"But mom I don't feel good" I said while fake coughing "can I please stay home another day" I pleaded.
I got released from the hospital three days ago and I still haven't been to school, why go I already know what's going to happen and what's going to be said; call me a coward but I just don't feel up to it.
"no nothing is wrong with you you're going to school even if I have to drag you there, stop letting them kids get the best of you; let them talk shit as long as they don't touch you fuck them." my mom ranted while washing the dishes "now go get dressed Cam should be on his way"
I huffed and stomped up the stairs.
"Stop stomping up my damn stairs for stomp a hole in you" my mom yelled
I rolled my eyes, and sat on my bed thinking about the events that happened only a couple days ago. I could've died that day I thought to myself as I got up to find an outfit to wear. No on
"yeah but I heard that she tried to kill herself cause she couldn't get a boyfriend" Tamara said"ew how desperate" Tanaji added laughing"and pathetic she probably did it for attention basic bitch" I said while applying my mascara"yeah so true" they said at the same timeCreeeakkWe all looked at the bathroom door to see who came in; it was this little brown skin chick with braces"aren't you that suicide chick best friend" Tamara asked"ex best friend"I smiled and turned around to look at her "aw what happened""she's mad at me for basically no reason" she said while leaning against the bathroom stall"didn't you post the Insta thing telling the school what happened" Tanaji asked"yes and no I posted it but someone else pu
"World War 2 helped to end the Great Depression in 1939" Mr. Herman spoke to the class while going to the next slide on the PowerPoint.I would usually be taking notes, but today is different all I want to do is go home its only second period and everywhere I go eyes follow; they act like I cant hear them whispering about me that's the girl who tried to kill herself. That's all I've been hearing, it makes me just want to run home and never come back; but I need my education that's the only reason I stay and also because my mom would beat the crap out of me if she knew I left school early.PssstI looked over to see this girl trying to hand me a piece of paper, I grabbed it before Mr. Herman saw it the last thing I needed right now was to get sent to the principals office.Which way did you try to go? Is the only thing the note read I looked back at the girl confused, but she wasn't lookin
Here you can wear this, I think we wear about the same size" Roxy said passing me a t shirt and a pair of shorts."thank you Roxy""no problem"I went into her bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror as I took off my ruined gunk filled clothes why me I thought to myself as I tried to pull some of the dry flour from my hair. I gave up and just hoped I could wash it all away with having to cut my hair.After my long shower I felt a little better, and I'm glad I didn't have to cut any of my hair; a couple of strands came out but nothing critical Thank God."hey stranger I thought you fell down the drain or something" Roxy said placing bags of chips, cookies and candy on the floor with two sodas "take a seat hun and tell me all your problems"I laughed as I took a seat "by the time I finish telling you all my problems we'll be thirty"
"Mr. Jones your guest are here" Tia said through the intercom "send them in" I replied backA couple minutes later my old parole officer Roger and his brother Austin walked in, I stood up and greeted them "wassup bruh been awhile" I said while pulling Austin into a hug"its good to see you outside of a jail cell""same here, take a seat y'all want anything""we good bruh" Roger said as they took seats in the chairs across from my desk"whats been going with you" Austin asked me leaning back in the chair and looking at me "Rog told me you was having baby mama drama""mane I was at first, Tanisha was straight tripping trying to get me locked back up and shit not letting me see my daughter, but a couple days ago Alaina was in the hospital""awl shit forreal what happened" Roger said leaning forward in his seat kind of
"alaina wake up alaina"I woke up to Roxy tapping on my arm "what time is it" I said sitting up and looking around "what happened""its 2:30 and nothing happened just the downside of a sugar high is you have to come down, we both fell asleep but your phone woke me up someone is blowing it up" Roxy said while getting up "I'm going to get me a water bottle you want one""yes" I said while rubbing my forehead i usually don't eat a lot of sweets, because when I do I get mini headaches; like a sugar hangover. I looked on the bed for my phone to see it had fell, I reached down for it, but a hand grabbed it before I could"aaaaaahhhh" I screamed while standing up on the bed, Roxy came running in holding two water bottles "whats wrong" she said looking up at meI pointed under the bed "someone is under there"Roxy put the water bottles on her dresser and
I laid in bed staring at the ceiling, I don't think I've ever been this mad at Alaina, I was so worried about her; I was scared because I thought she hurt herself and I was scared this time I wouldn't be able to save her.I cant believe Chynna would do some foul shit like that, I got up out of bed angry now through all the years of Chynna messing with Alaina this is the worse and it makes me even angrier that I wasn't there to protect AlainaI grabbed my car keys"where you going" my mom asked looking away from the t.v she was watching"I'm going over to Alaina's house" I replied while giving her a kiss on the cheek, trying my best to control my anger the last thing I needed was for her to start asking question"oh alright tell Alaina I love her and she needs to come by here and see me" she said while looking back at love and hip hop"alrigh
"Are you gonna go in?" Roxy asked looking at meI stared at my house, my mom and dads car was in the driveway "I'm fucked" was all I could say my mom specifically told me to be home when she got there, but there was a car wreck not to far from Roxy's house so we had to take the long way"do you want me to come in and explain to them what happened""no its fine, I put this on myself" I sighed "Ill see you later thanks again""no problem text me if you need me""bye Rosie" I said waving at her"bye bye Alaina" she said waving from the back windowI watched the car as it backed out of my driveway, I wish I could just go back in time then I would be able to text everybody that I would be at a friends house; I wouldn't be in any trouble and Cam wouldn't be mad at me I thought to myself as I climbed the stairs before I could even tw
I sat in the chair letting what happened settle in, finally I got up ready to fuss Alaina out for not listening when I told her to come back; but Jacob grabbed my wrist"just leave her alone"I looked at him like he was crazy and snatched my arm away "hell no I will not have no disobedient child in my house"He stood up and got in front of me "leave her alone Tanisha she going through things right now and as her parents all we can do is be there her; she's not a child anymore, you cant control her anymore".I looked up at him as a tear fell down my face, all I want is for my baby to be okay "I've always told Alaina she can come and talk to me; I'm always here for her""stop all that damn crying we both know she wasn't going to be a child forever she's learning and growing, its her life now. You taught her everything she needed to know now its up to her, she has to make and learn