I woke to the sense that she was near although I’d never seen her or mentioned a word to anyone. I was terrified that if anyone knew that I may have my true mate nearby that they would finally end this weird charade I’d been playing the Mystic Moon Pack for the last several years. It was ironic that she’d be her and I couldn’t help wondering if she could feel me too. I imagined a thousand times what she must look like but it didn’t truly matter because the odds of me ever seeing her were slim to none.
I had thought about telling my little wolf Kellna but the idea of upsetting her or making her feel like anything less broke something inside me every time I came close to getting the words out. My poor little wolf was not the same as she was when I first saw her that sense of hope and resilience was lost since my old pack took her mate away and not just any mate the future Alpha which weakened the pack forever. I had been devastated myself when it all happened because it was never the plan. It was always to get to Kellina and bring her back to our pack but somehow Athena had changed the story leaving me behind forever without a pack. Still, the Mystic Moon pack with Kellina’s care had given me more privileges than I’d ever thought possible and even though I still slept in my permanent cell I was now allowed to walk the grounds, have meals with Kellina and even the guards at times, and yes I was still watched but not near the way it one was. Because of all this and Athena never even trying to rescue me, I had given up accepting that this was my home of sorts. Then there was also the fact about three months after being in my cell I began to sense that something, something I wanted more than anything was nearby, my true mate. It had been true that Athena was my mate before all of this began but it was obvious she never really loved me or wanted me despite the efforts of us trying to be partners. Athena strived for something I had never truly wanted but because of my love for her, I would do whatever it took to help her which included renouncing the Red Cresent Moon pack and ending up here. I didn’t even care I couldn’t see her because just feeling her in the same structure was enough for me until I’m sure it wouldn’t be if I laid eyes on her. Still, I enjoyed the feeling and watching the clock learning how diligent she was about time coming in the mornings early, and leaving late at night. Whatever she was doing here, she was working hard at it with obvious dedication. I appreciated this already about my mate, my mate I would never be allowed to actually speak to or be with. The rest of the time I spent focusing on my little wolf now more friend that a love interest and trying to help her find her mate. I wasn’t even sure anymore if she had used her powers against me to will me to betray my old pack because it didn’t matter Kellina was my friend and I did love her. Long ago, I’d dreamt about her sweet luscious lips touching my own and being able to touch that curving figure of hers hearing her moan to my touch but that feeling had gone away and in turn, my inner blood could not help but serve and love the true red wolf descendant, my true leader even if she wasn’t the Alpha of this pack. She had tried so many ways to let go of her mate, Rogan, and I knew many in the pack would have taken her as her mate especially the wolf, Erin. Erin had become my friend but even I could see he really would befriend, love, or do anything to anyone if it meant he could be with Kellina. Part of me hoped for the bastard that he would somehow find his mate and it would work out for him but so far nothing for him had come to pass and the man just waited for her to accept Rogan was not coming back. At least, I thought that was his plan. He was a bit of a perplexing person more than most of the pack realized because he was loyal and I saw him search and ask questions with the same intensity as even the Alpha had to me looking for some hint of where the Red Cresent Moon Pack was. The worst of it was I didn’t have an answer. The Red Cresent Pack lived off the land which I did miss in some ways but also they would travel making it harder for them to find. I was unsure at this point where they had gone after they had taken Kellina’s mate. I had provided everything I could possibly give as far as intel with Kellina, Erin, and the Alpha still probing me for information. I knew some saw me as a traitor and perhaps I was in some ways but after Athena had tricked me into renouncing my pack and left me here I just didn’t care anymore. Athena if I could ever make it happen would taste my revenge in her mouth as it pooled from blood as I watched her die. It was a bit much for her being my mate previously but the part I’d kept a secret from everyone was that if Rogan hadn’t shown up dead it meant only one thing that she was mind fucking him and the Rogan they knew wasn’t there anymore.Every time I kissed her, every time I touched her skin, every time I was inside her I knew I shouldn’t be something plagued me to stop was it because I had never officially renounced my pack when I’d left? Or was it the woman he came to me in my dreams constantly pulling me towards her? I couldn’t tell Athena how I felt because when I did, I could see her heart breaking, and that killed me inside. After all, I was marked as her mate and she was marked as mine. Still, my mind wandered whenever I had a chance to be alone to think of that woman that was always in my dreams with her pale skin, and white hair except for the ends dripped in dark red with a body that any man would melt for. Who was she? In the end, it didn’t matter because my life was here now deep inside the mountain inside the caves. I needed to find more food and more supplies for our wolves. The children needed better education, we needed better health care for the elderly, and overall, our pack needed to learn an
The Sun beat on my face and my eyes opened with my first thought being of Rogan. My dream had taken me to the top of the mountain and the feeling that he nearly overcame me. My face was wet with the tears I’d cried even as I slept with the idea of simply seeing him. Just as I saw him thought something took him away just as fast and he vanished in a flash of hot red mist. I took a moment looking around just sitting where I was. These days it didn’t matter where I slept or what I did anyway. I surprisingly was in my today wrapped in one of Rogan’s shirts. I was struggling with the fact as time went on they were smelling less and less like him and more like me. I refused to allow anyone to wash them or take them. The Luna had tried once and I think she quickly realized that was a bad idea. I had luck by my side because the Alpha felt similar to me and I did utilize that to my advantage. I had barely turned when I heard knocking on my door I already knew who it was and sure e
I made my way down the stairs hoping to avoid any of the Alpha family but instead, I ran smack down into Roe. She was older now getting ready for puberty but yet still a little girl. Roe had beautiful black locks with curls at the end which made her positively adorable and hard not to resist. I realized she was running from Corgan who was chasing her laughing. “Oh Save me Kellina from my awful brother!” She exclaimed. “Oh, Roe you are the silliest,” I responded still pulling her behind me and squaring up with Corgan. He stopped and took note of the situation. Corgan had changed so much and looked more like a man now than he did when I’d first met him. He had looks similar to Rogan but leaner still very muscular and handsome with shorter hair than Rogan ever wore but still those same dark beautiful eyes. Anyone female wolf would be lucky to have Corgan as a mate. “This really isn’t fair.” Corgan folded his arms standing in front of me. “Still it’s good to see you Kel, arising from
She was furious on the mat and I wasn’t even trying to fight her. I knew she was hurting and was just tired of trying to keep going so if she wanted to put her energy into kicking my ass right now, I was going to let her. It did mean me holding back but since the day I meant Kellina I’d be holding back how I felt or really wanted to do in one way or the other. I had never seen another wolf be as broken as she had been in her life and still come out swinging. It was respect, complete awe of how she kept going, and love that made me feel this way. I had no mate of my own but had been told a thousand times how those feelings were for everyone else and so now watching her try to overcome losing her mate the way she had with no clue if he was alive or dead I could barely imagine she was here with me now sparring. Thud! I landed again on my back as she used all of her small frames to literally flip me over her shoulder. I tried to keep my smile inside my head so she didn’t know ho
I sat there on the mat for some time to the point the automatic lights went dark and remained in the quiet darkness until some of the other members of the pack came in turning the lights back on with their movement. I mumbled some apology about startling them and telling them to be careful as the lights were acting up. I was fairly sure they knew I was lying but nodded politely as I exited. I went up to my room and was grateful to find the hallways and other areas empty of anyone else. Erin had never told me off quite like that before and I was trying to not only absorb that but also the part about him being right. He was right that I hadn’t really acknowledged how everyone else was doing but I had been lying to myself for a while now. I kept telling myself that if I could just find Rogan everything would go back to the way it was. It was going on almost 2 years and there was no way that even if I found Rogan he would be okay. It would take a lot of effort to find normalcy again and e
I was frustrated and so sick of Kellina’s crap. I knew the real reason in my mind but I was about to admit it. The truth was I wanted her to get over it so perhaps she would consider other options like me! Let’s face it I was going to have a mate anytime soon and Rogan was gone. We could be together and it seemed like the most realistic and practical situation. After all one thing I did know was that we had an attraction to each other so what was the big deal? I didn’t know what I was missing. The big fucking problem was though she knew what she was missing and she couldn’t get over it. I hated it. I wanted it to go away but there wasn’t an answer. As I stormed outside I ripped off my clothes and went full-blown wolf. I made my way out of the gates and debated about my options and where I could go. I wanted to be alone so as I glanced around the terrain around me I choose to go behind the pack house towards the mountain. There was not nearly as much patrol because the odds of rogu
We prepared the surgical area as quickly as possible and waited for the arrival of Erin and the prisoner known as Gorm. I had never seen Gorm but knew he was a red wolf that had chosen to go rogue for the Red Cresent Pack only to be betrayed and left here with our pack. I had heard that he had helped Kellina and I was grateful for that. Kellina was my little sister in so many ways and I loved her dearly. She never seemed to get a fair chance at happiness and my heart hurt for her. Laura the white priestess who had become her mother through no formal adoption but through love was also just as kind and I knew Kellina’s pain killed Laura as well. My heart ached for both of them always not just as fellow priestesses but as family. My own family had been gone too soon to and I understood that pain. My father was killed in the rogue attacks but I still knew who he was and had fond memories of our time together. My mother died I believe of heartache years later and the pain of dealing wit
The day quickly faded and it turned to night still without any real reassurance that Eric or Gorm was alright. At some point, I’d been assisted to shower and change clothes and I replayed the entire event in my mind. The day hadn’t started well and it had only gotten worse. I worried for my friends and selfishly prayed they wouldn’t leave me. Eric and Gorm were the only two I had that I could count on for just about anything and they allowed me to be who I was which wasn’t anyone anymore. As I sat there waiting for answers I started to realize I needed to change my ways. I knew deep down everyone was right this is not what Rogan would have wanted for me or anyone. I was the only person who could change that but changing it would be harder. I enjoyed living in the darkness because it was better than trying to live with brightness without him. It didn’t seem fair or right that I should be happy or even feel anything else but sadness. Still, I knew Rogan inside and out and he would