17. A surprise

ERICA

I didn’t give him an answer, I couldn’t. Because it surprised me how easily the answer popped up in my mind and came to the tip of my tongue. Instead I told him to not hide from me. His ruthlessness was not directed on me but it was for me and it was surprising how much I loved it. I wanted to see it again and again, and revel in it. The feeling of it was so euphoric that I wanted to experience that high again. And I didn’t want him to think that he has to hide himself or any part of him from me. The only thing I was afraid of was the coming week. Because it would mark the end of our deal, our decided ten weeks after which he would allow me to return home. But... now, I didn’t want to. Not really. I only wanted to return back to my sister to erase her worries so I could come back to him on my own. And I was worried that, after ten days to be exact, he will be the one to ask me to leave then how would I come back. I’d like to think that he wouldn’t do any such thing considering t