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45- Tears and truth
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Strings of Fate 46- Home and hot chocolates
When we reach my home, Darrien moves to the kitchen and starts going through my cupboards.“Go change into one of those fuzzy unicorn things.” He orders. I nod and head to my room to change. I've finally stopped crying. Now I just feel empty. I move around like a zombie as I throw on my pyjamas. When I head back out, Darrien sits me down at one of the chairs at my tiny little table and hands me a hot chocolate. So that's what he was looking for. He settles down in the chair across from me with his own mug.“I know you weren't ready to tell him, and he probably was a little annoyed to overhear that he's your mate. I'm sure he would have preferred if you had told him directly. But none of that explains why you're crying like it's the end of the world. What happened? This is two nights in a row I've had to drive you home in a hurry.” Darrien keeps his tone gentle. Still, it seems pretty clear that he has no intention of leaving me alone until I fill him in a little.“He overheard me talk
Strings of Fate 47- Forts and fallouts
The next three months continue in this fashion. Megan and Darrien continue to visit me and I continue to live on autopilot. I lose weight because I can't seem to eat or sleep properly. I'm working more than ever. It helps to stay busy. It means less time staring at the wall. I still help Megan with wedding stuff but my enthusiasm is even more false than it was before. Still, the wedding plans continue to progress. Maggie messages me on multiple occasions inviting me to stop by. I make excuses every time. I haven't cried since that day and I don't intend to cry again. I haven't seen or heard from Bellamy either, although Megan and Darrien insist that he has been checking in with my guards regularly. That actually makes things worse. If he wants to talk to me all he has to do is call, or come see me. Instead he's spying on me from a distance getting reports from others. It only confirms that he has no interest in actually seeing me. Darrien suggested I should go see him. But if he is av
Strings of Fate 48- Cartoons and considerations
Harrison obviously isn't buying it, but he doesn't need to, he just has to cooperate. Which he does. We start to rearrange my living area. Soon the table is up against the bench with the chairs in front of it. Blankets cover everything. The back of the bench has become the back wall of our fort. The table is the roof and the chairs mark the entryway. We stuff it full of pillows to make it comfy and make sure the charger for my laptop can reach a power point so it won't go flat on us. There aren't any lights inside the fort other than the laptop, but the lights in the living area are still on which provides a tiny bit of light through the fabric of the thinner blankets. There isn't a lot of space, but Harrison and I can fit even though we are a little squished together. It's comfortable enough. We're just starting our second episode of Courage the Cowardly Dog when my phone starts ringing. I ignore it. I don't want to deal with people right now, whoever it is can wait. As soon as the c
Strings of Fate 49- Decisions and determination
I'm not really watching, and I know that he is only watching to give me time to think. Time to sort through the rush of emotions I'm feeling. Can I really tell Megan the truth about her ties? Should I? From the very beginning that was my plan. I wrote her that note. It wasn't until I met her and became her friend that I began to worry she would resent my interference or choose Tristan over me. But didn't I promise myself I was going to be the best friend she ever had? Would a good friend really let her go through with this marriage? As for Bellamy... well, he does deserve the truth from me. The problem is I really don't know how to give it. What truth is it that he needs to hear? If I start at the wrong place he will probably run and avoid me, or it will turn into a fight. I can feel my heart rate increase at the thought of having to face Bellamy properly. I don't know if I'm ready yet. I take a deep breath to calm myself. I don't need to do anything right this second, I can take some
Strings of Fate 50- Challenging and comfortable
I glance out the window as we arrive at the compound. It's very active for this early in the morning. It's because of the wedding I suppose. It's taking place in the meeting hall. It wouldn't have been big enough for the engagement party, there were too many guests. But the wedding itself is limited to just the people closest to Megan which pretty much means the Shifters in the compound and me. Aaron parks the car and opens my door. I take his arm and when we reach the front door I give him a quick hug.“Thank you Aaron.” I whisper. He nods. I knock on the door and am stunned when Bellamy opens it. We are both frozen. He is staring at me, I'm not sure what he's seeing but I sort of wish that I had dried my hair before leaving home, or put on a little concealer at least. I'm staring at him too. He looks different. There are dark shadows under his eyes that weren't there before. He looks so exhausted he must not be sleeping. He's lost weight, making his cheekbones seem more prominent. H
Strings of Fate 51- Relief and rejection
“What are you going to do?” My voice is timid. Megan sighs, the sound is sad and... relieved?“I'm done lying to myself. I need to tell Tristan I can't get married today. It's going to be hard. I'd be lying if I said I don't care about him. Ten minutes ago I had every intention of marrying him. I guess I just needed... permission. Permission to change my mind. Or maybe just support to do what I want.” I nod.“What can I do to help?” Megan stands up and looks herself over.“Help me out of this dress? It definitely sends the wrong message. Then we need to get over to the wedding so I can apologise to Tristan. Could you maybe call Bellamy, let him know?” She stops when she realises what she's asking.“Never mind, I can do that I-” I interrupt her.“I can call him.” Anything to make this easier for her. I'm already working on the buttons on the back of her dress. I can hear a banging downstairs.“That must be Bellamy, he must have forgotten something.” She looks stricken. I head for the d
Strings of Fate 52- Fight and flight
I'm crying again. I don't know what else to do. I think I need to talk to Megan. Megan! Is she okay? I was so busy out here I forgot that she's literally calling off her own wedding. I wipe away my tears, open the door and slip inside. What's waiting for me is so much worse than I could have imagined. At the end of the aisle, Megan and Tristan are staring each other down. They are equal in dominance and neither of them is budging. Tristan's face is ugly and twisted with anger and hatred, his hands are shifted into claws he is gripping Megan's arm in a way that has to hurt. Darrien is standing next to Megan. He also seems to be frozen, stuck in the battle for dominance. Tristan must actually be as dominant as Megan and Darrien if they are all stopped like this. Apparently, these battles aren't just a two person thing. Well that's useful information I suppose.“You BITCH!” Tristan screams. Everyone else in the room seems frozen, not able to move under the waves of power coming from the
Strings of Fate 53- Selfish and shy
When we reach the grave from before, I stop and release his hand. It falls to his side. I stare at the grave and avoid his face.“You were right when you said I'm selfish.” I start.“I don't know how to trust. Until now, I've never even tried to, not really, I run away, hide and avoid everyone who tries to get close to me. But there is one thing I have always trusted and that is fate. These threads that I see. They never deceive me, they show truth, good and bad. They do nothing to spare my feelings because fate doesn't care about my feelings. There are times I wish I couldn't see them at all because what I see is so heartbreaking. But despite that, I really do trust them. Completely. I trust them so completely that I know I will be tied to you forever, even when we are both dead and gone.” I pause and turn to face Bellamy. His expression is giving nothing away and I have to once again fight my natural inclination to flee.“I'm selfish because I knew that even if I ran away from my fe
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