Lara
Ambrose comes into the room just as I'm putting my bra on. His eyes are wild and filled with concern. "What happened?"
I shrug and point at the money. "He put this here and left."
"Do you think he recognized you?"
"No, I don't think so. I don't know? I would've noticed it."
"Why would he leave so abruptly after waiting for so long?"
Ambrose is asking me all these questions but I don't have the answer for him. I don't know. I'm wondering the same thing and have no way of finding answers. I don't know if I'm in danger. I feel very strangely about all of this. He asked me my name, though. Was he expecting me to say Lara? Maybe I'm being an idiot for assuming that he didn't recognize me.
Why wouldn't he?
"What do we do now?" I ask him after a while.
"I don't know, Lara," he states before looking at me. "I have no idea. The choice is entirely up to you. I'm going to let you decide. Whatever you decide will be good enough for me. I can't force you to face this situation. It's not fair or right."
I chew my bottom lip. Do I really want to leave now that I've finally faced my fears? I didn't think that I would be able to strip and dance in front of people but it seems I've managed. I'm perfectly capable. When the man who ruined my life sat right across from the stage, I felt this panic deep inside of me that almost made me drop everything and run away. It was such a strange feeling. Seeing him again was something I never thought would happen and there I was, stripping for him.
But I did it, and I would've continued if he hadn't gotten up and left.
Maybe he knows who I am at this point. Maybe my face hasn't changed as much as I thought it did. But I'll stay. I'll stay because being able to stay in the same room as him empowered me in a way. I faced that fear. I feel unstoppable.
I'll take the risk. I'll stay.
Besides, Ambrose was right when he said it would be great to have the opportunity to ruin his life. If this works out, then I will make the most of the opportunity. If it doesn't, then I will leave. But until then, I don't see a reason why I should leave.
"I'll stay," I tell him. He seems surprised by my answer. I add, "I'll see how far we can take this."
Ambrose inclines his head. "We have a deal, then. I promise you I'll do my part."
"I'll be counting on it."
He tells me I can leave early and I don't dispute it. I make it to the apartment, fully dressed of course, and find Ander sleeping. I sit on the edge of his bed and stroke his hair. Thankfully, he stays asleep. Seeing that man today has changed me somehow. Made me stronger. It has also made me realize that I can't hide forever, no matter how hard try. At some point, the past catches up to people, and all they have to do is know how to face it.
Ander looks a little like him. Before, his face was a glued to my mind but his features were also clouded somehow. Tonight, I've finally created a new image to replace the old one. Dexter Russell. That's the name of his father. And he'll never know. Why should he know? That man can't have anything to do with my son. I would never let him get close. Not a chance.
Tears fill my eyes and blur my vision. I have to stand up and go to my room to sob. I lean against the door and let it all out. Never in a million years would I have thought that I would go through something like this. If the circumstances were different, as in, if I were stripping just for cash and he ended up being one of my clients, maybe I would've felt humiliation. He'd wanted to destroy me for being Victor Taylor's daughter and he would've actually succeeded. The daughter of one of the most famous Lycans in our territory stripping for common werewolves wasn't exactly a success story.
But no, this isn't the case. I'm in a position to help bring him down from the altar he has built for himself. I'm in a position to destroy him, plain and simple. And why should I miss out on such an opportunity? Out of fear?
No, not a chance.
I've gone through too much in my life to be afraid. Now is the time to take action, which is why I'm going to stay.
Oh, I'll stay alright.
I shower afterward. I feel oddly dirty. As I squeeze shower gel onto my bath sponge, I come to a realization. There's something I didn't tell Ambrose, which would explain why I decided I was going to stay and why I think he didn't recognize me. I would've seen something like triumph in his eyes if he knew who I truly was. And if not triumph, then maybe something akin to shock? Either way, I would've seen something like that.
But I didn't.
Instead, I saw lust.
I know I'm not mistaken, especially thinking back to it now. My eyes were directly on him as I was afraid that he would pull a gun on me or something. I saw how his eyes roamed my body and how he crossed his legs afterward. And then, when he walked up to me, I saw that he was hard. There was a visible bulge in the front of his pants.
Would the sight of me have made him so excited if he knew who I was?
Yes, he left. I don't know why, but he did. I don't think it had anything to do with him knowing who I am, though. It was something else, something that maybe I'll find out with time if he comes back. Will he? I'm hoping that he will.
The next time he comes around, I'll give him my best performance. I'll make him even more excited. And if things work out according to plan, just as Ambrose predicts, and he ends up getting close to me, I'll make him want me even more. I'll do everything in my power to ruin his life.
I'd do it for free but thankfully, I'll get paid.
A smile pulls at the corner of my lips. So, this is how power feels like? It kind of helps me understands how he felt like when he fucked me in that rooftop and ruined me. The message he sent to my father must've made him tingle all over. No matter. I'll make him tingle. I'll do everything—and anything—to get close to him. I'll show him my naked body. I'll spread myself open just for him. Hell, I would even let him fuck me if it meant I'd be able to ruin him.
But I will do it at the end of the day. I will make him pay.
With this thought in mind, I get ready for bed. My head is spinning. I feel very hopeful and optimistic. I finally have a chance to do something worthwhile. This has to be the goddess' doing. The fact that Ambrose found me can't be a coincidence. It's fate.
In the morning, I wake up a little late. It's past ten. Training only starts at around two in the afternoon, though, so I'm not too worried. I did want to spend some time with Ander, though. I find him in the living room, gong through a very old book that used to belong to my grandmother. He looks up when I approach him. "Are you okay?"
He nods. "Yeah."
"Wanna go out?"
His eyes light up. "And do what?"
"Ice cream?"
"Yeah!" he exclaims. "Alright!"
I take him out for a few hours. I use the money Dexter Russell tipped me to do this. It doesn't make me feel bad at all, actually. As I watch my son eat his ice cream, I run my fingers through his hair. He actually looks a lot like Dexter but I don't let it get to me. He's nothing to Ander. He doesn't matter at all.
"Do you like it?" I ask him absentmindedly.
He nods. "Yeah. It's great."
"What do you want to have for lunch?"
"Pizza?" he asks hopefully.
I smile warmly at him. "Okay."
I take him for pizza. Life feels somewhat complete, I can't even lie and say it doesn't. And now that I know I'll be able to push the man who put me and Ander through this, I feel a lot better. Lighter. It'll be like we didn't suffer in vain. All that's left for me to do is bide my time.
I'll make him suffer. Even if it's the last thing I ever do.
LaraWhen Ambrose calls me down from the stage to tell me that Dexter Russell has made a request for me, we're both in shock. It's too soon to celebrate because we don't know what his intentions are yet. This could very well be a trick for him to get me alone with him for some reason. I remain optimistic though. I'm not at all scared of coming face to face with him again. I'm looking forward to it.It's been five days since he ran out on me. This whole time, I thought that maybe he wouldn't come back and that would be that. After I received my first payment from Ambrose, which was some days ago, I was in tears. I'd never seen that much money and I was absolutely blown away by the amount. He's being very generous with me and I hope I can help him incriminate that man in any way that I can, not just to satisfy the rage I feel whenever I think about him but also as a 'thank you' to Ambrose. "This is another shot," Ambrose tells me.I nod. "I'm aware and I promise you that I'll do my b
LaraAfter I tell Ambrose the offer Dexter made me, he’s pensive. I keep waiting for what he’s going o say because I don’t know where’s this is going to go. How will Ambrose deal with the matter? I know that Dexter said that he’d find out if I told him but that would only be in the case that Ambrose tried something against him. Which Ambrose won’t do. “Who would’ve guessed,” he says. “I planted you here to keep an eye out on him and he’s trying to do the same with you.”I ask, “Is there a reason for him to want to have me spy on you?”“Not that I know of,” he replies without missing a beat. “It’s confusing, actually. I’m not sure what I’ve done to get the attention of the authorities.”“But he suspects of something, or he wouldn’t ask me.”“If you can, I want you to find out what it is,” he tells me. “I hate to put you in this position but it seems Dexter didn’t give you a choice. He’ll kill you either way.”I shudder at this. “He didn’t recognize you at all? You’re sure about tha
DexterI watch Red leave the grocery store in mild disbelief. I don’t understand that woman at all. I’ve only just met her but she seems to me like a very complicated person. The problem is that I can’t seem to stay away from her and I’m starting to grow angry at my own stupidity. Telling her about the job wasn’t supposed to happen the way it did. I needed time to assess her and make sure that she’d be the perfect candidate for the job. I don’t know if I can trust her. I know she’s new but that doesn’t guarantee that she’s not loyal to Ambrose. It was a stupid move, and the worst part is that I only did it because I wanted an excuse to push her off me yesterday. I knew what was coming and my fear was that I wouldn’t be able to resist her. So, I said the words out loud. I gave her the offer. I don’t even know if she’ll see this through. I’m not sure if I trust this at all. Hell, I didn’t even look her up. I don’t know what her real name is or where she’s from. It’s frankly ridiculo
LaraIt's showtime.We're dancing. There's no sign of Dexter as he didn't book a session with me beforehand. I still have to do this, though, as people might find it suspicious if I only ever dance when Dexter is around. Anyone could book me. I'm prepared for that, too. In a few hours' time, I have five separate private shows. I'm amazed by the amount. It's about fifteen minutes each, and I can make a respectable amount of tips. Ambrose will pay me afterward. It's quite a lot of money for me, and that is what keeps me dancing for these strange men who gaze upon my body with lust. At first, I'm afraid, but then I realize that they're not allowed to touch me, not if I don't want them to. I do what everyone else does; I let them touch my waist and my belly. Oliver says it's a good way to build a connection with the clients. That way, they'll keep coming back. I let this happen, but they never take it far. I count the seconds until I'm done. Then, I return to the main area after tucking
Dexter My meeting with Red has come to an end. I'm about to leave but I stop at the bar one more time for a drink. I sit there and drink it slowly. I have to go home but for some reason, I'm dreading it. The argument I had with Ellen keeps replaying in the back of my mind and leaves a sour taste in my mouth that the whiskey fails to flush down my throat. I should never have said those things to her and I feel like a jackass. I run my fingers through my hair. I look to my left and see a man doing just about the same thing as me. The only difference is that he doesn't have hair, so he's just rubbing his scalp repeatedly. He flashes me a sympathetic smile. "Women problems, eh?"I don't answer him. "Yeah," he says. "I thought so. Welcome to the club. Everyone here comes to distract themselves from whatever shit is going on at home. These girls aren't judgmental, are they?"I don't want to have to talk to a stranger about my problems, especially the problems I have with my mate. I str
LaraAfter work, I find Ander in the living room of our apartment. I'm exhausted, mentally and physically. I try to paste a smile on my face and ask, "Hey, bud. What have you been up to all day?"He stands up and walks up to me to give me a hug. His arms are loose around me and he's not enthusiastic at all about any of this. I feel so bad. He says, "I've just been playing around.""Yeah?" I ask. "Weekend is coming up. I'll ask my boss for a few days off so we can go on a trip. I've been making really good money. Should we have a pizza for dinner? What do you think?""Sure," is all he says.The pizza comes and we have his favorite, which is pizza with pepperoni. We're eating directly across from each other. I watch his face for any emotion but he doesn't give anything away. He's eating silently. I then ask him, "Is something wrong? Something you want to talk about?"He puts his slice of pizza down on his plate and says, "You never told me much about my dad."I feel acid burning all th
Dexter After spending an entire day in the hospital, Ellen can finally come home. We haven’t had a chance to talk about her accident, mostly because her family has been around for too long, and that took our privacy away. At the same time, she looks like she’s happy that there are so many people around her. But despite her happiness, I know that this isn’t going to end well. When we get home, she’ll abandon these happy emotions and go back to sulking. That is, if I decide not to ask her what happened. We both know that what happened was no accident. She did that to herself on purpose. Why is that, though? I have my suspicions but I’ll keep them to myself for now. I’m the one who drives her home. In the car ride, we’re silent. Not a single word is exchanged between us. Maybe she’s waiting for me to say something. I’m beyond words. I park the car and then pull the brake. Then, we sit in silence. From the corner of my eye, I see her glance at me. I turn my face to the window, where
DexterThe room is completely dark and what little light is streaming into the room is coming from the lamp post outside. It’s bathing the entrance in an orange light, but that isn’t enough to fully see. I look around for the kid and don’t see him, not right away. By now, he’s probably seen that I followed him, so he must be hiding. Before I utter a word, I look around in hopes of spotting him. I have no luck.“Kid?” I ask as I look around. No answer comes from him. I add, “I saw you come in here. Are you seriously going to act like you’re not here?”Still, no answer. “Fine. We’ll just stay here the whole night. I have time.”He’ll definitely hesitate after this. Nobody wants to be caught sneaking in anywhere. As for me, I could always say that I found the door open. I fold my arms and lean against the doorframe. Although I’m curious to look around, I know better than to turn on the lights. Finally, I hear a sigh. “I just came in for some snacks.”“So, you are here?”“Could you cl