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Fool For Being In Love
…Isabella POV…
Clayton has just ended our relationship for what I believe will be the final time. Yes, I know that I fully deserve it.
The thing is that things just happened and it was truly not intended at all. Maybe, yes, I am lonely and maybe yes, well perhaps not, for there is a rather big secret that I have been keeping from Clayton, and even if I did not end up being with James, I would still have been ripped away from him by the lies, the secrets that I hold.
So yes, I fully understand that he is hurting and that he is angry with me and right now even angry at the world. And even more, do I understand that he will never take me back; I think that this time I might have just gone and push him too far. Then again, given him having to do the same, I would react in the very same way.
It was not James and my intention; none of us thought that things would have developed from a friendship into something more. I guess we should have known fr
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