Chapter 33HelpI let out a sharp exhale when I woke up from a very deep slumber. Mabilis akong napabangon."Rigella," Seymour's soft voice filled my ears.Nasa gilid ko siya. It's like he was sitting beside the bed I laid on the whole night.Wait... the whole night. Dahil pagkakita ko sa labas ng bintana ay tirik na tirik na ang araw. Sa hindi malamang dahilan ay nangilid ang luha ko. It's such a relief to actually wake up for another sunrise."What happened?" namamalat kong tanong."You passed out..." Worry flashed in his eyes. Umabante siya para makaupo sa tabi ko. He held my arms and stared deep into my eyes."Ang akala ko, may masama nang nangyari sa 'yo," worry laced in his voice.I took a slow gulp. Ni hindi ko rin namalayan ang nangyari. Pero ang pinakatumatak sa akin ay ang mga naganap kagabi.The mere thought of it brought chills to my spine. Kumurap-kurap ako dahilan ng pagtulo ng mga luha."Shh, Rigella..." Seymour tried to shush me."Hindi ako makapaniwalang... iyon pala
Chapter 34Regret"Hindi ako nagsisisi," my brother was straightforward.Umigkas ang kamay ko para sa isang sampal sa kaniya. Halos hindi ko na maipikit ang mga mata ko sa mga luhang bumubuhos. I can't believe I'm hearing this from him!He's already handcuffed but he's still thick-skinned like this. Pinili kong puntahan siya kaysa ang ospital kung nasaan ang anak ko dahil alam kong safe siya roon. I just need a clear answer why my brother became a threat to him."A-Ano bang nagawa ko sa 'yo para gawin mo 'to sa anak ko?!" may hinanakit kong tanong. "He's your nephew! How dare you!"Halos mabasag ang boses ko sa tindi ng aking pagsigaw. Inalalayan ako ni Seymour. If it weren't for his hold on me, I might be sitting on the floor now. Meanwhile, my brother just stared at me blankly."I won't exchange what happened into something else. Wala akong pagsisisi, Rigella," mariin na aniya."Kuya, naririnig mo ba ang sarili mo? Kapatid mo 'ko at kadugo mo si Ice! Pamangkin mo yung bata, Kuya!""
Chapter 35TearsOne thing was clear to me. All that happened was full of deceit and compensation. All for my family's money and riches.They let me in, as per Lara's words. Umalis na lang ako basta kanina dahil hindi ko na masikmura ang samyuin ang hangin na sinasamyo rin nila. The thought of being with them suffocates me, and I don't want my stresses because of them affect the baby in my stomach."Mama is here now..." I assured Ice while he cried on my chest.Humihikbi siyang yumakap sa akin nang mahigpit. May sumasakal sa puso ko habang nakikita siyang nagkakaganito. He must've been very scared. Dapat nandoon ako pero dahil sa kapabayaan ko, muntik nang manganib ang buhay niya.I caressed his hair and back and hushed him more. It must've been traumatic to him. Mas nasasaktan ako na wala man lang akong magawa para hindi na niya iyon damdamin pa."Shh... I will never leave you again. Okay, Ice? Mama is here. I'm here...""I-I was so scared, Mama! T-That... That man... he's bad, Mama
Chapter 36Mistress"The baby is strong. I think the spotting resulted from constant stress. May mga iniisip ka ba lately na hindi maganda ang epekto sa 'yo?" the doctor asked.I bit my lower lip nervously. "Uhm... Just a bit, doc. Bakit po? Magiging delikado po ba kapag... dinugo po 'ko ulit?"She fixed her surgical mask. "Well, I can only guarantee na malakas ang kapit ng bata. Pero kahit gano'n, you should take care of the baby and yourself as well. Hangga't maaari, umiwas ka sa mga bagay na nagbibigay sa 'yo ng stress. Don't exhaust yourself too much."Marahan akong tumango. "Naiintindihan ko po.""You told me this is your first check-up. I'll recommend you to our best OB so she can give you a full check-up. I hope I wouldn't see you here in the emergency again."I know she's smiling behind her face mask. Hindi ko man alam kung bakit may suot siya na ganoon, pero siguro protocol lang. It's weird, though. Pakiramdam ko, matagal ko na siyang kilala. Her eyes somehow reminded me of
Chapter 37Unshaken "He told us to inject this into her before she wakes up, and we did. I think she's in better shape now." I heard an unfamiliar voice."Good... fuck," the other familiar voice breathed harshly. "This shouldn't have happened. We've been avoiding this. This is utter shit."Marahan akong nagmulat dahil sa naririnig. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko at ramdam ko ang panghihina kahit pa nakahiga naman. I let out a deep exhale and looked around my surroundings."Curses aren't even enough to describe our situation. Now we had to back our asses out because we cannot fight back. Damn the system.""We should've fought back a long time ago. This isn't on the plan. I almost met my end. Tres, we're fucked up..."Ivan's problematicness became a cue for me to rise up. Ang pangalawang boses, sa kaniya iyon. I'm sure of that. But who's the owner of the other voice?They're talking outside the room. Umisang libot pa ako ng tingin sa kinalalagyan pero hindi ko talaga mahanap ang pamilyaridad
Chapter 38FortuneTruly, there will always be one pivotal moment in our lives that will change our lives entirely.I took another spoonful of the food Ivan prepared for me. Hindi pa ako nakakalabas sa kuwartong kinalalagyan ko simula pa kahapon. Even to go see Ice, I couldn't do. Paano ko siya mahaharap kung ganitong bantay-sarado ako ng ama niya at hindi ako makabuo ng maayos na desisyon.Also, Ivan's guards were yet again, allover the place and I would immediately feel like shaking and have goosebumps seeing them. After my past encounters with people their calibre, it's difficult to just face them again. Hindi ko rin makukuhang isugal ang buhay ko at ng anak ko dahil ano na lang ang mangyayari sa akin kung pati siya, mawawala?Oftentimes, Ivan would be with me and would tell me sweet nothings that I didn't bother paying attention to. Masi-stress lang ako lalo pa kapag naiisip kong nagsisinungaling lang siya at mas lalo akong pinahihirapan. I was still reminded that I'm pregnant so I
Chapter 39CurtainsLarisse calling...I stared at Ivan's phone. Kanina pa iyon nagba-vibrate sa ibabaw ng side table kaya hindi ko matuloy-tuloy ang pagtulog ko. He's in a deep sleep beside me.Unti-unti kong inalsa ang sarili. I gave him a quick glance before towering over him so that I can pick his phone up. Nakasandal iyon sa lampshade kaya madali ko na lang nakuha. I held it tight when I saw her name clearer.Hindi ko na kailangang kuwestiyonin ang pagtawag ng babaeng ito. Of course, she's Ivan's girlfriend. Kung paano niya akong naibigay sa lalaking ito, hindi ko na rin gustong malaman. Malamang, parte ito ng palabas nila para matupad ang maiitim nilang balak.I tapped the phone ungently. Dinikit ko ang speaker sa tainga ko at pinakinggan ang mga sinasabi ni Lara."Babe, Ivan..." her voice was surprisingly problematic. "Kausapin mo naman ako. P-Parang awa mo na..."Sa palagay ko, hindi na niya naituloy ang iba pang sasabihin dahil sa pag-iyak. I bit my lower lip. Bakit kaya siya
Chapter 40 How Clueless about everything that happened next, I didn't realize how long I had been sitting behind the curtains. Yapos-yapos ko ang mga tuhod ko. Instead of being clouded with so many thoughts, my mind had nothing to think about. It's like I forcefully pushed my thoughts away so they wouldn't blow me away. "Where is she?!" ang nagmamadaling boses ni Ivan. "Who among them?" malamig na tanong ni Xyleus. "My wife, Santiago!" "Damn it, Ivan. Ang sinabi mo walang madadamay sa kanila!" I recognized it's Creed's voice. Marahan akong pumikit. I badly want to cover my ears but I'm exteremely weak to do so. I didn't know it's too much draining to just have listened to something. Parang hinihigop ang lahat ng enerhiya ko... "We are totally fucked up now. They tricked us." The curtains opened harshly. Napamulat ako nang wala sa oras. Ivan showed up. Fear blazed through me. What the hell is his involvement with this and what the hell just happened? "Rigella," may hingal ni