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Kabanata 38
“I’m sorry, Grey. Go after Steffi. Si Brent ang kasabay ko,” sagot ko sa maliit na boses. Nakita ko ang pagkadismaya ni Grey.
Mabibigat ang hakbang naman ang ginawa ko palayo sa kaniya. Tahimik lang ako buong biyahe, at hindi rin naman ako nagawang kibuin ni Brent.
What I did back there keeps on haunting me. Ang malungkot na mukha ni Grey ang paulit-ulit kong naaalala. But whatever it is that’s hunting me, I know I did the right thing. I know I shouldn’t come in between him and Steffi. Kung ano man ang meron kami ni Grey, iyon ay ang pagkakaibigan na hindi ko natanggap dati.
Mukhang mas okay naman na magkaibigan na lang kami. We keep on hurting each other back then.
Noong lunch naman sa Office noong sumunod na araw ay naabutan ko na naman ang dalawa na nagtatalo.
“Akin na ‘yan! Ginawa ‘yan para sa ‘kin!” Brent said, soun
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