Fiona "I cannot believe what he just said." “It sounds true, it sounds possible.” I didn't realize that my father could have been the one who struck a bargain with his family. I don't understand. How could this be? It's possible but still, how could it be? And for a moment, after he answers—there is immense silence between the both us. I don't even know what to say after his response. I did not see this coming. I didn't think this will turn out to be about my family, and how he will remove himself entirely from the equation. "So you're saying...." I try to understand and I blink my eyes multiple times. "I'm not just saying anything." I'm saying what happened. It's not my opinion. It's what happened. "You can take the phone, call your father, call your family and find out from them." Cult says. "I didn't mean to make you comfortable." I was just asking the questions. I say to him, and he nods. "I've answered your question. Are you feeling uncomfortable? He says to me as I grab
Alpha Cult "Honestly, honestly, speaking...I do not think I would love this forth and back thing that we do." But after our dining table conversation, I've realized that it's true. I definitely should get to know her better and see what she's like, what kind of person she is because her being my wife is not the end of discussion for me. I need to put in the work if I want our relationship to work. So, because I want to build something that with the last test of time, and the test of difficulties. As her husband and Alpha, I should definitely have the patience to know her. "It was a refreshing experience to talk to her without the constant bicker and argument that happens between us." But there's something I need to fix and it has to do with Sarah. A long time ago, Sarah and I used to be closer to one another. "Many things happened and she found out that I could not love or have romantic feelings for women. Although, after finding out, she was distraught." She thought I wou
Fiona. After the conversation that I had with Cult, I feel different. In fact, he amazed me. It really amazes me on how I'm drifting back to that conversation and feeling so swept. It wasn't full of arguments like we usually do. It was an amazing, gentle, kiss and I actually imagined myself being his wife. I just have to remind myself every single time that the position that I'm standing in is not even mine. I have no clue of where my sister is. A part of me wants to find out and a part of me wants to remain near him. I'm losing my senses. I'm losing my mission. This is just the beginning, I do not even have the slightest clue of why in the first place. I don’t have any clues, and at this point, I need a trace of her to keep my hope. Why did you have to kiss me in such a manner? And why did he have to talk to me in such a manner—he shouldn't have messing with me. This is messing with my ability to stop myself from thinking the wrong things. I am in the Pack office working my
Alpha Cult. "I feel horrible." The fact that Sarah still has feelings for me makes no sense. She should have moved on from this. She should have moved on as far as away as she could have. How do I let Irish know about this? I do not want to cause drama in his relationship or give him a reason to suffer. I'm not going to follow Sarah's wickedly acts. This whole enchilada is unforgiving but Sarah cannot see that. How else do I make her understand? It's a very hard thing for me to do and I feel like Sarah is putting the both of us in a position that is unsuitable for us to stand in. How could she do this without guilt in her heart? It makes no sense. I am a better as a friend to her than a lover, especially not in this moment. This is a critical time in my life because right now, my focus is glued on someone and something else. I do not have the luxury of pursuing or doing any of the things she's asking me to do. However, I do have a responsibility to let my friend know exactly w
Fiona. I enter into the house and I can see Irish coming out. There is a disastrous look on his face and I can only imagine what he could have heard from Cult already. Did they speak about Sarah? I don't think there should be a problem anymore but considering the look on his face. It looks like there is a big problem. I stop to watch him as he heads out of the house and he did not even stay long enough to greet me. Of course, there is a problem! I begin to walk inside after I've watched him walk out of the house. And there I see Cult as he comes out, there is a look of frustration on his face, and I wonder if it has to do with the look on Irish's face. What exactly happened between these two? Did they fall out, they are alpha and beta, they cannot move further from each other. "If anything were to happen to culture today, Irish would replace him and that was how strong their board was supposed to be." Is there something wrong? I say and he looks at me. "I'll can't tell you,
Alpha Cult. I don’t like the way I spoke to Fey. I should have spoken to her softly. She isn't the reason why I and Irish are on loose ends. It has nothing to do with her and it has all to do with Sarah. I do not even know what to concentrate on at this very moment. It feels like a cluster and I have to find my own way out. First, I have to meet Fey and explain to her that I did not mean to be so rude. It really isn't my intention and I wish to make things right. I get out from the room and I begin to walk down the flights of stairs to have a conversation with Fey. "If we were going to be working on our relationship, we need to have a more practical alliance, this has to be the first step." I see Grace, the house keeper coming up the flight of stairs and I stop for a moment. Where is Fey? I ask. "Oh, Luna Fey is currently having a guest downstairs and they are speaking in the dining room." Grace replies. "I wonder what guest she is having, I didn't think she would have any fr
Alpha Cult.I can hear their conversation and I step in immediately to make sure that Sarah knows that I can hear what she is saying. What did you just say? I say to Sarah and she looks at me in shock—there is dropped dead look on her face because she realizes that I am right behind her.There is a strong expression on her face that I've never seen on our face before. "I just heard you say to my wife that you tried to harm her," I say? and she doesn't want to answer me. I grab a hold of her hand so that she can face me and answer my question.I growl in anger and she begins to turn away. It is obvious that she said something that she didn't think I would hear. I will not give her time to think about what to say." I was only joking!" She says and looks at me. I look at her and her facial expression is full of anger and audaciousness. I don't even know what to say because of the way she is currently looking at me, she's nothing but a snake in the grass!Sarah is someone that had a hea
Fiona I did not realize that I needed comfort until I felt it. I have never had someone hold me while I cried. My heart is breaking of the possibility that my sister is truly dead. I cannot seem to understand how it's this could happen…if my sister is dead; do I have to remain at this position forever? I cannot believe that she is no longer here. I've been waiting for her but she was never going to come back. I've been hoping that I would see her. I've been waiting for to hear her voice, I've been waiting for anything that would show me that she was still here. Fey is no longer in this world. I can’t believe that my sister is dead. I will not see her any longer. I can't even begin to understand how to control myself. How can I make sure that my heart is ready to accept this? I am in so much pain. I'm in so much pain. It is all cramped up in my heart right now and there's no way of relieving it. I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs until my voice gets stuck. Cult decided to