[Lily] I watch patiently as a range of emotions travel across Atticus’ face. Surprise, fear, horror--but not lust or desire. All of his usual cheeky flirtiness has been replaced and put aside, locked down between a gaze that is growing stony and cold as he shuts down all feelings and emotions. He closes his eyes and with a deep sigh replies, “No.” Standing, he dusts off his hands and walks back through the door into the cabin. "Hold up!" I shout after him, both embarrassed and angry at the sudden rejection. Why doesn't he want this? Is it because it's me? I know it isn't because he's shy. I've seen him with Evie. "Why ever not?" Standing in the middle of the room, his back rises up and down as he takes long, slow breaths. "Atticus?" I try again, my voice shaking with nerves. "Did I say something wrong did I..." "Why me?" he asks without turning around. "Why are you asking this of me?" Somehow he seems even angrier than I am, his fists clenched as his body shakes. "Is that wha
[Lily]He told me he'd wait up for me. Looking over at the clock, I can see that it is almost midnight.How long should I wait before I knock on his door? This isn't something I've ever had to think about. What does one do when invited to a secret rendezvous with someone? Is there some kind of protocol I should be aware of? Is there something I should do? Should I...I'm overthinking this. I just need to get up out of this bed, walk the five steps it takes for me to get to the door, and then go one dorm over and knock.Easy, right?As I sit up, my heart starts beating rapidly as the blood rushes from my head to my feet. The world spins and I close my eyes to keep from being dizzy. Even though I asked him to be the one, to be my very first one, I find myself questioning my decision to ask in the first place. I wish I hadn't said anything. I could have kept my secret desire to myself, locked away behind a wall of denial. Nobody would have needed to know. Maybe it is not too late to t
[Atticus]She tastes like heaven. But a demon like me doesn't deserve an angel like her. No matter how willing she is to sin for me. As soon as the door closes, I break our kiss. Liliana blinks up at me, dazed. Her cheeks are beautifully flushed, her eyes a sparkling green. and her lips, pink and ripe for kissing. I want to kiss her again. I want to take her to my bed and kiss her everywhere. And I don't know why. "Liliana," I take a step away letting our bodies cool down. "We need to talk."This was supposed to be a game. I can't let myself fall for the target. She's supposed to fall in lust with me. Not the other way around. "Atticus," her eyes open. "I thought," she touches her lips. "I thought you wanted to..." She holds her arms across her breasts, protecting herself while also providing comfort. She looks so lost as she captures my gaze. But then her gaze hardens. "Why did you bring me here, Atticus? Why did you invite me here? Is it just to toy with my emotions."Yes. "No
[Lily] As Atticus draws me deeper into his bedroom towards his bed, everything inside of me clenches in anticipation. He won't be the one to take my virginity. He has already said so. He cannot love me. And yet he cares enough about me to want me to give myself to someone who does. He could have just taken what most boys want and left me with nothing. So what are we doing? He told me to use him as a toy, but the thought of me using him made him so angry the day before. Something changed, but what? What is going on inside his mind? In a few small steps we reach his bed. It is still made, the comforter perfectly in place. Atticus takes a seat and pulls me down to sit next to him. My breath is rapid with fear as he places his hand on my cheek. I close my eyes waiting for him to move. "You're scared," he observes. "This won't do. I don't want you to be frightened of me." I open my eyes slowly. Atticus' face is so close I can count his eyelashes and see every speck o
[Lily]"Tonight," I repeat, trying to stay as calm as he is. It is hard to seem businesslike when he is gazing at my body as if deciding which part he wants to try."Only if you want this," he presses his body into mine, leaving barely any room for air as he asks, "Do you want this, Liliana?"I feel frozen with fear and want. I want this so much, but I also fear what it will mean for me.He says we'll still be "just friends," but I can't promise not to feel more than friendship. I already do, as much as I hate to admit it."Atticus," I breathe his name as I nod my agreement. "Yes, I want this." "Good," his lips smile against mine. "So do I." When our lips connect, his kisses are gentle and sweet, cautious and careful, as if afraid he might break me. But I'm not fragile. I want him to crush me. I want him to take it all. Placing my hands around his neck, I pull him towards me, trying to deepen our connection. Gasping, he pushes away. "No," he scolds. "No?" I blink up at him confus
[Lily] My mother said she loved me, but then she died when I was 13 and left my care to the devil. I'm supposed to call him "grandfather" but "devil" suits him better. Grandfathers are supposed to be compassionate and kind but Andrew Adare doesn’t understand the concept of kindness. I didn’t even know he existed, or that my real last name was “Adare” until he came to me at my mother’s funeral and claimed to be my family. He didn’t even give me a chance to say goodbye to my friends or my old life, I wasn’t even allowed to take a single memory with me. He just swept me off in his private jet, and as soon as he could, shipped me off with little explanation. “You look so much like her,” was all that he said to me. The only words that I heard from his mouth before disappearing and leaving me to the care of nannies and cooks and butlers. I don’t know why he bothered to take me if he doesn’t really want me. He hates me so much that he can't wait to get rid of me. As soon as summer ends
[Lily] “Hello Ms. Adare,” he purrs, his smile growing sickly sweet as he grins almost too brightly. He must be up to something because he’s a little too happy to have me in his arms. “I’m so glad to have run into you this morning.” He looks back at the other Legacies who nod in agreement, except for Evie Carter, Atticus’ girlfriend, who is staring daggers at me, her face growing red with repressed rage. Bending down low, he places his lips on my ear as he brings me in closer as if what he has to say is a secret between the two of us. Wrapped in his arms it feels too intimate as he murmurs, “We have much to discuss. I hope you will join us for breakfast.” My body freezes. Breakfast? Did he just invite me to dine with him, and the Legacy Seven? I must be mistaken. “Meet me at the stairs tomorrow at 8 am sharp,” he instructs me quietly yet firmly as if I have already agreed to this arrangement and he is just seeking confirmation. “I’ll expect to see you waiting for us at the base o
[Atticus] “Let me go, Ace,” Evie screams. Even after dragging her away from Ms. Adare, she is bubbling over with the heat of her anger. “I am going to scrape her eyes out and then I’m going to shove them up her….” I laugh as I hold onto my girlfriend. She’s always had such a short temper. When we first started dating in middle school, she almost got suspended for hitting another student in the head with an algebra book because she didn’t like how she ate her taco. It’s a good thing that she has me to help keep her balanced. Otherwise, she would have already burned the school down by now because she didn’t get exactly what she wanted when she wanted it. “Easy there, Tiger,” I joke as I loosen my grip just enough that she doesn’t feel confined while also keeping my arms around her in case I need to clamp down again. “She tripped and I caught her. Nothing else happened.” “That’s not what it looked like to me!” her beautiful blue eyes are sparking with anger. With her long black hair