Chapter 45 Strong for her child

Rosalyn's pov.

As the night stretched on, Lorcan's absence weighed heavily on my heart. I sat alone in the living room for who knows how long. I'm still feeling conflicted after that phone conversation.

But as expected, he didn't come home and I feel even sadder though I promised myself to move on. My eyes fixed on the name displayed on my phone, and our conversation time never exceeded a minute. It lacked both depth and intimacy that I longed for.

I curled on the couch. How come he only ever remembers me to give me command of what I needed to do? It constantly made me remember how inherently unequal our relationship is. The realisation hits me hard.

It made me wonder if I ever crossed his mind while he works in his office like how he's on my mind 24/7. It's pitiful how I don't mind even if he thinks of me even for a bare second.

I laughed. What have I made of myself? Why can't I have a stable love life like how I used to dream about? A heavy sigh escaped my lips as I whispered to mys