03~ Trauma

Vennesa's Pov

The trauma of what happened two days ago hasn't stop from displaying in my head. I can't even concentrate any more, it's more like a constant reality displaying in my head every single day. I can't think of any thing else but it.

The food my maid had dropped for me since morning still remains untouched on the table. I had lost the appetite to eat any thing. Since that day I haven't eaten any thing. I was still healing from the heartbreak of what I had seen, and I know it's gonna take a long time to heal.

My maid had come a few minutes ago to remind me to eat. How can I eat when my home doesn't feel like home to me? How can I eat when the one I thought is my mate could call me a contracted wife? If nothing has ever felt intimidating in my life, this one felt way more than intimidation.

I heaved.

I laid on the bed, facing the ceiling. I didn't want to think about the incident in the garden, but the more I dodged from it, the more it kept coming.

A knock sounded on the door and I knew it was my maid. "I want to be left alone." I said.

But she responded. "His majesty wants to see you, My Lady."

"I'll be there in a minute." I said.

I hesitated, but after a while, I left my room to meet him in his office. I was going to knock on the door when I overheard voices discussing. I didn't want to bother, but I waited to listen to what they were saying.

The second voice was that of a woman, different from the lady he had fucked in the garden with two days ago.

"So, what's your plan for her?" Asked the lady.

"At first, I was planning on keeping her and having her work for me, but on second thought I don't want that any more." He said.

"If you don't mind me asking, why the change of mind?" She asked.

He hesitated to reply. "Seeing her face annoys me every blessed day." He cursed. "I just want every chance to have her out of my life and out of my home. I am only after the baby, that's all. As soon as she gives birth, we'll take her baby, and I'll send her away."

The lady hummed in agreement. "That's a brilliant idea." She reckoned. "We will put her to sleep after she gives birth, when she wakes up, she can't tell where she is. I guess this will be better."

I didn't want to get hurt more than I already am, so I knocked on the door. There was a sudden silence, before his voice sounded. "Come in." He permitted.

I slowly opened the door, shutting it behind me. "You sent for me." I said, my face buried to the ground.

"Please, give us a minute." He said, dismissing the lady.

She looked at me from head to toe, eyeing me like we've met before. I ignored her because she wasn't my business now. All that my head could think of is leaving this mansion for good.

After she had left, he went ahead to say what he had called me for. "Your maid reported to me that you have refused to eat some thing." He said.

"I don't feel hungry." I said less concerned.

"Why?" I looked at him. 

"Because I don't feel like eating." I said, not minding how rude I sounded.

"You're not planning on killing yourself in my home, are you?" He questioned, offering me a deadly glare.

"I said, I am not hungry." I said as a matter of fact.

"You don't talk to me like that, young lady." He sounded mean.

I sighed inwardly. "Forgive me. I will try to eat some thing tonight." I said even though I knew I wouldn't. I wasn't even sure if I would be here tonight, because I'll be leaving here any moment from now.

I tried not to think too much about this or he finds out. Alpha Rogan is good at reading minds even without sneaking in. He hears them like a voice.

"You better do so. As much as I need the baby, I need you to be alive for his sake." He paused for a while. "Have you talked with your doctor about your condition? It's two weeks now and I haven't seen any thing new. It's still the same!"

I would have told you that I am pregnant, but you spent your time fucking another woman! But I can't tell you any more or you'll haunt me and my unborn child.

"I have talked to her." I said.

"And what was her reply?" He asked.

"It's gonna take time before I get pregnant. She has given me some pills to take, hopefully, there will be a new sign before the week runs out." I convinced him.

"If you eventually get pregnant in that skinny body of yours, you will be punished if some thing happens to my child." Rogan said, in a resolute tone.

I could see fire dancing in his eyes and I knew he was already thinking of the punishment he would bestow on me.

He looked thoughtful, but he didn't say a word to me. He waved his hand at me, signaling that I should leave. I left the room, it's time things have to be done or it gets too late. I just hope he doesn't recognize my plan or I am doomed.

As soon as I got to my room, I locked the door. I went to my wardrobe, packing some of my clothes into my small backpack. I took my savings I had been saving in my box, I counted them and they were complete. I 

I waited patiently for night to approach. I asked my maid to bring my food to my room so that I can eat before leaving. My stomach grumbled, and I know if I don't eat now, I'll only be endangering my child.

She served my food, I asked her to wait while I ate on my food. After I was done, I ordered her to take the tray away. I waited for some minutes, taking my time to knot my blankets to form a long robe. I made sure it was long enough to reach me to the ground.

I knotted one end to the bed stand, throwing the other end to the ground. I tested it and I was sure it was hard enough to get me to the ground without having my butt smashed.

"Dear moon goddess, I know what I am doing isn't right. Just this last time I beg of you, give me the chance to survive, not for my sake but for the sake of my child. Help me, Moon Goddess." I prayed and immediately I walked towards the window, staring down to the ground.

I successfully got down, following the backyard gate, I ran off. I knew I wasn't a good runner, but tonight I proved to myself that I am. I didn't look back until I was sure I was out of this place for good. And I don't care if he looks for me, or he goes in with his life without caring where I am… I don't think I fucking care about that!