“She would kiss us, sure. But if she was lying about liking us, like we believe that she was, she would never go too far with us.”
“So you guys went along with it? Another girl kisses you guys, and you guys think that this whole thing justifies cheating on me?” I shake my head at them.
“Caroline. It wasn’t like that. We didn’t cheat on you.” Antonio pleads.
“Are you serious? You guys kissed her! That’s fucking cheating.”
“But we told you why. We told you the whole story. Please, forgive us!” Nicholas says, frantically wrapping his arms around me.
I shake my head and push against his chest, wanting nothing more than for him to let me go. Wanting nothing more than to be away from them.
“Let me go, Nicholas! I can’t forgive you guys. Not right now.” I sob, tears staining my cheeks.
“I’m sorry, mi amore. I’m so fucking sorry. We thought only of getting the truth. We didn’t think this would count as cheating.”
I shake my head, still pushing against Nicholas’ chest.
“You didn’t think, that’s the fucking problem. Neither one of you guys thought about me.” Finally, he lets me go, and I press my entire back against my car.
“I don’t know what’s going to happen between us, okay? All I know, though, is that right now I just need time. Okay? I need time right now. I don’t know what I’m going to do, and I cannot promise you guys anything right now. I just can't. Because everytime i look at you guys, I just see her. I see Sara. and I see you, Antonio, with your mouth on hers. And you, nick, with your hand so fucking close to her fucking pussy.”
The twins both stare at me, eyes filling with tears.
But the tears are unshed.
Unlike mine, which fall freely down my face in waves.
I know that the twins love me.
At least, I think that they do.
But how am I supposed to trust them, or their love for me? How the hell am i supposed to fucking trust anything when they would just go around kissing someone else?
“Darling, please. Dont run away from us. We can't lose you again.'' Nicholas pleads, raising his hand to touch me once more, before dropping it as soon as I push back against the car behind me.
“Caroline. Look at me.” Antonio requests, begging me, a single tear rolling down his cheek.
I listen, I can't help it.
My body must not have caught up with my head, with my heart.
How can it?
I dont even know what the hell i am going to fucking do.
How can I expect my body to know what to do?
“Mi amore, I know that we will get through this. I know that we will earn back your trust, we will earn your forgiveness. Because we plan on spending the rest of our lives making it up to you. We plan on spending the rest of our lives proving our love to you. Just please. Please. Don't leave. Don't run.`` Antonio begs, tears falling freely from his face as well.
“Caroline, you are pregnant right now, with our children. We already went crazy trying to find you. Imagine how crazy we will go trying to find you and our children?” Nicholas says.
His words should make me fear him. I should take them as a threat, but I don't.
Because I know them.
I know them.
They love me.
They have to love me.
Right?
“We love you, Darling. We once told you that loving you makes us weak. We told you that you make us weak. And do you remember what you said back?'' I nod my head, silent, still crying. “You told us that loving us makes you strong. It makes you stronger. And it does for us too. We were wrong when we said that loving you makes us weak. We were so fucking wrong. You make us stronger. Loving you has made us stronger. Loving you has made us better men. It has made us men that maybe one day would have actually deserved you. So please, don't give up on us. Not yet. We will do anything. Anything. Just please, don't leave us. Don't run away.”
Closing my eyes momentarily, I take a deep breath, and think over his words carefully.
Most of me wants to just leave them forever, not have them in my life at all anymore.
But I love them.
I still fucking love them.
A part of me wants to just forgive them.
I just want to forgive them and move on with our lives.
I can picture our future so fucking clear.
If I forgave them right now, I could heal, and we could all build our lives together. We could get Sara out of our lives for good, and never worry about her again. We could go through the next few months of my pregnancy together, happy. We could actually hold hands at the doctor appointments, and I could watch them put the nursery together for the twins. We could move into a new house, and forget all about this one. We could have the twins and then more and more and more kids, just like Nicholas and Antonio want. If I forgave them right now, we could live the life we had already started building.But could I really forgive them?After everything that they just did?Opening my eyes, I look at both of them. “I can't forgive you guys, not right now. You guys have officially broken my heart. You guys have broken me. I don't even know if I can ever really forgive you guys. Like truly forgive you guys. Maybe one day I will be able to actually find a way to not hate you guys for this. But r
“I don't know what our future holds, and I can't promise you guys anything other than letting you guys be there for the twins. But I need my space, too. I don't want you guys showing up to my place in the middle of the night. I dont want you guys trying to get in my pants. And, while i dont want you guys to, I wont control who you guys sleep with, even if it is Sara. I just don't want to know anything about it, if it happens. I'll give you guys updates about the twins, and about any doctor appointments. That's all I can do right now, okay?” The twins both nod, both looking mournful.“We will give you the space you seek, Caroline. But we will never, ever stop trying to earn your trust again. Okay? Because we love you. And we want our family to be together again.” Nicholas says, smiling meekly while crossing his arms across his chest.“And about Sara? We will never sleep with her. We will never even fucking touch her again. She's going to leave, we promise you that. There is no one els
Amanda is a fucking saint.My personal knight in shining armor.She arrived at my doorstep less than seven hours later, which is insane since the flight here from Seattle alone is around five hours.And she stopped at a convenience store first on her way here from the airport.When I let her into my home, she immediately wrapped her arms around me while I sobbed loudly.“Oh, sweetheart. Now i really am going to have to fucking kill those stupid assholes.”She ushers me into the house and closes the door behind us. “Okay, so I brought three different kinds of ice cream, as well as some brownies, chocolates, drinks, and some frozen pizzas.”Her words make me sob harder.“Oh, honey.'' She rubs my arm gently in an effort to calm my crying. “Okay, so you should sit on the couch and get started on this ice cream while I start the pizzas. I know you haven't eaten, and you may not want to, but those babies in there need some kind of food. So ice cream and pizza it is.”I cry even harder.“I s
Watching caroline leave has to be the worst fucking thing i have ever fucking seen.She cant leave right now, thats all i kept fucking thinking as i watched her get in the car.As she drove away from us, I could no longer control my emotions.I fall to my knees in the driveway, tears streaming freely as sobs wreck my body.“We fucked up, nick. She will never forgive us now. What are we going to do?” I cry out.Nick sniffles next to me before pulling out his phone. “We can start by getting Sara out of our house.”He dials a number before pressing the phone to his ear.“Jameson, I need yo
We let her kiss us.We let her touch us.No, we don't like it.We got no fucking satisfaction from her.We were disgusted.But we let her do it anyway.We broke our vows to our wife.We broke her heart.Maybe she will never truly forgive us.When Lucien screamed his words, I thought something had happened to caroline.After all, why would he be here when he was supposed to be with our wife?But as soon as we saw Caroline there, staring at us with so
I sit on the couch, the tub of ice cream tucked in my lap, already a quarter of the way gone.Amanda sits on the other end of the couch.She looks worried.Very, very worried.I can see why.When I called her, I was hysterical. As she went to the airport, she stayed on the phone with me. She talked to me, gave me words of encouragement, words of reassurance.She stayed on the phone with me through the security line, all the way until she had to board the plane.“So, what the hell happened?” she asks, opening a tub of ice cream for herself.“I don't even know where to start
“I cant believe that he would cover for you.” Amanda says, taking a bite of her own ice cream.“I know. I was surprised, too. But I guess he knew who I really was. He had dug into my past after seeing some irregularities in my background check. Of course, only very few people would have been able to find those irregularities. He took the fall because he felt that I needed that job. He took the fall, and he was fired. His father fired him, and his entire future at TechBuddy was taken from him.” I take another bite of my ice cream. I let it melt in my mouth before swallowing and then resuming. “Jacob never really held that against me. I promised him that if he needed my help one day, I would help him, no questions asked. When he finally took me up on the offer, it had been over two years. He came knocking on my door, the twins in tow. He needed me to look over his security system for the twins company. He needed me to fix his mistake. So I did. I did it because I owed him. And that da
“She was dead? How is that even possible, if she's here and alive?” I lean back against the couch, exasperated. “Exactly! They said she was killed by one of their enemies, Demitri. He killed her to get to them. He didn't know, of course, that their marriage wasn't even real. Or, at the very least, romantic. The twins pushed everyone away after that. They felt responsible for her death. In their eyes, she would not have been killed if she wasn't connected to them. They threw themselves at work. They didn't even have sex for two years. Until they met me.” “See, at least you weren't the only one there losing something that night! You lost your virginity, and they lost their celibacy!” she teases. I laugh momentarily before continuing. “Haha! You're a clown!” we end up giggling even more. “Back to the story, clown!” she orders jokingly. “Fine! Anyways, we hook up, get married, and then we move to that god forsaken house. They had their secrets, and I had mine. The biggest obstacle