Nameless Feelings

‘He did tell me often enough that you two were only getting married in name only…’

He was just with her, so how dare he kiss me like that?

I wasn’t sure if I was more furious, disgusted, or shocked. My body trembled as I began breathing faster. Anger and dark thoughts swirled in my head as we locked eyes. It wasn’t as if I lacked experience with men or that I could claim to be a pure un-soiled angel of some sort and it wasn’t like I thought that he was an inexperienced virgin either. In fact, I had realized from the very first night that we spent together that he was beyond well-versed in how to pleasure the bodies of women. That could only mean that he has had many lovers before and there were no reasons for me to believe that he would have lovers right now.

I should have known.

To be more accurate, I knew all along but had probably let that fact slip from my mind for my own convenience. I told myself that I didn’t care about his past, his present, and also his future because it all