Chapter 33: PerceptionTrevor Dmitrí's Point of ViewI don't know how many times I sneezed inside my car. I lost count already. And that's because of the fucking rain. But when I was with Victoria Abbel, the rain was oddly good. It was warm enough and didn't give me chills to the bone. Sinimulan lang akong lamigin nang makabalik na ako sa studio. I sigh. Tori, Tori, Tori, what have you done to me?Bumaling naman ang atensiyon ko nang tumunog ang aking phone. I groaned. I am tempted to turn off my phone.I've also been getting a lot of calls coming from my bandmates but I declined all of them. Alam kong kukulitin na naman ako ng mga ito kung sasagutin ko lang ang mga tawag nila. They'll ask me where the hell I am and I should go straight to the studio. I know my responsibilities, they don't have to remind me.We're actually going to decide which songs to sing at the concert. And I've decided to sing my new song entitled It's Never Too Late for the last part. That's why I told Victoria
Chapter 34: Face ItVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewAm I that awful?Naiiyak na sambit ko sa aking sarili habang naglalakad. I thought they were all mean to me but I never realized that it was another way around. Is this the reason why Trevor can't even like me back? Is this the reason why he's scared of me? I want to scream from madness. Ngunit parang kahit ngayon ay hindi ko kayang sumigaw.I walk so I can clear my head. Pero hindi ko na maiwasan na umiyak dahil naguunahan silang pumatak. That's why I keep on walking and walking until my feet felt numb. The cold weather enveloped my body as it was comforting me. I was walking on the pavement crying. But all I did was wipe them using the back of my hands. And when I felt tired from walking, I decided to sit on the bench.And then I stared at the night sky. It was pure black. There was nothing. Doon ko na lang bigla napaisip na masyado na akong maraming taong nasaktan. It's not only about Trevor. Napatawa ako ng pagak, I am the one who
Chapter 35: The DecisionVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewNapatigil ako dahil sa sinabi ni Nikos."You're losing your sense of reality that's why you can't see your Dad not until now. You refused to see the image of your dad in your brain. And everyone knows what you've done. You are a slave of your emotions and imagination, Victoria. That's what makes you think that the world is always against you." I am not even aware of myself. Oh, God, what else do I need to know? And I can feel my body hurting inside. The emotions are just too overwhelming."But we're here not to blame you for it, we're actually here to help you. We are all worried. At sa tingin ko ay dapat na natin itong aksiyonan. Masyado na kaming maraming pinalipas na taon bago sabihin ito sa'yo. We thought it would be the best if we didn't do anything about it and let you continue your life in the dark. But not anymore." It only mean that I'm sick since then. I felt numb. Hindi ko na alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman ngayo
Chapter 36: At Twenty-three14 months laterVictoria Abbel's Point of View"Are you sure this is all your belongings?" Napatingin ako sa nagsalita at agad tumango nang makita ko si Hiro na binubuhat ang ilang mga gamit ko sa loob ng kanyang kotse."Yep!" Masiglang sabi ko sa kanya at pumasok sa loob ng passenger seat. I didn't know that I've been suffering from a serious mood disorder fourteen months ago. Kung hindi pa ito sabihin ng pamilya ko ay hindi ko pa malalaman. Well, it requires hospitalization. Nang makabalik kami dito sa Pilipinas ay agad naman akong nagpa confine. I was closely monitored by the professionals. They stabilized my mood by giving me antidepressants and antipsychotic medications.Thank goodness that I am able to recover. But they still monitor me from time to time that's why I have to go to the hospital. At ngayon ay sinundo ako ni Hiro dahil siya lang naman ang nandito. My brothers had been busy with their work and I don't want to pester them when they were wo
Chapter 37: Feel the HeatVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewHiro drove me to my place. Wala na kaming pinuntahan na iba at dumiretso na lang sa condo ko. Pero nang makababa kami ni Hiro matapos niyang ipark ang kotse ay may bumisina na lang sa may likuran ng kotse ni Hiro. Kaya sabay kaming pumunta sa likod upang makita kung sino ang bumisina ng ganong kalakas. It was none other than Nikos, riding his red convertible car. Nakababa ang roof ng kotse niya, kaya naman kitang-kita ko ang binata. Agaw atensiyon talaga ang gusto ni Nikos. Katabi naman niya si Reeve sa may passenger seat na nakasimangot."Why are you wearing like... that?" Sabi ko at tinuro siya. Napatingin naman siya sa suot niya. He's actually wearing a black sunglasses, a floral polo but all the buttons are open, kaya naman nakikita ko ang sando niya sa loob. Pati ang short niya ay pareho lang ang design sa kanyang polo."Hi, Reeve!" I waved at her and she waved back at me. Reeve is Nikos' girlfriend and I wonder why is she
Chapter 38: The GameVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewI've been tossing a lot to my seat. Para bang hindi ako mapakali habang pinapagmasdan ko si Trevor kasama ng kanya pang ibang mga kaibigan. They are all talking to each other with full of laughters. I blew out my red-streaked hair out of my face."If only looks can melt a people, Victoria. Malamang ay kanina pa natutunaw si Trevor.""Elizabeth! Of course I'm not looking at him." Pilit na tanggi ko, kahit hindi na mabilang sa kamay ko ang pag sulyap sa kanya. Siguro dahil naninibago lang ako sa new hairstyle ni Trevor na bumabagay naman talaga sa histura ng binata."Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Parang sinabi mo na rin na lumilipad ang baboy." I tried not to roll my eyes at my cousin's remark. A freezing wind blew off the ocean. The sun is also ready to set. The gentlemen are all sitting on the white sand, they're in a circle position while drinking beer in a can. While I'm with Elizabeth, Reeve, and Marsh in the cottage eating canapés."Baki
Chapter 39: The Game IIVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewWhen did he prepare all of this? Kahit ako ay napapaisip dahil sa mga games na ginawa ni Nikos. All of them were silly and hard at the same time. Sino naman ang nasa tamang pagiisip ang magpalaro ng chicken fight? There's this game that you will hold your one ankle up to your thighs and you will balance yourself using one leg. So twelve of us are in this position and Severus won as the last man standing. I can't even balance myself with one foot, kaya pupunta pa lang ako sa kalaban ay natumba ako agad sa buhangin.Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Trevor na ngayon ay tumatawa sa pagkahulog ko. Seriously? He's showing his perfectly aligned teeth and I could even see the rise and fall of his chest because he's laughing quietly. Sa sobrang busy niya na pagtawanan ako ay di niya namalayan na papalapit na si Alexander sa kanya. And because Trevor is not paying attention, Alexander ousted him easily.And it's my turn to laugh at him."Deserve, h
Chapter 40: Lost for WordsVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewPara akong binubuhusan ng isang timbang malamig na tubig dahil sa kanyang sinabi."Oh God," I whimpered. Still processing what he've told me. Trevor stood in front of me with a serious face."But, why now?" If he's talking to me in my teenage self, I should have been on cloud nine. I've been waiting for him to tell me this for all these years. Dapat masaya ako, diba?Back then, I always imagine how would I react when Trevor asked me to be his girlfriend. I even practiced in front of the mirror how will I answer. There are a lot of phrases that I practiced saying. Some includes:"Of course! I want to be your girlfriend!" Then I'll towards him in slow motion and he will lift me in the air and kiss me on my lips."You don't have to ask," and our lips will meet in the middle.Or"Yes! Yes! I'm in love with you too, Trevor." And we will seal our lips together. And if I was just a character in a book, I will be the real-life example