OLIVIA'S POVMY legs felt swollen but at this moment that was nothing compared to the thousand of daggers being fired at my heart by hands that were not visible– Nathaniel invisible hands.I didn't care about reality as every single one of it breezed away through my ears in the empty wind, the short trip to the door looked like traveling a mile, the sound of Jane calling my name fell back to the ground in silence.All I wanted was to pour out the pain I was feeling in deep tears and I did exactly that, or at least I had been doing exactly that. Jane had been banging at my door since we got back.It was obvious she was worried not for me but for the sake of the child. I didn't wait for the cab to pack us properly in front of our apartment before dashing out and walking toward my room.Now Stared at myself in the mirror, my eyes red and puffy from tears, I could see the black stain from the mascara running down my face and for the first time since I could remember I actually cried f
NATHANIEL'S POVTWO weeks and a day, that was how long my memory was gone and I was without any flickering image of the past or had had the awareness of who I was, regaining it now had made ni difference as I was still like I was in without my memory, confused without the knowledge of my true identity.We sat at the pouch smoking and puffing out the smoke mid air, it was the only way I found comfort and with each puff I blew into the air, I could feel my chest become tightened not only with the black toxic smoke but also from emptying me of my worries, and thoughts.I could feel a thin line of Bitterness cut through my chest, feeling it rush through my nerves to my heart. I glanced sideways wondering if he heard my heartbeats that were beating silently but obviously in pain all through that while.His look was different from mine, as he had a satisfied look on his face. I could feel the resentment in my heart fade into a different kind of ache as I fought not to rub at the pang i
OLIVIA'S POVI could literally perceive the scent of the sick people that filled the room in the other warda of the hospital. I had frequented there quite often and knew the exact spot to sit to reduce the scent that radiated around the room looking to drain the energy of those in the room and vice versa.A little girl walked up to me with a little doll in her hands, she tucked at my skirt and looked up at me as if hoping to get candy or something.Her mother walked toward and apologized for the child's behavior , I could see that like I was she was heavily pregnant." I am Sorry, she started to hope you are not angry that she disturbed your peace, you know how these children can be sometimes."I said nothing but smiled at her. Most probably she must have read the smile or perhaps I looked too young to birth two children because the question she asked next was if that was my first pregnancy.I felt not at ease speaking to a total stranger all hey myself but it was something I had to d
NATHANIEL'S POVIF THERE was anything I must be more concerned about over the last couple of days it most definitely had to be my mental health I could feel every now and then derailing with no sensible and logical reason to explain it.I was fine,fine and quite alright as the initial vitals firm my test had stated but deep down there was still this vacuum I couldn't still feel, this empty space I had no way of explaining, I would have ignored it if it was not persistent as every now and then I could literally feel it eating me up till I could feel myself as oblivion– Absolute nothing.I would term it as Karma, this strange feeling I was getting. It was funny that it seemed to be in pursuit of me for the mistake I had made rather than because of any wrong committed.Shouldn't it be the other way round?I stared blankly at the wallpapers on the wall, it was to be our last day at the hotel as Alexis already or pre-arranged for us to leave that day. It was obvious that we've outstayed o
OLIVIA'S POV"I STILL Can't believe he is Leaving."The disgust in my voice was quite glaring and quite noticeable as there was no way I could hide it. It was funny to think that he had deemed it fit to leave without having the second thoughts of his child and though I don't like to admit it " myself ."It had been four days since running into him and Amy Jane always talked about it and there was no way I could take the thought of them out of my mind.It was stuck there I guess forever, he touched a part of me that would forever change my life. He has made a mother and now he wants to leave ?."Madness." I spat out in disgust. " I hate this fucking man."Jane stared at me while we pressed our knees and stretched. It was a pretty hard task for a pregnant woman but I did it anyway.She hardly broke the details to me when I sparked in a way she had not expected, she looked at me briskly and smiled."Now why are you smiling I asked?" "It is funny you Know, the fact that you talk like y
OLIVIA'S POVIt wasn't Nathaniel calling yet the fact that Alexis was on the other side of the call gave me goosebumps. It was obvious why he was calling, he was probably telling Jane to meet him up at the airport or something else.Whatever it was, the thought of it in a way made me quite jealous. We had met them the same day yet when she was having the time of her life with one, I was having the hell of a time with another.The fact that Jane who was not an all- time romantic was having the best of it seemed like odd out of the ordinary, it was something she can't quite explain herself the fact remained that he had walked right into her life and without much to do had changed everything, the way she thought, the way she flirted with other men.She seemed devoted now to him and I wanted that, I wanted to feel every single one of her burning passion deep in my chest till it burned out in my soul, but the fact remains that where he is going to, I can't go.It is quite surprising that m
OLIVIA'S POVI MUST have slept off waiting for her but soon something I didn't know woke me up suddenly from the soft cushion i was sitting, the fan above my head whirled slowly as I could hear the sound of wild dogs barking inside the wood, aside being heavily pregnant the thought of taking a run in the wood never came across my mind as there was this fear of what might happen if cornered by one of this beast.The thought alone gave a kind of spooky feeling, at the back of my mind I could imagine myself running with the wild animals being in hot pursuit, of course I'd fall and the wild beast would gnarl and circle round me till a Knight in shining armor out of nowhere comes to my dear rescue, most times I gave the knight Nathaniel beautiful face and at other times the knight had no face.That was the way I pictured it in my head, at least that was how I read them in novels. Jane had thought I was crazy when I told her my thoughts. We laughed about it trying to fix Nathaniel busy into
OLIVIA'S POVI TRIED to weigh the words I had just heard and found it was too much lead for my heart to carry, I had spent the afternoon thinking he was gone for good – Away from the child's life and myself maybe till the nearest future but it had come to me as a shock again that that was not to be so.Somehow,in a way I couldn't possibly explain Nathaniel was not in the plane flying miles away back home as a matter of fact he was still back here at the gulf.My feeling for him was still neural, he had cheated on me so I had this feeling of disdain toward him.I had laughed at my comment and the fact that j had used the word cheat to describe a situation where both parties were not really in a relationship, it appeared awkward using the word but I used it anyway.I was the mother of his unbirthed child and deserved some accolades and respect, so if I describe what had happened between us as cheating it most definitely was, he cheated and nothing could tell me anything less.In a way