VANESSA
Early Morning I was standing by the kitchen counter,rubbing my pained back from spending the night on Jeremy's bedroom floor. I had no choice in the matter! I'm trying to keep certain boundaries between us so there's less confusion.
He's so Hot and Cold!!
One minute he's kissing my face off and the next he's turning back into an arrogant asshole. It's quite clear that he doesn't want to discuss what happened.But the boundaries need to be in place,so it doesn't happen again.
"Looks like someone has back pain this morning."Jeremy crossed the room towards me."I wasn't happy about you invading my space,Vanessa..But you didn't have to spend the night on the
I was filled with anxiety as I paced the floor,in my pointe shoes and my Red tutu dress that was covered in sparkles to catch the light as I moved.Backstage at the War Memorial Opera House,I glanced in the direction of my Male Ballet partner that I've been practicing with for weeks. Unlike me,Julian seemed cool as a cucumber.Pull yourself together,Vanessa!!I pulled back the Gold curtain made of silk,just slightly so I could have a peek.Big Mistake..Huge Mistake!! Seeing the Men and Women dressed up in their fancy tuxedo's and floor length gowns,filling up the 3126 seats had made me all the more nervous to get out there.Jeremy's face had caught my eye in the front row,as he chatted on his phone.Of course,I wouldn't really expect anything less from him since he doesn't even want to be here. He dressed up and he made an effort though,he's here for show. Not my show but our lives,the even bigger show!!
VANESSA The excitement that I was feeling after the Ballet was over,was short lived when I saw Jeremy and Alex standing in front of each other. Is Jeremy going to make a thing out of Alex being here?Surely not in front of his Mother..But the man can be unpredictable at times.As I made my way through the crowd in the main lobby,I was receiving smiles and words of praise. I wasn't used to the attention and the fuss, I wasn't used to being told how good I was at the thing that I've spent my whole life doing. Of course,I've been told by Family and Friends over the years. Family and Friends that know how much dancing truly means to me. Would they even tell me if I wasn't good at it? That would be heartbreaking!!
VANESSAMy palms were pressed flat against the thin fitted shirt that Jeremy was wearing,it was white in colour with little black buttons down the middle. I had noticed how his bow tie had come loose on the car ride here. I figured the man had been accustomed to a suit since he wears them so often,but tonight he looked irritated by it.He was looking good!! I couldn't lie and say otherwise. My body was reacting to his every touch,the feeling of his fingers grazing my skin even though it was over the material of the dress that I was wearing.I'm kissing my Arranged Husband!!The man I've grown to hate,the man I've called the Devil on more than one occasion. He's far from it,Isn't he? And it's far from hate that I feel.Our bodies were like magnets to one another,there was no pulling apart to speak or to ask a question like.."Why the hell are we doing this in a coat closet of all places?"No,Pulling aw
VANESSAUgh,I should have known!!That man is crazy-I should have known that he would do this. Why? Because he's jealous-because he thinks it will make him look a certain way if I was hanging on another man's shoulders. He's worried about looking WEAK maybe!!Jeremy doesn't know that Alex is gay.I've tried to tell him but he wouldn't even give me that chance. But still,I should be able to have male friends in my life whether they're Gay or Not!!"I am sorry for my Sons actions,if that means anything to you."Tom handed me a damp cloth and gave Alex a pitiful smile."I don't know what has gotten into him.""Jealously! It's obvious that he's just threatened by my relationship with Vanessa"Alex looked at me as I dabbed the cut above his eye."Didn't you tell him that I was Gay?"I shrugged my shoulders as an answer to his question. How could I really explain the fact tha
I pulled up outside the mansion after dropping Finley back at college bright and early. My brother and I didn't have the pleasantest of conversations on the car ride-since the talk was about what happened at the after party last night. I told Finley what happened-some of it at least.I didn't want to make the situation worse than it already is so I didn't tell my brother that Jeremy attacked Alex the way he did. I don't need Finley hating the man that I have to spend another couple of months with.Life is hard enough!!I looked out the window of my Black Audi Q7 and at the front door of the mansion. I didn't want to go in-I didn't want to face Jeremy just yet. Since Finley was sleeping in my room last night for obvious reasons,I ended up spending the night on the couch. It was definitely more comfortable than sleeping on Jeremy's bedroom floor that's f
VANESSAI popped two aspirin into my mouth and downed them with a cold glass of water. Thankfully I was discharged from the hospital early this morning, I honestly couldn't stand another second in that place. At the moment I'm sleep deprived and sore.I moved my fingers along the plaster that was across my hairline. A couple of stitches is what I got,but that wasn't what was worrying me. I was worried about everyone's reaction the next time they see me?Natasha and Alex-their mind is going to go straight to Jeremy considering what he did the last time they saw him. They're going to think that he was the one that's responsible for these stitches-not that it was some stupid accident."How are you feeling?"Ava asked,from the other side of the island. She's been watching me with pity ever since she picked me up from the hospital.Ava called my room this morning since I didn't have my phone with me
I took his hand in mine and looked down at him. Don't do this to me-you have to be strong. Don't die on me,is exactly what I've been thinking since Judy the nurse gave me the news. My Father isn't doing so good and the doctors are concerned.I remember them being concerned once before and he pulled through,maybe he'll pull through again. I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't. I've been hoping and praying for him to wake up-But it seems so far from that now."You'll keep me updated?"I glanced in Judy's direction,as she stood by my Dad's bedside checking the monitors."Of course. I have your number-I'll call you."Just as I was about to open my mouth she got there before me."I'll call you before Finley,I know.""Thank you,Judy."I looked down at my Dad again,his hair white in colour now it's been so long since it's had a "Just for Men." in it. Hating the Grey, my Father used to dye it all the time. M
VANESSAI just knew that I couldn't put her off for too long! It was inevitable! I could only go so long without having Natasha visit the Mansion that I live in with my Brute of a Husband. I've been trying to put her off for months by making up silly excuses,that was until I just couldn't any longer. She can be rather insistent at times but I love her in despite of that."Fucking size of this place! I can't believe I'm finally at your house,Ness.I was worried that It might come to me having to sneak in."Natasha chuckled.That's what it might have come to-I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I woke up one morning to find her sitting at the breakfast bar watching Alma cooking her bacon and Eggs. Not surprised at all!!"I know-I'm sorry!You know what it's like,things just get so busy sometimes."I moved my hands up and down in the jacuzzi."You're here now,I want you to enjoyed yourself."