Chapter 6: Heartbroken

After days of not having blood, I'm weak. I'm barely able to move around, dizzy, it's hard to see, etc. But everytime I go to hunt... Rob comes around.

I don't know when he's gonna come around so I don't know when I can go find a snack. I'm gonna die soon if I can't get some blood in my system.

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"Rob, I need you to stay here ok?" He whimpers in his wolf form. "Do not follow me or our friendship... is over" He puts his head down and whimpers.

I pet him and give him a little kiss on the head. "Don't go anywhere, I'll be right back, ok?"

I went to a local park as soon as I could and hid behind a tree. There was a woman alone and hiking, this was maybe my one and only shot. So I look around to make sure nobody was in seeing distance and use my vamp speed to rush to her.

Usually, I don't kill people but I need all the blood I can get. It always does a number on me when I kill an innocent person... even if their not innocent and I kill them.

"Oh! You scared me" "I'm sorry, that wasn't my intentions" "Are you ok?" Tears well in my eyes because I know what I'm about to do. "No, no I'm not" She tilts her head and her eyebrows furrow.

"I'm so sorry" "For what?" "For this" I say and bite into her neck, drinking her blood and killing her in seconds.

When she was dead, I drop her to the ground, I can feel the blood dripping from my chin.

I fall to the ground and cry, it's been a long time since I've killed someone. To see her dead... it's heartbreaking.

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After I bury the body, I head back home; Snowy is waiting for me on the front porch. His head tilts to the side with confusion seeing me looking heartbroken with dried blood on my chin.

"Ava?" He asks, turning back into his human form. Thankfully, he had clothes laying by the couch to change into.

"Ava, is that... blood?" My eyes get wide and I rush to the bathroom. I didn't get all the blood off my chin. I'm gonna have to come clean, he's gonna know I killed someone.

"You know what, Rob, yeah it is" "Why do you have blood on your chin?" "I... you should sit down" "Um, ok" "Listen, I don't know if you've noticed but recently I've been really weak-" "Yeah, I have... are you feeling better?" "Would you let me tell my story please?" I say with a sigh. "Sorry" He says, sadly.

"No, I didn't mean to be rude" "It's alright, go ahead" "I did something today, and I just need to know that you'll keep my secret between us or it won't end well... for you, me, or anyone" "There's nothing on this Earth that could make me leave you forever"

"Promise me Rob Maxwell, that you'll keep this secret between us no matter what?" "I swear... I promise" "Rob... I drank from someone today" "Oh damn it" He says, fustrated as he gets up, putting his hands in his hair.

"Do you realize what this means?" "Yes I know what it means, I realize exactly what it means... that's why I said something to you" He sighs, trying to figure out what to do. "You don't like me anymore... do you?" "No, no I do, I do!"

"But?" "But it's just this is a huge problem" "I know" "Why did you decide to tell me this?" "Because, I don't know what to do" I say, looking down. "What happened?" He asks, taking my chin in his hand making me look at him.

"I've been so weak lately that... I've always been against killing people, I never kill people, ok? But I've never gone more than a day without feeding. Rob... I... I killed someone" I break down in tears, falling to the floor. He falls with me, hugging me.

"How can you even look at me? Let alone let me hug you?!" "What do you mean?" "I'm a monster!" "You said you don't kill people, I can see how badly this is effecting you... your far from a monster, Ava Lynn" "No! Monsters kill people, Rob!" "Does that make me a monster?" "You've- you've killed people?" "It doesn't happen very often, but when it does, it's very traumatic"

"You feel like it's all your fault, but you couldn't help it" "Yeah, that's about how it goes" "So that's how it is for werewolves, huh?" "Mhm" "I buried her, I felt so bad that I buried her... The last thing I wanted was someone to find her body while it was rotting or something ya know?" "Yeah, your a good person, Ava, wether you think so or not" "Thanks, Rob, but... I'm not feeling so great" "I know, but it'll get better" "Your a pretty good person too, Rob" "Thank you, Ava"

"So, how long?" "What?" "How long have you been...?" "A vampire?" "Huh, I lost track of time, honestly" He chuckles. "But if this gives you any consolation I've seen my mom, dad and little sister die" "That's... horrible" I nod.

"Yeah, it wasn't ideal but I suppose it's alright, I've gotten to see how the world's evolved throughout time, ya know?" "I guess that is a plus" He chuckles making me chuckle.

"What about you? How long you been..." "A werewolf?" We laugh. "Since I was 12 years old" "Good God" "The pain eased the longer I was a wolf, but the first few years... it was like holy terror" "How do you trigger it or does it just start at that age?"

"Well, it's in our blood so I was cursed with it anyway. But, I had to..." He was silent. "We don't have to talk about it anymore" "No, it's alright" "You sure?" He nods. "... I had to kill someone" My head snaps over to him.

"It doesn't matter if it's an accident, or on purpose, drunk or sober. You kill someone it's gonna happen on the next full moon" "But you can control it now, you come to me when it's not a full moon all the time" "Now I can, that's just how our pack is" "Do they know?"

"Know what?" "That a 'human' knows about you?" "Oh God no, they'd kill me" I laugh. "So, um, if you don't mind me asking... what happened? You know to trigger your curse?" He was silent. It looks like he went into a daze, or maybe like he was reliving it. I could see the pain in his eyes, now I felt bad for asking about it.