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The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 91
ASHLEYI knew he told me he was fine, but it didn't stop me from casting worried glances in his direction, with every passing second. I sighed in discomfort, wanting to give in to the urge of kicking my ballet flats off my feet and sinking my body onto the bed, refusing to go with him because he clearly wasn't ready.I could tell by several things. The way he stared into nothingness in the mirror as he buttoned up his shirt. His shaky fingers as he missed some of the buttons in the process. The occasional shaky breaths that evaded him now and then. Not to mention the shuffling of his feet.I bet he had even forgotten I was standing behind him."Here, let me help." I threw my sling bag on the bed, walking towards him. I pushed his hands off the buttons, not meeting his eyes. I proceeded to button them properly, making sure not to miss a procession."Baby, I can fix my buttons." He chuckled. A dry, lifeless sound that didn't come out wholeheartedly. I resisted the urge to snort in his
The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 92
MICAHHave you ever just wanted to watch the world burn? Like you want the biggest surge of fire to descend out of nowhere and raze everything in its wake to ashes. Like you want to watch every living thing burn to death, screaming for help while the fire disintegrated them from the inside out, denting their flesh bit by bit until there was nothing left,Other than ashes.Like you want to watch a tsunami clear up everyone all in one sweep. Like you want to watch at the snap of a finger, the world is going void of every living thing. Like you just want to make them suffer and drink to the rhythm of their screams, the symphony…Was that borderline twisted?Yes.Do I want it to happen?I couldn't think of anything better other than making the world suffer for what has been done to me. No, I didn't wait to just let it go. I wanted to exact my revenge on anything and anyone. My anger was like a bottomless pit. An abyss. No matter how much I fed it. It never seemed to get filled up.But I k
The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 93
JAXONEmotions were underrated.They could make or mar you. It was one thing to have control over them and it was another thing to shut them out completely. Our emotions are like windows into our souls. They define us. They make up the essential part of us. And shutting it out only renders us void. Shutting my emotions nulled me completely and I began seeing being emotionless as a form of normalcy.I could barely differentiate between what was real and what wasn't.Of course, there were times when ruthlessness was a necessity. I have had to go through some phases in my life, and looking back now, if I didn't handle it with the right amount of ruthlessness, I wouldn't have scaled through that phase. Being dangerous could be necessary at times, but turning off the ability to feel wasn't a necessity.It's a coping mechanism.From the pain, from the grief, from the anguish, from the torture, from the despair, from the sheer agony.And the funniest thing about a coping mechanism was that
The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 94
JAXONMy fists were clenched tightly, my jaw locked as rage simmered through my veins, icing up the blood coursing through them and freezing me from the inside out. My insides were on fire at the same time, my body was freezing. I was feeling two things at the same time. The veins that ran from my neck to my head threatened to pop and my face was heavily flushed. I chewed on my bottom lip, nearly drawing blood from it. The stinging pain that shot through the soft flesh was enough to elicit a wince from me, but I couldn't even bring myself to make a sound. Trying to get myself to speak would just seem as though I wanted to poke an angry dragon. At the opening of its mouth, spitballs of fire would erupt everywhere.I was trying my best to stay calm, but the way my legs shook disagreed with my plans. I shifted in my seat for the umpteenth time, staring out through the window of the car. The air that filled the car was toxic and tainted with sulphur. I could taste it in my mouth…the acid
The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 95
JAXONWhen I saw the look in her eyes, I just knew it.I knew that I had ascended a certain level of trust in her and it puzzled me so much how she was able to trust someone like me. I tried searching those honey-brown orbs for flickers of doubt but there was nothing. Her eyes mirrored the trust that filled up her soul. She had shown me on several occasions how much she trusted me and knew I wouldn't hurt her, but today was different. She gave up control and surrendered to me, leaving it all up to me to lead the way. And no, she wasn't terrified. She was just appalled. I could see it in how her eyes wandered around the dark grey room. She was driven by a burning desire and anticipation, rocking back and forth on her feet with a smile on her face like a little child that was offered her favourite candy. My heart fluttered softly, astounded by how much she had grown from hating me to trusting me with her life. I chuckled.The massive space that was coated in a dark grey paint, surro
The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 96
JAXON"There's a probability that you might not get it on the first try and that's okay, baby. Remember what I told you, learning how to shoot takes practice. It takes patience in abundance," My voice was soft, laced with comfort.I took a step forward. Another.And another.Until I closed in on her. I was only a few inches away from her and I could pick up on how tense her body had become. She dragged out a shaky breath. I reached for her shoulders, dropping my hands on them and massaging them softly. She moaned softly, easing into my touch like it was the elixir she had desperately needed to calm herself down.My hands travelled down her shoulders and I pressed my body to hers, eliciting a sharp breath from her. I worked my fingers from her shoulders, carefully brushing them past her breasts and stroking her protruding nipples in the process, causing her to wiggle in my arms, arching her back to meet my touch. My hands rested on her waist, squeezing it softly and I breathed on her
The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 97
ASHLEYThere is no greater joy than watching the people you love get everything they deserve and more. It just leaves the feeling of warmth spreading all over, a knot of immense pride swirling like bubbles within you. It ignites a wave of pure, undiluted happiness in you.That was exactly how I felt today. That was exactly how I felt about Ivana getting married today. Heck, if I didn't know any better, I would say I was happier than she was and was the happiest woman on earth. But then, there was no denying the fact that I would top the list of one of the happiest humans on earth. I have looked forward to this day for years. I have looked forward to this day since the moment the duo professed their love for each other. I looked forward to the day they would make everything official and seal it with the approval of God. The moment they would bind themselves to each other in every way that was humanly possible.I was used to wondering how Ivana and Vincent were able to stay in love wi
The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 98
ASHLEYIvana's dream wedding has always been a fairytale wedding. This was the most anticipated wedding of the year. The highest-paid actor in the Hollywood industry and one of the top event planners in the country. You can imagine the number of dignitaries that were in attendance at the reception that was being held at the Floral Hall.Ivana was known for bringing her A-game to any work she did, but she went all out with the interior decor of her wedding. The hall was completely transformed. I haven't been able to keep my eyes off it since we left the church and headed to this place for the reception event. My mind wandered to the event at the church. A light giggle flowed breezily from my lips as I remembered how Vince couldn't control himself from breaking into tears while he watched Ivana walk down the aisle.He couldn't keep it to himself.The church program was beautiful and concise. It evoked emotions in me. Both the ones I knew I was capable of feeling and the ones I didn't kn
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