56 : "Teddy"Teddy56I pull myself away from him and he slightly releases me too, brushing his huge hands down my arms but still he was looking at me ruefully."I'm just protecting your privacy." He says to me. "And you know that.""I know." I try not to cry.Shit, why the hell do I even feel like crying? My tears are filling my eyelids. Damn it. This is so stupid right now. Getting jealous over his fans when I know they're more important to him than me. I can't possibly be getting jealous over petty things like him talking to his fans and he can't with me. But what can I say? I can't help it. I can't stop my feelings from getting jealous."It just makes me feel less important when you don't talk to me like how you treat everyone else. But it's fine." I add."Less important?" He questioned.But my tears are failing me and its unstoppably falling. It's crawling out from my eyes and dropping down to my cheeks. I quickly wiped it with the back of my hand, too ashamed that Gage is actual
57 : "Reverie"Reverie57I watch him while he sleeps next to me and he looks like a baby sleeping. His plump lips looked fuller and more pinkish while there's a stray of eyelash above his right cheek. He's topless when he's sleeping but he left his boxers on. I glared at his wall clock, and it was already four in the morning. I need to get back to my room before everyone wakes up and notice me walking out from Gage's room.I carefully take the strayed eyelash off from his cheek and I take a longer stare at his face. His face seems unblemished today, there are some times when his face has small pimples on his forehead or sometimes on his cheek. But he's still very handsome even with his pimples.If you're curious, no we didn't have sex last night. And just as what he promised me, we just slept next to each other. I love it when we sleep together even if I don't trust him when he says he wants to sleep with me because I don't trust myself when I sleep with him too.I tried to deny thi
58 : "Cabin"Cabin58G A G EAm I?"Dude." Peter snapped at me.I groan as we head out of the van. I've been trying to avoid and ignore Peter teasing me about falling in love with Tate. I'm not in love with her and that was just a stupid dream. I shouldn't have told him about that dream if I knew he'd just kept on teasing me about it."Gage come on. Tell the truth. Don't deny it to yourself. You're in love with Tate." He whispers to me while he nudges his elbow to my side."Peter. " I snapped."How many times do I have to tell you that I am not in love with her? You won't even listen to me." I tell him."You dreamt about confessing to her. That could mean something Gage. Come on, don't be too blind about it just because Anast--" He stops.I sigh.I watch as Peter sigh too while he looks away from me and clears his throat. "I think you love her man." He tells me.I didn't answer."If not love, then you're probably attracted to her. Maybe you're already attached to her. Tate's beautifu
59 : "Campfire"Campfire59T A T EThe others were already singing along to the guy who was playing with his guitar. It felt like this was just like the Campout I did back in New York but the only things that are different is Peter's here, Adam's here too and everybody knows that Gage is here unlike that night, he was hiding himself under a disguise.As I glance at Gage he was busy talking to the woman next to him. She didn't come from our class, I was sure of that. She looked older than me, wearing a purple sleeveless some plaid button down and her white skimpy shorts. He seemed to be enjoying talking with her and it's obvious that she's enjoying too."Here."I moved my head to Adam and he was already handing me a beer. "Your teachers are out." He says.I gazed at their tent and he was right. I was quick enough to take the can of beer and hold it around my grasp. I glanced again at Gage and he was still busy with that brunette. As for Peter, he was busy talking to a group of females
60 : "Jealous"Jealous60G A G EI have no choice but to share a room with Peter. We decided not to join the campout since there are tons of other girls who will probably not let us sleep.Peter was taking a quick shower while I'm laying here on top of my bed thinking about Adam and Tate being all close again. I don't want to think about it and I don't want to worry about it but there's this huge feeling eating me up on the inside making me mad at Adam for putting his arm around my Tate.My Tate?I laugh at myself because I'm being too ridiculous right now.Why am I even getting bothered about this Tate and Adam thing? I know I shouldn't be feeling this way. Why? Because she's not fucking mine.Tate isn't yours Gage. You're only after her because of sex, that was what you wanted from her from the beginning, right? Why acting up all of a sudden about this petty thing? I scolded myself.I see Peter getting out of the bathroom while he rubbed his hair with a dry towel. He glances at me
61 : "New"New61T A T EWhen I got back to my apartment in New York, I was tired and drained. The second I arrived home, I dropped my things and went to sleep on top of my couch. I was that tired to think I slept the entire hours during our flight back here in New York. I was glad that I'm hope, I miss civilization and phone signal and Internet and Monique. Even though Machu Picchu was a truly a beautiful place to visit, I still can't help it not to miss New York City.Around seven in the evening, my hunger woke me up. As soon as I opened my eyes, I noticed that I haven't turned on the lights of my apartment. It looked as if I was in a cave. So I switched on the lights and yawned as I walked groggily to the kitchen to grab some water. I feel my calves aching, this must be because of all the hiking we did at Machu Picchu. My thighs hurts too and even my shoulders and my arms. My entire body is sore, just as sore as how Gage fucked me all night that one time when he came around my apa
62 : "Realizations"Realizations62G A G EI watch as Tate yawns."You need more coffee?" I ask her."Can you make another cup for me please?" She looks at me drowsy chinky eyes. She smiles at me groggily.I held her head with my hand and pulled it closer to my lips, kissing her hair."I'll be back." I tell her.I walk away from the living room and headed to the kitchen. I started making her a cup of coffee and worried about her because she's been working hard on that reaction paper for hours now. I didn't want to leave her alone on this that's why I stayed up with her even though I just arrived back from Machu Picchu. I haven't had a good sleep but I want to stay up with her. I want to help her stay up and finish her reaction paper because she told me how important she needs to finish it soon.Once I came back to the living room where I left Tate bringing the cup of coffee on my hand, I halted when I found her already asleep on the couch. I glance at my wall clock and it's already t
63 : "Anastasia"Anastasia63G A G EHer jaws was still slightly dropped open until she finally recovers from it too. She slightly shakes her head sideways and looks back at me again. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. It's been almost three years since I talked to her."How you've--""Mommy!" A little girl's voice cuts me off.I moved my head to the little girl behind her as she runs towards Anastasia. She had a long curly hair like mine, but in blond like Ana. From where I stand, I see her eyes were shades of bluish-green. It was truly remarkable. She looked adorably cute. She holds the hand of the little girl that was already standing next to her and my eyes beamed wide when I dropped my eyes to Anastasia's stomach.There's a bump."Daddy's already waiting inside the car. Cmon let's go." The little girl says.Anastasia travelled her eyes back to me and slightly smiled. "I'm sorry for bumping you. I wasn't looking where I was going. I'm sorry."I hear her muffling, "This was a mis