There are things I wish to bring to an end.
But I don’t know if I’m capable of doing any of that alone.
I wish for no more pain, no more misery, and no more death because I believe my kind has gone through enough of it.
I wish for happiness through normal means. I wish for those who come after me to have normal lives.
I do not know if I can achieve it, but I still wish to try.
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>>Roshni
The end of spring
The end of high school.
The weather was wo
>>RoshniImpossibleThis is impossible!!This can’t happen! I know it wasn’t possible!I looked at the letter of acceptance that came to me by email. It was my acceptance letter to the national university.“Impossible…” I kept staring at the letter on my laptop as if it was going to change the letters written on it.“Oh wow,” Mom was sitting beside me on one side while dad was on the other, “I guess we won’t be going anywhere I guess...” She glanced at dad who only nodded.The three of us were so stun
>>RoshniYou know what was even more odd? The oddest of all things?I didn’t get into any other college I applied to. Does that make any sense? I got into the best one but all the others rejected me? Of course it doesn’t make any sense!Now, I’m sure Emilio pulled something. But then again, he’s capable of doing that very easily.I took a deep breath as I stood in front of the huge university. I was no doubt a little afraid of going in. I feel like I shouldn't be here. Of course I’m happy I got in, but I also know it’s not because of my capabilities.I sighed and looked down as I prepared myself mentally.
>>RoshniWhy?I stood in front of my department after I was done for the day, staring at the crowd of people right across from me.Why?I stared at the person standing in the center.EmilioWhy?Just why is he here?He was surrounded by girls like usual and it pissed me off. They all were swarmed around him like flies to a fruit.Doesn’t he have classes to attend? Why is he standing directly in front of my department? Did he even leave?
>>RoshniI haven’t seen him.It’s been four days now and I haven’t seen or heard from Emilio at all.I was really bothered by his behavior. Like I felt too uneasy about this whole thing.This is so unlike him, he’s always around me, if not he always texts but this time it’s as if he’s disappeared.Where could he have gone to? I texted him yesterday but he didn’t even see the message. What is happening right now? Am I being too paranoid? This is too weird. It’s messing up my mind. He’s never ignored me like this!Never! Not even once! 
>>RoshniNo!Don’t overthink it! He would have shown some kind of sign if he was interested in me right?I thought about it hard.I mean, his actions are confusing, he treats me like I’m someone special but how special am I? In his mind what kind of person am I to him?Was it really about the age? But he never said anything about that! But then again he always stuck by my side too. But on that note, we lived together for eighteen years! In the same house! So we were bound to be together.Yet, our relationship isn’t like that of siblings. It’s something I’ve never quite been able to put my f
>>RoshniHe still hasn’t replied to my text. I sent Lio a text message right after he ran away yesterday but he’s yet to even see it.“Is Emilio Vincenzo a friend of yours?” Daniel and I made our way towards the cafeteria since we had a free class today.“Yea, why?” I looked at him while he had a slight frown on his face.“Nothing,” He laughed awkwardly, “He’s just scary…” He scratched his cheek with his index finger.“He’s scary?”“Yea, last time when you fell from the stairs, I was right behind
>>RoshniFreshmen drinking parties are pretty common welcome norms.It’s usually the third years who throw the party for the newcomers and all the people are from the same department.But-I looked at the person sitting next to me, “Why are you here?”Emilio smiled back at me, “What do you mean why? We’re a graduating batch, so we came to party.”“You’ve already graduated.” I rolled my eyes.“Yea well many of us still haven’t left so we thought why not have a little more fun.&
>>RoshniThe news about a critically injured person named Neem found in the alleyway near a pub spread quickly across the campus. Every single person in my department knew about it since it was a senior here and sadly enough it had been reported on the news too.It sort of became a big deal but no one knew what had happened and why? Everyone was questioned by the police regardless of the matter if they were present at the pub or not.The Blondie and her minions came to me when I was sitting in class before the professor came and acted like a bitch.“Did you do it?” She sat on my desk like she owned it.“Do what?” Daniel was right beside me and he asked the question.