Ghost/DivanI grew up with the scent of death and neglect around me and I grew up knowing I was never loved or wanted by both of my parents. When I would see other parents with their kids and how they were treated, it always left me wondering why mine were so different.Why did they hate me so much? What am I doing wrong?I tried to shrink myself so they wouldn’t notice I was there; be a ghost while they bathed in violence. But then my siblings came along and I could no longer do that. I had to be the parent and protect them…until the day my father snapped.How long did I lay in that house, covered in the blood of my siblings while knowing they were dead? How long did I wish to die along with them, to be gone from here and finally feel… free?There’s one scene I relive every night when I fall asleep; my father slitting their throats and forcing me to watch so I knew what was coming. The only problem is by the time he got to me, he was weakened from the drugs.The knife didn’t go deep.
GiannaThe delicious aroma of roasted meat and vegetables fills the kitchen and I breathe in a long, content sigh. Today has been a pleasant day for me; I took a long walk around the pack forest alone and just allowed myself to appreciate the view.Divan woke up before I did and snuck out of my bedroom before I even woke up this morning. There was a slight tinge of anxiety in his scent, which made me realize he never intended on sleeping in my bed last night.I know I shouldn’t feel disappointed since we’ve gone months without speaking, but I can’t help it. Living here for months and living with someone who doesn’t even acknowledge you… it gets difficult. I try to be strong and advise the other women to give the men time, but I’m falling apart without anyone noticing. Shaking my head, I grab my glass of wine from the counter, take a sip and slip on some oven mitts to remove the roasting dish. I decided on a bit of comfort food today, and the carbs are just what I need. I can always
GiannaSpending time with Divan last night felt like we broke the ice. After dessert, we spoke about unimportant things before he abruptly said goodnight. I have a feeling he started getting uncomfortable with being close to me, so he ran away.It’s sort of odd to know or to think that, Divan is the leader of this powerful group of infamous Gammas, and yet he might be scared of getting to know me better. I probably shouldn’t read too much into it. It’s not like I know him that well, anyway.Sighing, I lace up my running shoes and get to my feet. I don’t exercise much, but I do run to clear my mind. My wolf is a timid ‘lady’ who loves fighting and hates sprinting with me, so I’ve taken it upon myself to keep fit this way.After doing my warm-ups and stretches, I take a breath and start my run. This always used to help me think clearly in the past, so I’m hoping it has the same effect on me now. I set off at a comfortable pace, not allowing my mind to drift to anything, but the more I t
Ghost/DivanHasretim. I was so wrapped up in Gianna and being close to her, that my true feelings came through without thinking. Thank fuck she doesn’t speak Turkish, or she would immediately have seen through me.I tried to keep my feelings neutral, tried to just clean her wounds and help her but how could I have predicted this? The softness of her skin, listening to her heartbeat, her sweet scent, and how she responded to my touch…Gianna is supposed to be afraid of me, not willingly offering herself up to be ruined.Running out the back, I sprint towards the back of the forest to clear my mind again, but for some reason, I find myself at the back of the main pack house. I suddenly see my wolf raising his head and nodding before he disappears again.I can’t even ask him why he’s brought me here because he won’t hear me, but as I’m about to leave again, I spot Luna Mia passing the upstairs window where I know the Alpha’s office is. Gritting my teeth, I know now why my wolf brought m
GiannaI haven’t been able to sleep.Divan kissed me, he really kissed me and then left again while I stood with my heart in my throat and wondered what the hell just happened. Everything about our conversation felt so intense, the way we were finally letting out our truths and how I saw right through his lie.I draw my hand to my mouth and a small smile tugs at my lips as I remember the kiss. The feeling of his hands in my hair, the way it felt like he claimed me with a kiss alone…my entire body was on fire just from that one kiss.What will happen when we see each other tomorrow? Will we both be too awkward to speak about it? Knowing Divan, he’ll probably avoid it and run away from getting too close again, but I don’t want to be the one to do it, either.It needs to be addressed; I want to know where we stand.As I think this, the unmistakable sound of groaning echoes through the silent house and it sends a shiver up my spine. I sit up in bed, straining my ears, and dread seeps into
Ghost / DivanShe’s looking up at me expectantly, waiting for me to say or do something when I never prepared myself for taking things this far. Gianna’s scent in my bed, the way she helped me through one of the worst night terrors I’ve had in a long time; it made me lose all reason.Now I’m on top of her, inside of her with the taste of her blood like honey on my tongue.“Divan?” she says in a breathless voice and reaches out to touch my face. “Are you okay?”I lay my head on her chest and breathe out a sigh, trying to get my thoughts together without hurting her feelings. I’ve come this far. There’s no way I can turn back now… it wouldn’t be fair on her.“I’m just… overwhelmed right now,” I admit, breathing out a long sigh and then looking back up at her. “I just need a moment.”She nods, because why wouldn’t she? Gianna is the most gentle person I know; even if she were hurting, she’d never show it. I rest my forehead against hers while allowing her heartbeat to anchor me.I can fe
GiannaEden looks at Divan and me with wide eyes as she opens her front door. “Hey! What are you two doing here?” she exclaims, and I can see the questions in her eyes. She’s going to want the full play-by-play and every little dirty detail, even if it’s mortifying for me. I hold up the plastic container of cookies. “I made too much of this and thought you might like them,” I say, and the way her face lights up at the mention of food makes me nearly laugh out loud.“I don’t know whether to feel offended or happy,” she says with a giggle, then she holds the door open for me. “Would you two like to come in for a cup of—”“Gianna,” Divan suddenly says, interrupting her, and I turn to look at him. “I apologize, both of you, but I need to go. Alpha Nikolaos asked me to meet him at the pack house immediately.”A shiver runs up my spine when I notice the warmth has left his eyes; this must be serious.“Of course, I understand,” I say and touch his upper arm lightly. “I’ll see you at home.”
Divan/GhostAs soon as Alpha Nikolaos called me to come see him, I knew something was wrong. Isaac and Romano have been out on a mission, with Liam following shortly after. They’ve never been gone this long for something as small as a hostage situation.I stand at attention in the Alpha’s office while he’s on a call, my heart thudding against my chest. It charges the atmosphere with tension, as he seems to be speaking with his brother, Alpha Bastien, in Greek. Fuck, I hope this isn’t that serious. But that hope is squashed when he ends the call and Levi walks in, looking confused. What the fuck, even he was called?Alpha Nikolaos’ voice cut through the noise in my mind, commanding our attention. He leans with both his hands on the desk in front of him and sighs.“We’ve received critical intel about a rescue mission in the volatile and war-torn region we were investigating. It’s a high-risk operation that demands both of you be present. Sorry Ghost but this calls for you as well,” he