This couldn’t be happening.Everything was going wrong today. Scarlett wasn’t supposed to run off or get in that accident and definitely not supposed to give birth today. It was earlier than expected. Even though I was excited, I still wasn’t ready for it. Nothing could truly prepare me for fatherhood. But I was so eager to hold my son in my arms. But now there were complications. Grayson and I weren’t even allowed in the room. “What do you think is going on in there?” I asked. “I have no idea, but it’s not right.” Grayson was pacing nervously. “We should be in there!”“They said it was better that we weren’t.”“There weren't supposed to be complications. Lee, I have a really bad feeling about this.”“Please calm down and stop pacing, you're making me nervous!” I snapped. “Sorry I just…god, Lee, what if something goes horribly?” Grayson asked, sitting next to me. “What if one of the babies isn’t okay or what if she-”“No! Don’t talk like that. I-it’s gonna be fine, it has to be.”
I couldn’t breathe. The woman I loved and my daughter were fighting for their lives and all I could do was sit in the hallway, imagining the worst possible outcomes. That Scarlett wouldn’t make it and I would be a single father. That Joy wouldn’t make it and I would have a hole in my heart forever. That they both wouldn’t make it and I wouldn’t be able to keep on living. I felt horrible for hoping that if one of the babies made it, it was Joy. I didn’t want Lee to lose Julian, but I needed Joy at this point. I had changed so much to prepare for being her father. My life was completely altered because of her and it couldn’t all be for nothing. She and Scarlett had to be okay. I heard what the doctor said and yet it didn’t actually process for me. Lee and I had to choose who the priority was. Our babies or Scarlett. “I can’t choose,” I whispered. “Considering these are her first babies, we feel more obligated to Scarlett if you cannot make a choice.” He stated. “I can’t lose my
Someone had it out for me.How the hell did I almost die twice in one year? Was someone that desperate to get me off this earth? And how the hell did I keep making it through?Dr. Malik was going to be incredibly stressed out next time we saw him. Slowly, I opened my eyes. It was so nice and quiet compared to how chaotic it was when I passed out. Seemed like a lot had happened since then. “Scarlett?” Dr. Conner asked. “How are you feeling?”“Um, okay. My babies-”“Are fine. They’re with their fathers right now.”“Really?” I asked. “They’re okay? I actually did it?”“You did really well, yes. You definitely scared us for a minute there, but everything is alright. Your babies are beautiful and you’re going to be okay.”“We’ve come a long way from me being in denial about being pregnant huh?” I laughed. “We really have. Thank you for trusting me.” Dr. Conner smiled. “Thank you for proving me right. Can I see my babies now?” “Of course you can. Just a moment.”I sat up slowly, still
“Come on, sweetie!” Grayson pleaded. “I will give you whatever you want if you stop crying. A new dress? Or maybe a fun tricycle.”“Grayson, are you trying to bribe our baby into not crying?” I questioned. “I have to try everything right?” “Give her to me,” I held out my arms. “What’s wrong sweetheart? Huh? You upset?”Joy cried loudly in my face. I had never seen her like this. I had already fed and changed her. Maybe she needed to be burped. “Are you gassy, sweet girl?” I asked as I bounced her and patted her back. “Maybe you need a burp.”Her crying quieted. “Maybe she just missed you.” Grayson stated. “I mean I know the feeling.”“Maybe we shouldn’t go today,” I said.“Scar, come on, we need this. We haven’t done therapy in a while. It’ll be good. And we’ve been cooped up in this house for almost two months.”“Yeah, I guess you’re right, I just don’t want to be away from the babies.”“They’ll be fine. We are leaving them in the capable hands of their godparents.” Grayson assur
“What do you mean?” I asked. “What’s wrong with her?”“I don’t know Scarlett! She's been fussy the whole time a-and Avery looked it up and it said we should take her temperature and I did, and it’s a hundred and one, Scarlett!” Skyler cried. “Oh my god…that’s too high! You have to take her to the hospital now! We will meet you there, okay?”“Okay, I’m so sorry!”I hung up quickly. “I’m sorry Dr. Malik, we have to go now.” “What’s wrong?” Lee questioned. “It’s Joy. She has a really high fever. Skyler and Avery are taking her to the hospital right now.”“Is she going to be okay?” Grayson’s voice broke. “I don’t know babe, we have to go now.” I said. “We will reschedule, I promise!”“I understand, Scarlett.” Dr. Malik assured me. Grayson was driving like a maniac to the hospital. It stressed me out, since I hadn’t been in cars much since the accident, but I’d rather get there as fast as possible.We hurried through the hospital until we spotted Skyler and Avery.“Hi!” I yelled. “Wh
“Are you mad at me?” I asked. “What do you mean?” Lee questioned. “I mean that you’ve been kinda weird to me since we brought Joy home from the hospital.”He sighed as he attempted to put Julian in his onesie. He still hadn’t mastered baby clothes. He said they were much too tiny and hard to handle. “You let the people at the hospital call you Mrs. Wrenford. You didn’t correct them and just went along with it.” Lee whispered. “And that bothered you?”“Yes, because if you were so comfortable being called Mrs. Wrenford, that means you see yourself being his wife. Which means…you don’t see yourself-”“Being Mrs. Windsor.” I finished for him. “Lee, babe, that was…I was in such a frenzy at the hospital, I wasn’t really thinking. I mean Joy was sick.”“I know, Scar. I’m aware that I’m being ridiculously sensitive about this, it’s just…not knowing who you want to marry is absolute torture. I see you with Julian and I just want you to be my wife. I love you.”“I love you too, Lee. I have
A year ago I was miserable.I had just checked into rehab and I didn’t want to be there. I was sick and shaky and dying for just one pill. I thought I was going to die. But I didn’t. Now I was a mom of two beautiful children who were my entire life. For the first time in many years, drugs were the furthest thing from my mind. I didn’t crave lines and pills and endless parties. I just wanted to take care of my babies. “Scarlett!” Grayson called. “Come quick!”My eyes shot open. I quickly realized the guys had let me sleep in. Something must be wrong now!I jumped out of bed and hurried down to the living room. “What’s wrong?” I asked. “Is everything okay?”“She laughed, babe,” Grayson smiled. “Joy laughed at me.”“But you’re not funny.”“She thinks I am.”I bent over her crib and nearly fainted. She was smiling as she babbled. “Hi princess. You’re laughing now?” I asked. Tears came to my eyes as she giggled, looking up at me. “Am I funny to you? Do I make you laugh?”“Our baby
Lee was smiling like crazy. After he won the coin toss he was giddy and had a pep in his step. Sex really can change someone’s mood, even if they hadn’t had it yet. “I would like to have sex before Faye’s wedding,” Lee informed me. “Why?” I asked. “Because I know how you get about romance and weddings, it makes you horny. But then you’ll feel like doing it with Grayson and not me, since it will have been his mom’s wedding.”“You think Grayson’s birth mother getting married is going to make me horny?” “Yes, I’m sure of it.”I laughed. “Um okay, what about tonight?”“Tonight sounds perfect.” He wrapped his arms around my waist. “Grayson will watch the kids and you’ll watch me rock your world.”I kissed him. “And I’ll be on my back the whole time.”“Just the way I like you.” Lee kissed me again. “What are we doing tonight?” Grayson walked in the living room, causing me and Lee to break apart. “Um, Lee and I are gonna hang out.” I stated. “Ah. So I’m on kid duty tonight?” “Sounds