XI.4

ROGER WILLIS

The day rolled in with me pretty much riddled with such agony and anxiety. It savagely kept me up all night and now, it’s making things even more difficult for me to focus during class. I’d definitely say I don’t deal well with such heartbreak. Perhaps it’s because this one’s something that I never saw coming. It just hit me out of the blue and I did not have much time to brace myself for the incoming arrow that struck my heart.

In my head, I was thinking the reason why Idris want us to keep our distance from each other was because he’s my teacher and I’m his student. I know it’s a typical taboo but he’s just a substitute teacher. Most probably, he’s going to be gone in the next few months. Now that I’ve learned he’s married, I just lost it. I’d say that’s the main reason why he’s forcing me to forget that we kissed intimately and almost fucked each other or that we both admitted that we liked each other.

Forcing myself to close one door that hasn’t quite opened yet was