By the time Tuesday night rolled around, Mykel's depression of the following day's anniversary had set firmly.
"It's not your fault, Mykel. And from what I gathered, he didn't blame you, either. He blamed himself. I understand his mindset...growing up abused it's all your fault whether it's your fault or not. He just snapped.""But...if I hadn't had left..." He started before hanging his head.The look in his eyes as he looked at me at that moment was an absolute raw pain. Raw pain and buried guilt and those honey-wheat eyes were dark as molasses. The tears that now seemed to be slowly trekking down his face reminded me of sap being pulled from the trees to make syrup. They fell slowly, almost as if they were attempting to defy gravity, and while the battle was a fierce one, gravity still won the war."Can I ask you something?" He nodded and sighed and wiped his eyes."You walk
"About Kaiden?""Yes," I answered, meeting her gaze. "We talked about Kaiden.""What did he say?" She wasn't looking at me, but at the horizon."Liz..." I started. I was going to deny her. Trust was something...it is something...that I hold to the highest regard. I had never been trusted as I had the night before and I was loathed to break that confidence."Mattie, this is my brother. He hasn't acted like that in a long time. In the beginning, he was so angry all the time. I know he's keeping things from me. I'm not stupid, I always knew there was something. I just never knew what." She wiped her face and asked silently for another drink. I complied willingly, handing the cup over to her."Please, Mattie." I could
Mykel shut the back door behind him and made his way slowly across the kitchen. The trepidation he felt the nearer he drew to his sister's bedroom door was paramount and nerve-wracking.He paused outside her door, fist poised to knock, but lowered his hand without a sound. He sighed and finally knocked, pushing forth all his courage to face Liz's wrath. Having more than once been on the receiving side of her anger, it was not something he was particularly looking forward to.She opened the door looking tired and disheveled, her heart broken freshly as one secret came out, and another was on the tip of confession.He could tell from her posture and her curt 'what' that told him he was still on her shit list. Her eyes were dry, but her cheeks were still a bit puffy, indicating that she had stopped crying within the hour.
"Yeah. That's what he said." Mykel's voice was heavy and thick, remembering the words he had read so many times."Well, do you think he lied about that?"He sniffled again. "He never lied to me about anything.""Well then, my love, don't you think that he meant what he said? If he never lied to you, he wouldn't lie to you with his last words, would he?"Mykel croaked out a whispered 'no'."What do you feel for Mattie? Honestly," Liz asked gently, gripping his shoulder, turning him to look at her."I'm falling in love with him. He makes me happy. He makes me smile. He makes me smile like Kaiden used to make me smile."
"Hey, a falling star!" Mykel jumped at my exclamation, making a startled yelp as he jumped backward.I looked behind me grinning, a slow chuckle escaping me at the look on his face. The startled shock slowly morphed into a slow, sleek smile that spread across his face.He had been smiling more the past couple weeks, though only lately had his smiles been reaching his eyes. This smile though was the kind of smile that makes me melt. This smile reserved for me and one I had not seen in weeks."Look," he said.I looked back to the sky in time to see dozens more streak across the night, glowing trails lighting up the sky. I watched mesmerized, enraptured by the beauty of it all.Mykel tightened his hold on me, squeezi
Time for your bath, Mathew.All the oxygen was sucked from my lungs in an instant, as if inside the shower had created a vacuum where air did not, or could not exist. I felt my legs fail to continue to perform their function and as I went down I felt the water go over my head.My chest burned and my veins boiled as complete terror consumed me. My blood felt like a river of fire, as if Pyriphlegethon itself ran through my soul, taking me with it in its sickening current.I could feel their malicious hands, phantom memories brought back in a haze of panic, holding me under the spray.I screamed.It's time for your bath, Mathew.I do not know how lo
I wanted to believe him so badly. His words and his tone and the softness of his touch was so foreign the concept was hard to swallow."What am I worth, Mykel? What have I ever done that's worth anything? I went from one abuse to another. Why would you even want me? Why do you want anything to do with some...used up whore?"The word made me sick to my stomach and tasted rancid on my tongue. I heard Mykel suck in a long breath, his nostrils flaring."Listen to me now, Mattie, and listen well. I don't care about what you had to do back then. Do I like you were put into a situation where that was y
I woke early that Sunday, dreams, or should I say nightmares, not allowing me to want to even attempt at sleep; nor could I lie there wide awake.Now, an hour later I was on my second cup of coffee, quietly sipping as I enjoyed the peace of a new morning's sunrise.I heard the back door open and quietly close.I smiled behind my coffee cup as I took a sip. Liz sat down next to me, her bed head on the highest level of insanity, her giant cup in one hand, her box in the other.Once she was situated she smiled at me before leaning over and kissing my cheek. "Good morning, gorgeous."I smiled through my outrageous blush. "Good morning, Liz. Sleep well?"She followed my gaze, rolling her e