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Chapter 14 : He was so high
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TROUBLED Chapter 15 : He was so cautious
4am. That's the time, Eric and I left the beach. I couldn't wait to hit my comfortable bed honestly. I was tired and worn out and my dress was wet. Eric had mischievously held me bridal Style only to have us both landing in the cold sea water. I told him, I was mad and wouldn't be forgiving him anytime soon but I'm about twenty minutes our lips were sealed together and our bodies entwined in every imaginable way. It was pure bliss, every moment with Eric was always blissful. When we got home, I saw both of my parents cars already parked. They were clearly home, I was twenty-five anyways and this is my life. Eric's I don't care attitude was rubbing on me. We quietly walked up the stairs careful not to make any noise. Now fluttering my eyes, everything was still a blur and I could hear my mom knocking. I panicked, thinking Eric was here but looking around he wasn't and I was dressed in his white dress shirt, reaching my knees. I had a blanket covering me with warmth. He had clearly
TROUBLED Chapter 16 : He was so open
It's really hard to want to hate someone but at the same time worry so much about them immensely. Eric never came home, I had waited and waited for him in the guest room, well supposedly his room. I called him multiple times, none stop until he eventually decided he would switch of his phone. Eric was selfish, it wasn't the first time I had to come to realize this. He was just illiberal, mean, narrow-minded, self-seeking. There was just so much I could say about him and the list would be endless. The thought of him aggravated me and the thought of me still caring about his well being thereafter, aggravated me even more. I don't know what time I slept but I must have dozed off in the midst of waiting for Eric to come back. A tiny wave of fear, made itself known. I tried hard not to think about it but what if Eric had left and wasn't coming back. He didn't have much anyways, he could simply just up and leave if he wanted to. The only thing or clothing that I know he remotely cared more
TROUBLED Chapter 17 : He was so inlove
I took the ride with my dad to the hospital, i was trying to avoid Eric. Remembering what he had said and the way things had turned out. I had to be content and accept that he was never mine to begin with and he would never be mine. He was Debby's it showed in the way he talked about her, the way his frown immediately turned into a smile. He simply adored her and she was one lucky girl. For a moment... I wished I was her.But as long as he was happy."You and Eric seem to have ironed it all out?" My dad said, I had been in deep thought that I didn't realize he had already parked at the hospital. "Yes, we did. Thanks dad, I think I understand him more now." I gave him a brief smile. "You don't seem happy?" He questioned his eyebrows furrowed. Ofcourse I wasn't, Eric was inlove with someone else and he had made it clear now I couldn't exactly smile at that, now would I? "I am happy, I just hate needles that's all." I muttered."You're a nurse darling, how can you hate needles." He ch
TROUBLED Chapter 18 : He was undecided
My day was too good.Weird because I had only known Nicholas for just a day or just hours but I felt like I had known him forever. I didn't want to jump into conclusions and compare him to Eric or Robbie because fact is he had not made any advances or asked me out. He was just genuinely a nice fun person, I admired heat of imagination and mental excitement. When I said I was avoiding Eric... I really meant it. After I was done with my shift at five pm, I went to Laura and Sam's apartment. Sam was mad and grumpy because apparently I ruined another... session. I wasn't sorry about it, Sam was an ass and one way or another this was put back for all the times he snatched my bestfriend and made her not show any interest to hang out with me or call me because she was booed up. I mentally rolled my eyes at the thought, being friends with someone who is in relationship not just any relationship but a serious relationship is annoying. Sometimes I felt like hitting Sam with my shoes whenever h
TROUBLED Chapter 19 : He was so moody
It was around six pm when we finished with the dress fitting. Personally I didn't like the bridesmaid dresses. It's as if Addie wanted us to look super horrid that way the whole spotlight would be on her. Don't get me wrong, it was after all her wedding but I didn't like my dress. I felt very uncomfortable because unlike Elishama, Laura and Mal... it shaped every meander of my body. As the years had went by, I always avoided wearing tight clothing or dresses because it grabbed attention that I didn't want. Laura thought, in fact they all thought I looked great but I didn't feel that way. I felt out of place. Maybe my insecurities were getting the best of me. I had to convince myself that it wasn't about me, it was about Addie and Jeremy. I shouldn't be a drama queen about a dress shaping my body...By eight pm, we were at Addie's hangout. I never quite caught the name of the bar so far as I can remember; it always was Addie's hangout amongst friends and family. Not that our parents ev
TROUBLED Chapter 20 : She was so desperate
Eric - I was trying on my tux when my phone started ringing. Hooray, we definitely know who calls around this time because of the prison schedule. You could call me ungrateful because she is the reason why I didn't spend four years max in prison. It wasn't my fault and I won't take the blame for it. I didn't put a gun to her head, she did it because she loves me and that's what happens when you fall inlove kids. You become a fool, might as well dress up as a fucking clown while at it. She did it willingly and I suppose I do owe her. Sometimes I love and care about her and sometimes I'm just extremely annoyed, irritated with her. I haven't seen her in years, totally my fault. I don't like stuffy prisons, if I go there, I know I will feel worse. My conscience will get to me and I don't like having a conscience at all. I like to push that away considering I'm a compulsive liar. I don't like thinking about the consequences my actions may have on people. I only think about me and my back
TROUBLED Chapter 21 : She was in denial
I purposely woke up earlier than her so i could watch her sleep and feel like the luckiest jerk in the world. She actually wanted me? This beautiful woman wanted me! She had not said it back as in 'Ich liebe dich' or 'I love you' but i respected that. I respected that she was still thinking about this as much as i was and figuring it out. Deep down, i knew this was just an excuse... figuring what out you may ask? I was well aware that i wanted Leona in every way possible but then there was Debby. My feelings for her were mutual maybe when i actually see her all my feelings will just come right back or not. Maybe not, maybe i just want to be with Leona then there's the thought that I felt this way about Leona because I was lonely? Felt needy? I honestly don't know. I was a confused cockroach and i was just dragging Leona into my pit of misfortunes. I am selfish enough to do that... selfish enough to not let her go be with someone who actually wants to stay with her... for as long as i
TROUBLED Chapter 22 : She was so hurt
"You know Eva right?" I nodded before realizing she couldn't see me, how stupid!"Yes, of course. Dee." I replied trying really hard to be enthusiastic about this conversation but it just wasn't in me. I bailed myself by walking around the pool with one hand in my back pocket, kicking a few stones here and there. From afar, I could see Leona through the sliding door playing with the twins. It was a really cute scene, my heart warmed up to that. It felt like we were our own little family. It was like a trial on how we would somehow act as parents one day. I found it really weird that I was actually opening up to growing up. Growing up, finding my girl... and well-Settling down.Shit yeah, settling down. I suppose when you meet someone who makes you feel a certain way, you just don't want to wait. You want everyone to know that they're with you and for a jealous freak like me; a fucking huge rock on her finger would be the official it, to chase these perverts away."One of the guards
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