As I sit on the edge of the bed in that luxurious hotel room that night, feeling nervous and regretful, it seems to have settled within me why I was in the hotel room as the time ticks. I felt on edge but could not do anything.
I actually wanted to leave the room and change my mind about my decision, but I hesitated because I know I cannot go back. As it is almost time for the person whom I was waiting for to arrive, I feel really nervous."How did I get myself into this mess? I never thought I would stoop so low," my heart keeps beating.This is something I have never done before in my life. I don't know this mysterious person; I cannot even know his identity or see his face, even though we are going to be intimate.It was so tough for me to make that decision of having a one-night stand with a total stranger. All my life, I have never even dated anyone, let alone been in a relationship. But now, I am about to have a one-night stand with a total stranger, whose identity, name, and face I will never know."What a miserable life," I mutter while sitting on the bed in the room.I heard footsteps getting closer to the hotel room. I got tensed because I know it must be the person. I close my eyes tight; suddenly, everything goes dark as the light in the room goes out.Knowing it is dark, I feel more nervous and start to shake. I thought it was the person, but there was no one.After Thomas told me I can only join his girls, or else I will not get out alive, I decide to talk with him. I know that I cannot risk my life like that, so I talk to Thomas to know how he could help me in other ways or if there is something I could do for him apart from being a call girl.Thomas looks at me angrily and does not want to have a talk with me."Someone of your beauty refuses to use what you have to get what you want?" Thomas tells me, eyeing me badly.I sigh deeply before I go close to him, begging him to let me go. I promise to do anything if he will let me go.Then his phone starts to ring. He goes and picks up the call, but I don't know who called him and what they talked about. After Thomas ends the call that evening, he beams with a smile."You know you are one lucky girl?" Thomas said, smiling."Why do you say that?" I mutter, eager to know what he's happy about."I have an alternative for you. You don't have to join my girls if you will do this work," Thomas said, beaming.Since Thomas was smiling like that, I thought it would be something good for me, but..."Asahara, you can do this," I tell myself and empty the bottle of wine inside the hotel room nervously into my mouth.I don't know what came over me, but I think gulping all the wine in that bottle will make me feel confident about tonight and help me get over my fear. After emptying the wine bottle into my mouth, I start feeling this splitting headache. My head hurts so much, and my vision doubles. With everything dark, I couldn't see clearly.I try to stay awake and alert, but the alcohol seems to have taken over my body."Ashara, you cannot just fall asleep," I tap myself to stay awake."Even if I'm not allowed to know the identity of the person I'm having a one-night stand with or see his face, I should at least be able to stay awake. After all, it's my first time," I shake my head seriously as the alcohol takes effect on me.I wanted to at least know the features of the person I'm having a one-night stand with, but since the alcohol is too much for me, I still try to fight the alcohol to stay awake.As I was still trying to stay awake, the door to the room opens and someone enters. The moment I hear the door open, I get nervous, knowing the person is around. I could feel the cologne on him, like lavender.Since my vision is blurred and the room is dark, I couldn't see how tall he is very well, but I know he seems tall."That cologne, why does it smell familiar?" I think to myself.The moment the person comes near to the bed where I sit, my body shifts back, trying to keep myself awake. I think the person might also be drunk."Good!" I mutter."Two drunkards," I think since I'm also drunk.The person quickly moves closer to me on the bed and seems to be in haste to get intimate with me. He instantly goes for my dress. I get nervous and angry, tightening my hold on my dress as the person does not even try to know who I am or start a conversation before getting intimate."What a beast!" My heart pounds as his large hand holds my hand, which tightens its hold on my dress.I couldn't let go of my hand from my dress because I'm really too nervous, and it seems the drunkenness has already vanished from me. He leans close, and we both fall onto the bed, his large body laying on my body. I feel disgusted that I almost puke, but I hold it in. I know that I cannot go back since I have come this far.He seems to be tired and just rests on my body. I try to push him away, but he is too heavy."I'm so sorry, I'm not a bad person," he whispers into my ear on one side."What did he mean by that?" I thought trying to pull him away.But he suddenly stands up from my body and starts to take off his clothes hastily, as if his body was on fire and it seems he has been drugged.I am afraid seeing him like that, I push back nervously as I am still lying on the bed, but he grabs me by my two shoulders and starts to pull off my dress more like wanting to tear it. I get so afraid wanting to run out but his hold on me is too tight that I cannot move away from him.I immediately regret agreeing to have a one-night stand with a stranger. I can feel his body on top of me, which makes me shiver in fear. It is my first night but it is more like torture. That night is not pleasurable, I hope I do not experience such ever in my life.He continues doing his thing but it is painful because he is rough. I moan crying until it seems all the fire in him has been quenched.I notice that he stops and seems to have fallen asleep. When I am sure he is asleep, I roll him aside from my body, feeling disgusted.It is not a night I can forget but I want to forget him. Before, I thought to at least capture his features but with the torture of that night, I do not want to ever know him nor meet him again.I quickly put my dress back on, my dress now half-torn because of how he pulls off the dress.I hold onto my half-torn dress tightly while sobbing silently and make my way to the door. I stop wanting to turn back and at least turn the light on to see his face but I cannot bear it because I know that night will taunt me forever.I quickly open the door and rush out, even though it is night. I run as fast as my legs can carry me. I do not know what I am doing but I think I just want to run away from that night.The next day, I find myself in Thomas's house in the room he gave me. I seem to not remember what happened after I ran out of the hotel room. I am surprised to see that I am in Thomas's house."Hey beauty," Thomas says smiling by my side."How did I?" I look to Thomas, confused."You had a rough night, so rest in bed for today," Thomas smiles and decides to leave the room when he is sure I am okay."Also, I will wire your payment for the night to you. You can do anything with it," Thomas giggles and blows me a kiss before he leaves the room.I am so confused because the memory of last night seems to have been erased from me.I later heard that Thomas found me somewhere near the hotel and took me back to the house. I am surprised when Thomas sends me four million dollars just for that night.Though it was an unforgettable night, the money helped me."Ma'am, we are here," Rick's voice brings me back from my thoughts.I look at the house where I will be staying while in Country F and smirk slightly."Now that I am in Country F, this is my payback time," I smile and come out of the car.Hi lovelies, I want to know if you enjoy the book so far
Ashara could feel the surge in her nerves sitting in the airplane. It's been four years since she left the country and it's feels so good to be going back.She looked through the window to see how bright the sky is. If her life could be this bright from the start, she wouldn't turn to be like this. She smile looking inside the first class section and cross her leg sitting elegantly like a queen."Ma'am, will you like some juice?" The hostess asked. She shake her head in no then lean back and cover her eyes with the sleeping mask as she drift to sleep."Ma'am" Rick, Ashara's assistant calls to wake her up after a long time."We are landing soon" he said looking at her sleeping face."Oh!" She reply sitting up.They land in country F at around 3pm. As they got down from the plane, Ashara closed her eyes to feel the breeze of country F again after four years. "It's feels good than four years ago" she breathe the air in. After four years she could see that there are so many things that ha
Flash back***That morning the dead silent in the dinning room is just like that of the grave yard. The atmosphere is so tensed that everyone keep silent not to get in trouble with Mr. Audrel.As usual, Ashara have to help serve the food with the maid since she work together with the maids. Her father sit at the dinning looking so perforated like his going to burst at any time. Ashara's brother, Ashley, the so call perpetrator is not even at home to face the wrath of their father and no one is saying anything about that.Ashara put the plates on the table gently. She knows that she have to be careful not to make her father resume his lectures on her, because any slight mistake from her, will make hell break loose. She has heard an earful of her father's hateful words already, she want no more. Moreover, she has test at college that day and don't want anything to spoil her mood. As she was trying to carefully place the last plate on the table, she caught a glimpse of her father's eyes
In the eveningSince Ashara has no other choice but to do what her father wanted, she decided to wait for Shawl, Mr. Wanton's son. She did not bother to go to college anymore, that means she failed the test. She did not bother much because she is not sure if she will even continue to attend college after that day. After she has cried with no one to aid her, she stopped crying and wash her face to calm down, her face is so puffed due to much crying. She looked through her old clothes to see what she can wear since Mr. Wanton's son will soon arrive to pick her, but she cannot just find the appropriate one. They don't buy her much clothes, her father believes it's a waste of his money, except for some important ocassions and family functions that she must not but be there, that is when she get most of her clothes. Even some of the family gatherings, her father will find a way to keep her at home working, and make excuses for keeping her at home."What am I supposed to wear now?" Ashara k
"What!" Ashara turned to face him. But Shawl did not look at her at all and just get down from the car. Never in Ashara's life has she stayed out this late, talk of even going to a night club, she sit in the car and did not want to go out. Her face turns ugly knowing Shawl is taking her to a night club, her heart fills with anger as she stare at the place. Shawl looks back to see that Ashara is still inside the car and looked pissed, he turns back to meet her."Aren't you here to impress me?" He said as he open the door to where Ashara was sitting in the car."How did he know that?" She thinks surprised."Your father said you will do whatever I want to make me marry you" he adds grinning wickedly."Dad said that to him!" Ashara could not believe father could stoop so low."So come with me" Shawl drag her out of the car and pull her with him into the club, left with no other option Ashara follows him reluctantly. The place was buzzing with so much noise and the smell of smoke and alcoho
Seeing Shawl again, memories from the past four years flood Ashara's mind. She felt thousands surge of hatred towards everyone in country F, not only the Audrel's family but Shawl himself. Someone might say what has Shawl got to do with all that happened to her four years ago? But to Ashara, if Shawl has not been a jerk, if he has been a little understanding and has not treated her like an harlot, her life for the past four years will not has been hell.Been Shantel White is not something she had wanted but how will she has survived if she did not accept to be Shantel White. No one knows that been Shantel White comes with a price and that price is what she have been paying since four years ago and will probably pay for the rest of her life. Ashara's adoptive father is a great politician in America, everyone knows him as the great White of America, people will call Ashara lucky to be his daughter but no one knows that Ashara is actually not Mr. White's real daughter and mouth can't tell