41. DEAR DIARY...

"Dear diary, it's been a while since I got back to you. You must have felt unhappy too right? Haha, I guess I abandoned everyone during my moment of delusion. A lot has happened to me and it's quite surprising how a simple crush on someone could build something this huge - perhaps a hole that can't be patched in my heart. Why do I feel like he is pretending, DD? Why do I feel like he is pushing me away? I don't want to step into the Atlantic Ocean again but at the same time, I still don't want to leave. Our memories are precious and the harder." She stood up from her bed because she didn't feel comfortable writing it there.

She pulled her chair backward and sat on it, placing her book on her desk. Then she continued pouring her heart into the book.

"You know what? When I first saw him, he looked lonely and distant...not wanting to be helped so I was less concerned until that night when he actually saved me. Since that night, fate seemed to have brought us together yet he w