CHAPTER 1

My name is Ana, I'm currently 15 years old, besides studying a lot, I'm secretly dating my neighbor Brian! They might even think it's weird or something and a 15 year old girl secretly dating my mom is kind of tough, she's dried up with no feelings after divorcing my dad. Then she says that love is wrong, she says it's silly, love only makes us suffer, but I know she says it because she's still hurt by what my father did, he cheated on her with a cousin of ours and that woman didn't would you be disappointed? I suppose one day even I, Brian, will get that for myself, and I really hope I never do.

In short, she doesn't allow any boys near me, she says I'm too young to think about that. Lucky for me that as I'm his neighbor she never noticed anything and as we were a lot of friends and that's where I take advantage of that and I can feel comfortable with him that she will never know about our secret affair.

I don't know how to live without him, you know? Our love is so beautiful despite the fact that he is already entering adult life, as he will be 18 in 2 months and is considering serving in the barracks, but nothing that could disturb us and destroy our relationship.

I count the minutes and seconds to get home and see him. As if my sun wouldn't shine without him, or maybe the sky without the stars. I hope one day our relationship can be seen by everyone and that's how we want it because he will wait until I'm 18 to talk to my mom, then I get older and if she doesn't let us get away and that's it.

We dream of so many things and plan everything, even the color of the walls in our house. Well, I think love is wanting to be with each other all the time and being partners in everything, especially being there for you through the good times and the bad.

Sometimes I ask my mom if she'll ever love again or whatever, but she doesn't tell me anything other than telling me to shut up because I'm talking. I suppose she isn't young and pretty, she has the right to love again, otherwise she was happy with my father, and because it wasn't meant to be. She doesn't even go out with her friends, she goes out, stays at home all the time working non-stop, I think that's an excuse.

Anyway, leave her with her life, if she's happy, then I'm happy too, even if I don't think so. I propose that we go back to talking about my relationship with Brian, which is important right now and what makes me happy.

Of course, our relationship is not a secret to anyone here where we live, because my mother has heard several times that they were having an affair, but she never asked me anything, because she must know between me and him and prefers to pretend that nothing is happening yet .

Honestly, I even prefer it that way, there's not much gossip and my mother doesn't like it, she never did. However, there are always those friends who want to steal what belongs to others, right!

But with me there's nothing, it gets really ugly when I realize that there are clueless people wanting what's mine, I like my grandma, I get out of the jump.

We practically do everything together, he also helps me with any questions in my studies, that's why my mother never complained because she never made me focus on my studies and my grades are always the same or even better.

He is the man of my life for sure and I can't wait to be a part of it and build a family together. Many of my friends say that with time I gain experience and mature, who knows, until I find my true love. Because I'm still not old enough to really know if what I feel for him and love can be fleeting, but I don't believe that, and I have no idea when they tell me that, I bet envy for sure.

I always say that I want my relationship to last like my grandparents because they were made for each other, they have been married for 40 years and they cannot live without each other, they are the most beautiful and beautiful seniors and they are still in love.

Sometimes, when I'm alone with my grandfather, I ask if he ever cheated on my grandmother and stuff. Then he says he never noticed, because when he married my grandmother he promised to love and respect her and she was the one he married and swore love and fidelity. Look, he actually starts crying when he talks about her. I feel the love between them and he always says that before they diverged, the man who cheated on the woman was frowned upon, now it seems that it is fashionable to put horns on his companions.

After all, when I talk to my father, he lives in another country. I always ask him why he cheated on his mother, and he replies that it was the biggest mistake in his life. He tried to get back to her several times, but the feeling of being betrayed again was so great that it never worked again. Living with a suspicious person is one of them.

No doubt it must be bad to live like this, where there will always be doubts whether you are not repeating the mistake. What's worse is that this happened to a family member, and sometimes I watch her and wonder how someone could be so dirty as to betray their own cousin. Anyway, she's my aunt's daughter.

I would never have the stomach for that, my mother is very strong, you know? When we go to my grandparents' house, she's always there, and all I see is her looking at her mother, wanting to say something, but my mother blocks her before she can try. But it also went wrong, because my father didn't keep it and left it empty, he was the famous ate and leaked! I feel sorry for her because she has a reputation for stealing other people's husbands and it's not talked about wherever she goes, it's very ugly. However, she was the one who sought him out, I wish her the best of luck when she does get a man.

This tragic story of my parents, I wish from the heart that they can find a new love and be happy. And I continue to love forever until God allows Brian and I hope my life is happy like a fairy tale. Who doesn't dream of the prince? Only my mother locked herself in and threw away the key to happiness!

If I were her, I would be living stuck in the past, nothing would follow my beautiful and beautiful life, I would let those who lost me suffer, watching me evolve. I doubt that I would stay with him and that my mother is kind of old as they say. Just like Brian's father, the one who is always fighting with his mother because she is a girl who wants to take advantage of it, fights happen every day and I'm glad I'm always here to support him in that moment!