If I thought the place was bad before, it was worse after the door was closed. I never knew I was claustrophobic until then. I thought I would faint but as my eyes went around the room, I calmed myself down or tried to. I had to show strength, had to be a pillar than to crumble myself.
I took a deep breath, my chest pushing in and out with my face going blank instead of panicking.
Most of the children were crying, having been ripped from their parents. I went to hold onto two, hugging them.
“It’s okay, it will be over before you know it and you will be back home soon.” I cooed until they calmed down then moved on to the next, leaving the last two seated down. I did that and it seemed to work until all the children were seated and just waiting for whatever would happen. My hands rubbed against each other, wanting to pace but it would unnerve some people so I stood straight and strong. My eyes stayed on t
I knew I had been out of it for so long and I fought so hard in panic because I knew my pack needed me but no matter how much I pushed there was just nothing but darkness pressing me down. The same darkness I loved kept me hostage in my own body. I screamed in my heard, punched and pushed with all I had but it seemed I could not negotiate my way through the darkness that trapped me down.Nothing was happening, I could hear nothing, just absolute hell. I cried over and over in my head yet it helped no one until I felt the darkness swirl inside me.The ache was what I felt first, deep to my bones then the softness of the sheets and the cool air on my skin. I knew it was happening and all I could do was push it even further away until my eyes flickered open to close. The room was dark, the ceiling coming to view to be whisked away again until my eyes went steady and I was just staring at the ceiling.I stayed there for I don’t know how long. I knew I had done something terrible and I was
The tears came back. I knew it was bad, I knew whatever it was, it was bad. My lips quivered, lowering to the bed. I pulled the pillow he had slept on, bringing it to my nose and held it there while I folded myself.I was a coward, I was hiding and I knew it. The room got lighter and lighter until the sun was in the sky. I just did not want to lose the people that in my head were fine, that were alive. I did not want to crush my reality by going down and realizing so many people I knew and cared about were killed so brutally.But I could not hide forever. I could not let Conri and Brum deal with it alone. I had been passed out for who knows how long, leaving them to collect the pieces. Not anymore.The bed was made, changing the sheets from those black with tears.I then went to take a shower. Black leggings were put on along with a black sweater and sneakers. My hair was tied tightly. My hands shook, waiting by the door afraid to open it and crush my world. Deep breaths were taken be
“Hello.” A voice came from the front door then footsteps that had my head snap to the opened door of the kitchen. I walked closer to it until the footsteps got louder. A girl appeared. She wore a black dress that fell just under her knees. Her hair was tied back. Her eyes were blood shot, dark under eyes so heavy. She stopped where she was, seeing her eyes go wide with her chest moving up and down I thought she would faint.“Hello, sorry for just intruding. I am Luna Raven from the royal pack, future queen.” I greeted with her going so pale then I recalled that I looked nothing like they were used to.“Please, don’t be alarmed, I won’t cause any harm.” I said with her taking a step back. I let her be, a second passing with another. Her eyes snapped to the side, me turning to see that the women I came with had emerged.She calmed down then bowed.“Forgive me your royal…highness….” She seemed to not be sure what to say. It was actually the first time someone addressed me that way or b
The alpha’s voice was already the one pronounced, not sure I wanted to show my face. He shouted and was screaming at someone as if to tear them to pieces. I could hear commotion the more I walked through until I broke from the crowd. A distance was left between the king, the alpha, the doctor and the crowd. I slowly walked on, seeing the bed where I was sure the dying alpha’s son was fighting for his life. On the floor was blood, so much blood with some having silver, some black. I heard the constant coughing with more blood dripping from the bed. It was a horrifying sight but I was out and had to move further.Alpha Rivers jumped from the king’s grip seeing his distraction. He ran for the doctor who was crying himself. The doctor was a whole grown man, crying tears. He had scratches here and there showing that the alpha had been pouring as much anger as he could out on him.He scratched and dug his extended claws in the doctor who did not even scream. The doctor just mumbled it in wi
I was getting trapped in my body way more than I would like. Just swerving away to a point where I did not even panic, I just lay there until my eyes flickered open to the ceiling staring back at me. Everything came hard on me, pouring and all I could think about was all the time I was losing. It was not the time to drift away, it was not the time to waste away because it seemed our world was burning.My eyes narrowed with me frowning.The ceiling was white yet seemed unfamiliar. The whole room seemed too large to be my room. Was I in the king’s bedroom? The excitement was too much, thinking of the way he had held me then in that moment, I felt it. A very warm hand was holding so firmly to mine. It was a man’s hand. I could tell with how big and firm it was.I nearly died of excitement but took deep breaths.Wait.Sparks?It hit. The man was definitely not the king. Was it Brum? The excitement shot up again. I missed him, I had not seen him since he walked off to war. I did not care
We reached our floor and that was when the king lay me down gentle. Okay, he did not lay me down but just set me down. My feet kissed the floor, my socks protecting me from the cold as I straightened up, slowly letting go no matter how much I did not want to. My hands pulled on the sleeves of the sweater, hating for everything to be over but kind of excited and hopeful to slip in bed after a long hot bath.The king took a step back, turning and walking away just like that. It still amazed me how he just easily detached. I was still buzzing from his touch, I was still dreamy from our walk but he was on to the next thing.My body turned, my hand on the handle, my safe haven.“Would you know where my black shirt is?” The king asked suddenly, shocking me. I frowned, why would he ask me? But then, I recalled.“Uhm, Please check the laundry room. I washed the day before, ironed and folded them. I was going to take them to your room along with Brum’s the next day.” I said to him only to do a
I couldn’t rest. My mind was everywhere. I cried and cried until I stopped, tossing and turning in bed. As much as I knew Brum was alive, his near death experience had me imagine a life without him and it was so painful in such a way as if he had passed. Everything was confusing. How was it even possible? I did not know seriously and thinking about it had my head ache in such a way I could not take it. I got off the bed as soon as I saw the first light of the glorious sun hit my room. I made my bed, walking to take a shower. I had so many things to do I did not even know where to start. Since the king was back, I did not even know if I was allowed to still work in his office but at the same time I did not think I could bare being in Brum’s office. All I needed was to see him and until then my heart was sore in ways I could not state. I walked to the king’s office, knocking twice with no answer coming so I nervously opened the door, peeked in my head, finding it empty. A breath was l
The first thing I did when I got back was take a shower then went over to the king’s office to continue with work. I thought he would still be at the Rivers pack which was why I just opened the door without knocking, waltzing in only to gasp as my eyes lay on him. I froze where I was, no turning back, realizing what I had done.His eyes which had been reading through something rose up to me, eyebrows furrowed at the person who had a liver to just waltz into his office as if they owned it.“Sorry my king, I don’t know where my head was at.” I quickly said, not sure if to continue in or walk away but I favored the latter. I took a step back, ready to dash from there.“Come in.” The king said with me nodding my head yet so nervous I thought I would faint. The door was closed behind me and I walked quick to pull the chair facing his and sat down. I was sure he knew I was there in the morning and had sat in his chair. What had I been thinking? I mentally scolded myself.When settled, my ey