Guilty

Dear diary,

       It's been a long time since I wrote but now I am here since I feel good about everything that's going on. I guess I finally conquered my emotions. I know it's stupid, but I feel like I am doing ok around Vian. He doesn't affect me much anymore.

It's been a month since that fight with Ryan or should I say a misunderstanding? Vian and I were keeping our distance at school even though we didn't talk about it.

I didn't tell him what happened with Ryan that night. I am pretty sure if I told him he would do the opposite just to rile Ryan up.

I also understood Vian was doing it for Haze. He must have liked her a lot. That thought itself sent a million daggers towards my heart a few weeks ago but I guess I am sensitized to it now. Nowadays I could at least smile when I see them together. All thanks to Ryan.

He is good at distracting me from my reality. We went out on dates a lot, and I always had fun when I was with h