he is the closest to a therapist I could ever have . I don't know how or when I fell asleep but I woke up on harry's arm at the time the flight ends. He waits for me to fully wake up and get back to my senses then we both make our exit from the terminal to his suv, which he asked for us specifically so that we could move out easily without disturbance. My phone pings with a message from shawn .Captain:Hey, you didn't tell me you were coming to L.A today. Anyways , to welcome you ,I am dropping you a welcome party. Everyone will be there ,I will send you the address . Dress good . Let me know if you want to change something .Someone might've clicked a photo of me and harry at the terminal . Although I didn't like how he planned everything without even consulting me or asking me whether I want it or not, but I guess ,he thought I would like it . A party is okay but with everyone, that'
I wake up and check my phone to see many notifications popping up but my gaze lands on the one tweet from the tabloids with my ans shawns face. We both are laughing on the floor ,me on top of him while he is looking in my eyes. It could be considered a friendly post if nit for the hearts drawn all around it and the headline :" Shawn Allen and Claire Stewart seemed getting cozy on her first night in L.A. " There are many more articles indicating me and shawn secretly dating and I groan at the mess I landed us in. Many people are tweeting about me and shawn being a couple from some time . I shut my phone after seeing a text from justin about the news and harry knocks at my door just a second later.He opens my door and his face shows proper feeling of betrayal. Does he think? No. "Is it real? Did you cheat on me? Was he the goddamn reason?" He whispers but it is loud enough for me to hear . I know why he is thinking this way and I am solely the reason behind his question but it hurt