Chapter 24

(The slash funds)

(Simon pov)

The drive back home felt long as I pondered over the last 30 minutes that just happened.

Lying to her about how I felt, I hated myself, I was scared, scared of the way she made me feel, scared of being vulnerable in the process I hurt her.

I could see the hate in her eyes when I told her I couldn't love her, the pain, the disappointment. I never wanted to hurt her. But it felt like the only way to protect myself.

The truth was, I did love her. I love her more than anything. But I couldn't bear the thought of opening up, of letting someone in so completely.

The walls I have built around my heart seemed impenetrable, a shield to protect me from the pain that love inevitably brings.

But in pushing her away, I had caused more pain than I ever imagined. The regret washed over me like a tidal wave, drowning me in sorrow and guilt.

I replayed the moment over and over again in my mind, wishing I could turn back time and find the bravery, to be honest with her.