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Chapter 08: L I E F D E S V E R D R I E T
L I E F D E S V E R D R I E T
(Dutch) (n.) the sadness, depression, or pain one feels about a love unanswered or love that is gone.
As the sun left the horizon and the moon and the stars stole its rightful place, Eunae found herself still crouched in the corner of the dark hotel room without any food in her stomach nor any blink of sleep.
Her mind continued to race with the miserable events that took place in her life, her heart falling into irreparable pieces remembering the news she received earlier on that stabbed her like a knife, and her throat closing in with the lump of breath caught up within.
She basked in pain as she berated herself with multitudinous questions about the choices she had made, actions she had done, opportunities she did not take, feelings she had suppressed,
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