Olivia

I opened my eyes and it was pitch black. I was facing Blake, his curly hair in his sleeping eyes and I smiled. Kissing his cheek before I turned around. I sat up, Sebastian wasn’t next to me and I got up out of bed, looking out in the hallway. He wasn’t there either and I slowly walked down the stairs, feeling a relief as I saw the living room light on. As I got to the bottom I called out.

“Bash”

“I’m in the living room.” Came his response and I walked in, Sebastian was sitting on the sofa, playing PlayStation. He had no shirt on and only a pair of boxers.

“Why aren’t you sleeping?” I asked him, sitting next to him.

“I couldn’t sleep. Why are you up?” He paused his game and turned to me. I shrugged.

“I woke up and you weren’t in bed”. I looked into his eyes and they didn’t look okay. “What’s wrong?” I asked him. Sebastian sighed, putting his head back.

“I need to talk to you.” He spoke softly and my heart smashed out of my chest.

“Okay”. I mumbled out, panic consuming me.

“Ollie I think I want out.” Was all he said, I scanned his face panicking even more now.

“What do you mean?” I asked, terrified of the answer.

“I don’t think I can do this anymore. If you want to continue with Blake that’s fine, but I’m over it. I don’t want to do it anymore.” I felt my chest cave in and put my hand over my mouth.

“Bash, please don’t”. I started.

“Ollie, I don’t think I can do this anymore”. He repeated. “I don’t know, please go back to sleep and we’ll talk about it in the morning.”. I stared at him, tears pooling in my eyes. I slowly stood up, feeling my heart breaking. I always thought I didn’t want to lose Blake and Sebastian. Now, staring into this beautiful man's face I knew I didn’t want to lose him. I didn’t want to lose Sebastian.

“Bash” I whispered, my voice trembling.

“Ollie please go back to sleep. My mind is everywhere”. He ran his hand over his face and I didn’t know what to think anymore. “Please, let me just play this for a minute. We’ll talk in the morning.” He spoke again and I knew my cue. I just nodded, rubbing my face before the tears came. I walked up the stairs, refusing to move my head back to him. I didn’t want my heart to hurt anymore when I realised his eyes were back on the TV. I sneaked back into the bedroom, slipping into the bed. Blake was still sleeping and as I got in, his arm went round my waist, his warm body close to me. I laid on my back, staring at the ceiling. I felt a tear escape my eye, rolling down my cheek. Sebastian can’t mean what he just said? He had been a bit funny for a while, his emotions everywhere and I knew his mental health wasn’t great right now. Maybe that’s why he was saying this. I laid in the same position for what I felt like was hours, moving my head up as the door opened. Sebastian came in and laid at the other side of me.

“Bash” I whispered, I felt his hand on my face.

“Why are you not sleeping?” He whispered back to me.

“I can’t”, was all I said. Looking into the darkness but where I could hear his voice.

“I’m okay. Just sleep please baby”. My heart rested for a minute when he called me baby. Trying to shut my eyes and get any form of sleep. I heard Sebastian’s relaxed breathing next to me. Glad them two could fucking sleep turning my body to him.