Kabanata 86

TRIGGER WARNING! SUICIDE ATTEMPT

“Ma'am, kumain na po kayo.”

It has been weeks since my wedding was call off. Ang bilis ng pangyayari na kahit ako ay hindi makapaniwala. I woke up in the hospital after 24 hours and the news came to me harshly. I was so devastated to the point I was running wild and shouting at everyone in the hospital. Kahit si Lee at Belle ay nasigawan ko. Pero kahit anong paghihinagpis ko, kahit anong sigaw ang gawin ko ay walang lumapit sa akin upang sabihan ako na panagip lamang ang lahat.

Tanging pag-iyak lamang ang nagawa ko pagkatapos na pagwawala ko. Lee and Belle couldn't comfort me. No sugarcoated words can heal my wounds. No comforting warmth can ease my pain.

After two days, Kian woke up. With his injured body, he kneeled in front of me asking for forgiveness. He was blaming himself for his friends death saying he should've died instead. And I on the other hand, blamed him in some aspects. The reason why until now, I do not have the courage to face him ye