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Jaden's POV

Is it just me or everyone else only think about sleeping and hiding away when they are sad and depressed, because ever since I got home from the hospital, I have been locked up here in my room just sleeping my sorrow away while shutting the world out like it doesn't exist.

What is there to think about even . I just feel this great big void in my life that keeps drilling a really painful hole in my chest over and over again. It's even worst because nothing else seem to make sense any more so I can't even focus on the pain either. I'm just here wishing my thought away. It's like pretty much all the colors in my sky is either grey or plain black. I just feel completely and totally lost. Completely lost in this darkness of my own thought.

Ryder hates me and that's fact. He really does and that hurt more than you can even imagine.

Groaning out in frustration, i snuggle closer to my pillow and buried my face deep into it, getting all the