“I think the little young master also likes grapes,” I heard her say. I smiled and rubbed my belly. Little traitor. Staying in my belly and likes to eat his daddy’s favorites. “When the young master’s mother was pregnant with him, she also ate grapes. Only grapes” She smiled and looked at my belly. My belly was not big but it had a small bump. “When will the young master come again?” I asked. Aunty Jade’s facial expression changed as she heard what I asked. “Young master won’t come again. His job is done and he doesn’t have permission to come here again.” What? Doesn’t have permission? What kind of nonsense was that? “He’s the father of the child. Why can’t he come?” What kind of father is he, if he can’t come to see his baby? “Young master has works. He’s a busy man. Don’t think that you can start a relationship with him because of the baby.” I wanted to laugh. A relationship? I haven’t even seen that man. How am I supposed to start a relationship with him? Pufft. I didn’
At least I couldn’t even see him. I’m not ready.. I’m not ready yet to read his notebook. I wasn’t there for him. I wasn’t there to share his pain. I wasn’t there to listen to his last words. What kind of a sister am I? I hate myself and not protecting Noah. Why? Now how am I supposed to live without him? He was my life. I did everything for him but he’s already gone. I just can’t go through this pain anymore. I lost my parents, Noah, and also my baby. Why am I just useless? Why don’t I just die? I can’t live with memories. Noah waited for the whole damn nine months but he lost every hope. I was late… I was just late. I wasn’t ready to let him go. I wasn’t.. I want him. He’s my only brother and the only family that I have…. It hurts and I can’t believe it. He’s gone….. He was waiting for me but I just couldn’t be there for him. Guilty is killing me… I want to die…. With those hurtful memories and thoughts, I fell asleep finally. I woke up after a few hours and it’s already evening.
~ Ryan ~ My whole world collapsed as I saw the woman who was laying on the bed. Her eyes were covered and hands were tied but I could recognize her. She was the woman I saw two weeks ago in front of the hospital. I could feel that she was scared. I looked at her red lips and my eyes fell on her body. Fuck… Her breasts, slim waist, long legs. Shit.. I felt my body was trying to take control. Fuck my lust. I looked at her neck and collarbones. Holy fuck… Fucking attractive. I couldn’t wait so I took off my clothes and climbed onto the bed as I placed myself on top of her body. She was scared, scared as fuck…. I slowly removed her nightgown and looked at her. My heart beat increased as I looked at her. Is she a goddess? Fucking gorgeous. With that I started to do what I was supposed to do to her. I was gentle because I knew this was her first time and it would hurt her. As I started to move the satin that was covering her eyes became wet. She’s crying and biting her lips. I saw her l
“Your thoughts are correct Ryan. She’s your mother.” Dad? Can he read my thoughts? How did he know? She’s my mother……. So gorgeous.... But where is she? “She’s beautiful” I smiled and sat next to my father. I looked at him and saw his eyes were red. Was he crying? But he smiled as he heard what I said. “Yeah, she’s the most beautiful woman” He said while hiding his sadness. “Where is she dad?” I asked as he looked at me. I felt sadness and at the same time fear. For some unknown reason I didn’t want to hear the answer for my question…… Because I have never seen her in my life. “Gone” He simply said and closed his eyes. Gone? Where? My eyes became red. She’s dead… Wasn’t she? “Dad..” I spoke but he cut me off with words. “Go now. You’ll be late” I nodded at him and got up to leave but he spoke again. “Don’t be like me Ryan.. You will suffer” What? Why? I stopped and looked at him because I wanted an explanation for that. “What do you mean?” I asked again because I didn
I was away for fucking five months.My heart was restless because next week my baby is going to be born and I should be there. And most importantly I want to see Noah. I asked him to wait for me. Shit. I was sitting on my bed but for some unknown reasons I was scared. I should go back before I regret something. Why am I feeling this way? Shit.. I started to pull my hair. What is this? Why am I acting like this? “Why are you upset?” I heard my father’s voice as he came into my room. “I don’t know dad. I’m scared” I was honest. I was really scared for something that I didn’t even know. “I was scared too at that time. Don’t worry everything will be fine” He patted my shoulder and sighed. “It was not about the baby dad. It was for someone that I saw for one day.” I buried my face against my palms and spoke. “Who?” I looked at my dad and he was somewhat curious. “A little boy. Noah” I said and saw the surprise face of dad. Yeah, he should be surprised because I never cared abo
“Sir, There are two boys named Noah. I don’t know you’re asking about which one” Fuck… “Grey eyes and light brown hair. Always had a bright smile on his face. Maybe he’s six or seven years old” I spoke as her face grew dark. A sudden shiver ran through my body because of her face. “Sir.. He.. He passed away yesterday.” Wh...what? Passed away? No.. She’s lying right? “Tell me the fucking truth before I cut you into pieces and feed sharks” I looked at her horror filled face and asked. “I...I’m telling the truth sir. Noah…Kennedy. He passed away yesterday morning” My heart shattered into pieces and at the same time my whole damn world collapsed. How? How it happened. “How? Why? He was all okay that day.. What happened to him?” I asked her. My eyes turned hot and I knew tears were about to come out. Why am I this sad? I only saw him for a day. “He… He couldn’t get the surgery at the right time.” Why? “Why the fuck didn’t your hospital do that for him” I found myself trembli
She was wearing a knee length black frock with straps. She was all wet because of the rain. I could clearly see the damn curves in her body because her dress was glued to her body. Doesn’t she feel cold? What happened to her and why is she like that? The was she looked at my direction I felt she was so fucking similar to Noah. As the car passed her I looked back and saw she was staring in the direction that the car left but why did she come here? I was curious because I knew according to the contract she can’t see the baby after he’s born. Maybe she came to see him for one last time. I sighed and closed my eyes because I knew this would be the last time I see her. I came into the mansion and saw grandma who was looking at my sleeping son. My heart filled with love as I looked at them. “Grandma,” I spoke as she looked at me and smiled. “Your lazy boy is sleeping. He’s truly like his lazy daddy” Me? Lazy? No. I laughed and sat next to her on the sofa. “I’m not lazy, grandma” I
“Fairies.” I told him as he nodded his head. “Yes fairies. Daddy she’s like a fairies. So beautiful” He’s still too small and always makes mistakes with his words. “It’s a fairy baby” I corrected him and he smiled. “Yes, a fairy. She’s like a fairy. She had grey colored eyes and long light brown hair. Not like me and you daddy.” What? How? My heartbeat increased. How did he know? He has never seen her and doesn't even know what she looks like. “HOW? NOEL. WHEN DID YOU SEE HER?” Grandma’s angry voice echoed in the dining room and Noel quickly buried his face against my body. He was sitting on my lap yet he got scared of her. The fury took over me as I looked at grandma’s behaviour. How dare she scare my son for no reason? “Mom. Don’t shout. He’s a little child” My dad said with an angry face. Grandma looked down and took a deep breath. “Noel baby, tell grandma where did you see her?” Why is grandma so restless after what Noel said? Over past years my mind filled with doubt