They say women bear multiple children because the brain can somehow remove the memory of the pain. Or at least dull it enough so that you’re not traumatised into avoiding ever going through it again. That’s what Zeke’s attempting to achieve now. Swiftly found down in the cells by one of Zeke’s men, the doctor confirmed our baby is unharmed before issuing Zeke a series of lotions. I hated seeing the barely-concealed horror in their faces as the vile pink nightgown was exchanged for a soft white robe and silk shorts. My eyes were squeezed shut as he examined me, especially the small, tender bump. Those welts were the cruellest. “Nobody else will see you until you are ready, I swear. I have sent for your mother plus the traditional pack surrender actions are underway too.” Zeke assured me, his voice dark and rich, laced with authority. Another version of the man I love has emerged. Who is this calm, masterful leader? He is not hopping with rage nor whooping at victory. Instead he loo
I fell asleep in his arms and for the first time, woke up to find him still there. I smiled, realising I was nestled in the crook of his arm, my hair a messy tangle of wild curls sprawling across his chest. From the arm I had draped across him, I could see the red welts were vanishing. Now they are just faint silvery lines of past pain. Drifting away like a bad dream. /I’m still working on getting rid of all the marks, be patient/ Livi mentioned quickly /I was distracted/Dickstracted, I corrected her as the scent of the salve in the air made a fresh blush race across my smiling face.Zeke shifted lazily in his sleep and the temptation to repay the sleepy, sensual torture he gave me was irresistable. Except duty calls. I have no idea how long Phillipe has been dead but there is a pack waiting to be run. No doubt proclamations to sign, warrants to stamp. Here I am having a nap.“I can feel you stressing out,” he grumbled, rubbing his eyes with his free hand. His fresh stubble gave hi
I cannot believe the rest of the shifter nation used to look down upon Shadowlands. Rising Star is a basket case. Dressed in a stunning long blue gown, her hair radiantly wild with eyes that continued to tease me despite no longer being in bed I followed Freya towards one of the parlour rooms.Cobwebs, the scent of stale air, and the shadows of missing picture frames greeted us. The pale, milky sofas were dusty, the desk overturned with delicate ivory paper scattered across the wooden floor.“This used to be Luna Hollie’s space, I always liked it in here,” she admitted. “Phillipe was only Alpha for a few months. I don't know how everything turned so bad.”I am good for some things, at least. With a grunt, I hoisted the heavy wooden desk back to upright and set about opening the windows to let fresh air in. The huge sash windows looked away from the border, from Shadowlands, the tunnels and reservoir but instead towards the smattering of villages and towns that covered the grassy hills
I half expected fear to course through my bones when that crowd turned hostile. But Zeke never let go of my hand, never abandoned me for a second. Whilst we walked I noticed him watching me, slyly staring at my bump and it made me feel like a Goddess. /WIll our baby have his gorgeous olive skin or my huge curls? Maybe both/ Livi cooed for the thousandth time.When he stood up for me and reminded the pack members how they had all stood silent and backed a warmonger I couldn't have felt prouder. Pinton village was pretty and quaint, nearly everything vertical wall covered in purple flowering wisteria, despite the autumn chill. The local women soon advised us of a house that was empty for Zeke and I to rest in rather than return to the castle. I’d happily never return. I’ve nothing but sour, ruined memories there now.Doctor Thatcher is pleased with the baby, I only have another five months to go and I’ll be a Luna and a mother. Everything should be perfect and happy. Except I know this
“How long have you got?” Maddox urged, clamping my wrists against the grey castle walls of White Forest. “Don’t leave so soon, not again,” his fingers gripped me tighter, just enough to make me shiver despite the hot summer sun. As always, Maddox was an open book. Every emotion on display all the time. It was part of what drew me to him. That and the huge muscles, tattoos, ashy-brown hair and stormy-grey eyes to die for. Several things. Our set-up suits me. I rock up, lose my mind with him for a few hours somewhere in the wilderness, then get back to normality. It’s meant to be easy for us both, no strings attached. He’s a White Forest Warrior, I’m a pack-less curiosity. No ties, no loyalty. Shaking out my messy long black hair, wincing at the fresh scrapes up my back from the more jagged bricks I keep my tone light. “I have to go, I need to get to Shadowlands before the storm.” “What storm?” looking up at the blue sky with a squint. “Trust me, there’s one coming tonight, a big
So what if we’re not mates? Like it matters! She came to me the night of the Ceremony for a reason. I can still see the way she strode towards me, licking those red lips, her dress daring and low cut, showing off every curve. Everyone assumed she was Cillian's date but no, she chose me. She always tries to keep it light, breezy with her ability to just vanish whenever the hell she chooses. The last few times we’ve hooked up I haven’t been able to play the same game. I can’t pretend anymore, I want her. To have her heart, it would feel like winning the gold medal in every possible sport. The ultimate victory. Shit, I’d take such good care of her. I’d adore every inch of her, every day. I know exactly how she likes to be fucked too. Hard, rough. A frenzy of mutual nipping, scratching and thrusting as she lets go all over my cock. But she doesn’t want me. Or she thinks she doesn’t anyway. There’s still time. Shouting how I love her has just scared her that’s all. She’ll come round.
It’s a curious thing to be part of a pack. It is assumed that you must be on the ‘good’ side, that you can’t possibly be the bad guys. We believe in our Alpha and everything they tell you. Well, I ended up with Beta Tange. Somehow, despite being obedient, loyal and ready to serve my pack I found myself second in command to the man who stole the Alpha Cillian’s wolf.It's hard to shake that kind of reputation off. I’m making my way back towards the Shadowlands war front after a few days at Cragstone but this thunderstorm has completely wrecked that plan. Instead I’ve humped the huge rucksack off my back and taken shelter in a series of deep, dry caves, not far from Roseff waterfall. I will just have to get back tomorrow. No panic, I have everything I need with me.Sitting in the dark, allowing my mind to wander, I enjoy the rain fall. The smattering sound is relaxing, I can almost picture myself on a boat, floating on the sea if I close my eyes just enough.They help drown out the do
After ditching Maddox I headed down into Shadowlands. I have secret little rucksacks of clothes stashed everywhere. I basically bought around twenty sets of leather jackets, underwear, black pants and vest tops and deposited them all over the place over the past few weeks. You won’t catch me running about in someone else's hideous old clothes. Being a little bit naughty, I charged the cost of my kits to Shadowlands alongside all the other bits I bought for Cillian and Matilda’s packhouse renovations, wardrobe and Luna Ceremony clothes. It could be called a service fee for all the running about I did sorting them out with such a beautiful start together. Cillian now should have fresh thoughts of Wodness Brook in his head, enough to make sure when Freya gets there tonight he knows exactly where to send her. There are clear rules about just how much one can reveal about an upcoming choice in the road. Sometimes I stray and say more than I should, but not for much longer. My last few d