I woke up to the sun rising above the hill taking in the beauty and my mind instantly went to Kellina. I imagined how I’d find her today likely crumpled up somewhere in that large room that once shared the love of Rogan and her. Many times she’d be in the closet buried in his clothes. I could tell she had cried herself to sleep once again and had landed wherever she chose. Although her powers had grown and she was stronger than ever before her body had sunken and the weakness in her heart was something felt by the entire pack. Her emotions were capable of affecting us all and the longer there was no sign of Rogan the longer she suffered. I had tried a million different things even providing her mood stabilizers, counseling, and allowing her to go on search missions that always ended up coming up with nothing. She was just as bad as the Alpha was now both lost in their own will to try to find Rogan.
I was grateful that my mate killed long ago in the first Red Cresent Moon attacks died and I was able to accept there was no hope of him ever coming back. This lingering hope Kellina had only made things harder for her and the feeling of desperation sunk in deeper into her skin. I was to a point where I didn't know what else to do but hoped every day when I woke up and made the trek to the clinic that she would be alive when I went to check on her. The fear was boiling over in me but I knew Rollo who lay beside me would not allow me to stay with her every night watching over her. I turned to look at him now with his dark brown hair and burly whiskers that tickled my body as his lips traced down mine. His gigantic body bulging with muscles on his light brown skin glistened in the sun as it began to pour into our window. He had a deep snore and although he worried deeply for both Kellina and me as if we were a true family I had not even considered talking to him about a true mating ceremony because it didn’t seem fair if our daughter didn’t have her mate for us to move on. Rollo was angry with me for it and hated living the way we lived. Somehow I’d convinced him to stay with me but I don’t think either of us could live apart anymore as we were just used to the comfort of each other being there and no longer being alone. I wondered if that is why we were still together but as I watched his big chest move up in down beside me I couldn't imagine him not being there. I felt so small beside him but also the safest I’d ever felt since my mate had been lost. I snuggled in beside him with his large arm wrapping my body around him. I rubbed him softly with my hand just watching as his body moved up and down then finally seeing the sun become brighter I gave him a quick kiss before heading to the out shower. I was already naked as it was comforting to both Rollo and me to be able to feel each other’s skin throughout the night. I turned the water on and allowed the shower to steam up the bathroom before I stepped in. I had just rinsed my pale white skin allowing the beads of water to drip down me when the shower door opened. “Would you like some company?” He asked looking me up and down with desire. I could not let these moments go as it was the only time I still felt close to him. I nodded with a sheepish smile. He came with a very stiff ready to engulf erection I could not take my eyes off it even after so many times still trying to figure out how something so large was able to go so perfectly inside me. His arms scooped me up letting the wetness drip down over him and engulfing me in an erotic kiss. My arms moved up around his neck pulling him in harder as our bodies meshed into unison touching and feeling every last inch of each other. He was mine at this moment and I wanted it all. His strong arms scooped me up grabbing my ass and causing me to squeal. As my back fell against the shower the water still poured down over both of us. His hips moved and my core opened up taking in all of him. He kissed my neck, ears, and even down to my breasts suckling them as I began to already orgasm from his touch. He now was deep inside me and all I could feel was the motion as he pumped into me. I wrapped my legs around him the best I could with his enormous body and pulled into each pump as he moved up and down. I kissed his ear and breathed into it letting him hear my groans and moans as I came all over his stiff erection. It caused him to grip my ass tighter and move harder faster, harder faster until I could feel him filling up filling the shower with his sweet dark musty scent. It should have been enough but I wanted more at that moment. I wanted to forget all the pain we were all feeling. I got down on my knees testing the remnants of his taste and began suckling what I could of his large dick. He growled in delight and it encouraged me only more as my hands went to his balls touching and swirling them with my touch. My mouth took a small nibble that shot him straight back into the shower wall with pleasure. I then continued to move my mouth up and down his large shaft using one hand to tease his testicles while the other part of my hand stroked his shaft up and down using my mouth to suck up and down where my hand had just gone. His hands swirled into my hair grabbing gently but still tight enough to let me know he enjoyed my mouth on his member. I continued my assault with his many groans of pleasure until he couldn’t take anymore and again filled my mouth with that sweet-salty taste. He laughed as I came up rinsing my body now finally grabbing soap slyly and smiling at him as if I had got the upper hand. Finally, I started washing my hair and the soap ran down my body as I watched. I made sure to stick out my assets a little more obviously than normally I bent down washing my legs and I could feel he was behind me again. As I rose his arms wrapped around me. I was helpless against his touch as his hands began to rub down my front and he used the soap to touch my breasts and tease my nipples as he went up and down them with one hand then the other went to my core. He taunted and teased my clit and I was helpless to his touch my arms fell back grabbing his neck and he continued his motion. He continued until there was nothing left for me to do but do my best to hold on as my body moved up and down to his touch in perfect motion until I could feel the heat pooling down to my clitoris and feel myself orgasm with his magic fingers. There was nothing left in either one of us as I pulled him in for one more kiss and then finished my shower. We both smiled and laughed as we worked around each other to get clean. I went out first and quickly dressed because now looking at the time I was worried I wasn’t going to have enough time to see Kellina make sure she ate something and get to my patients. He came out with the towel barely wrapping around his waist. He smiled at me, “Heading out already?” He teased. “I have to get to Kellina before the clinic opens,” I stated as if it wasn’t obvious and I heard him let out a sigh. I knew the thought of her condition and how she had been drug both of us down. “I was thinking I could take her for a drive this weekend, what do you think? Maybe even teach her how to drive a little more?” I smiled at how much he cared and appreciated it. I wrapped my arms around him hugging him and kissing him, “ I think that would be great. I have to go, love you!” With that, I was off.I woke to the sense that she was near although I’d never seen her or mentioned a word to anyone. I was terrified that if anyone knew that I may have my true mate nearby that they would finally end this weird charade I’d been playing the Mystic Moon Pack for the last several years. It was ironic that she’d be her and I couldn’t help wondering if she could feel me too. I imagined a thousand times what she must look like but it didn’t truly matter because the odds of me ever seeing her were slim to none. I had thought about telling my little wolf Kellna but the idea of upsetting her or making her feel like anything less broke something inside me every time I came close to getting the words out. My poor little wolf was not the same as she was when I first saw her that sense of hope and resilience was lost since my old pack took her mate away and not just any mate the future Alpha which weakened the pack forever. I had been devastated myself when it all happened because it was never th
Every time I kissed her, every time I touched her skin, every time I was inside her I knew I shouldn’t be something plagued me to stop was it because I had never officially renounced my pack when I’d left? Or was it the woman he came to me in my dreams constantly pulling me towards her? I couldn’t tell Athena how I felt because when I did, I could see her heart breaking, and that killed me inside. After all, I was marked as her mate and she was marked as mine. Still, my mind wandered whenever I had a chance to be alone to think of that woman that was always in my dreams with her pale skin, and white hair except for the ends dripped in dark red with a body that any man would melt for. Who was she? In the end, it didn’t matter because my life was here now deep inside the mountain inside the caves. I needed to find more food and more supplies for our wolves. The children needed better education, we needed better health care for the elderly, and overall, our pack needed to learn an
The Sun beat on my face and my eyes opened with my first thought being of Rogan. My dream had taken me to the top of the mountain and the feeling that he nearly overcame me. My face was wet with the tears I’d cried even as I slept with the idea of simply seeing him. Just as I saw him thought something took him away just as fast and he vanished in a flash of hot red mist. I took a moment looking around just sitting where I was. These days it didn’t matter where I slept or what I did anyway. I surprisingly was in my today wrapped in one of Rogan’s shirts. I was struggling with the fact as time went on they were smelling less and less like him and more like me. I refused to allow anyone to wash them or take them. The Luna had tried once and I think she quickly realized that was a bad idea. I had luck by my side because the Alpha felt similar to me and I did utilize that to my advantage. I had barely turned when I heard knocking on my door I already knew who it was and sure e
I made my way down the stairs hoping to avoid any of the Alpha family but instead, I ran smack down into Roe. She was older now getting ready for puberty but yet still a little girl. Roe had beautiful black locks with curls at the end which made her positively adorable and hard not to resist. I realized she was running from Corgan who was chasing her laughing. “Oh Save me Kellina from my awful brother!” She exclaimed. “Oh, Roe you are the silliest,” I responded still pulling her behind me and squaring up with Corgan. He stopped and took note of the situation. Corgan had changed so much and looked more like a man now than he did when I’d first met him. He had looks similar to Rogan but leaner still very muscular and handsome with shorter hair than Rogan ever wore but still those same dark beautiful eyes. Anyone female wolf would be lucky to have Corgan as a mate. “This really isn’t fair.” Corgan folded his arms standing in front of me. “Still it’s good to see you Kel, arising from
She was furious on the mat and I wasn’t even trying to fight her. I knew she was hurting and was just tired of trying to keep going so if she wanted to put her energy into kicking my ass right now, I was going to let her. It did mean me holding back but since the day I meant Kellina I’d be holding back how I felt or really wanted to do in one way or the other. I had never seen another wolf be as broken as she had been in her life and still come out swinging. It was respect, complete awe of how she kept going, and love that made me feel this way. I had no mate of my own but had been told a thousand times how those feelings were for everyone else and so now watching her try to overcome losing her mate the way she had with no clue if he was alive or dead I could barely imagine she was here with me now sparring. Thud! I landed again on my back as she used all of her small frames to literally flip me over her shoulder. I tried to keep my smile inside my head so she didn’t know ho
I sat there on the mat for some time to the point the automatic lights went dark and remained in the quiet darkness until some of the other members of the pack came in turning the lights back on with their movement. I mumbled some apology about startling them and telling them to be careful as the lights were acting up. I was fairly sure they knew I was lying but nodded politely as I exited. I went up to my room and was grateful to find the hallways and other areas empty of anyone else. Erin had never told me off quite like that before and I was trying to not only absorb that but also the part about him being right. He was right that I hadn’t really acknowledged how everyone else was doing but I had been lying to myself for a while now. I kept telling myself that if I could just find Rogan everything would go back to the way it was. It was going on almost 2 years and there was no way that even if I found Rogan he would be okay. It would take a lot of effort to find normalcy again and e
I was frustrated and so sick of Kellina’s crap. I knew the real reason in my mind but I was about to admit it. The truth was I wanted her to get over it so perhaps she would consider other options like me! Let’s face it I was going to have a mate anytime soon and Rogan was gone. We could be together and it seemed like the most realistic and practical situation. After all one thing I did know was that we had an attraction to each other so what was the big deal? I didn’t know what I was missing. The big fucking problem was though she knew what she was missing and she couldn’t get over it. I hated it. I wanted it to go away but there wasn’t an answer. As I stormed outside I ripped off my clothes and went full-blown wolf. I made my way out of the gates and debated about my options and where I could go. I wanted to be alone so as I glanced around the terrain around me I choose to go behind the pack house towards the mountain. There was not nearly as much patrol because the odds of rogu
We prepared the surgical area as quickly as possible and waited for the arrival of Erin and the prisoner known as Gorm. I had never seen Gorm but knew he was a red wolf that had chosen to go rogue for the Red Cresent Pack only to be betrayed and left here with our pack. I had heard that he had helped Kellina and I was grateful for that. Kellina was my little sister in so many ways and I loved her dearly. She never seemed to get a fair chance at happiness and my heart hurt for her. Laura the white priestess who had become her mother through no formal adoption but through love was also just as kind and I knew Kellina’s pain killed Laura as well. My heart ached for both of them always not just as fellow priestesses but as family. My own family had been gone too soon to and I understood that pain. My father was killed in the rogue attacks but I still knew who he was and had fond memories of our time together. My mother died I believe of heartache years later and the pain of dealing wit