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Maddox's POV I close the door when I get into my office. Turning around I lean against the door then rest my head against it while closing my eyes. "Fuck!" I whisper. I stay like that for a few moments before pushing away from my door. I walk to my desk before dropping into my chair. With my elbows on my desk I rest my face in my hands and just sit here. What am I going to do? I can't, I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready to have sex yet, not with Addison and definitely not with Finn. What am I going to do? Tonight's the full moon celebration. Finn's going to go into his first heat... And Addison will be going into heat as well but at least hers isn't as bad as a werewolves. Hers is nowhere near as bad as of werewolves thank goddess. She's been able to handle her heats without me since they rescued me. Which I was assuming we would be doing the same thing again. I hate this! I hate that I feel like this, that my head's so fucked up I haven't been able to even take care of my ma
Maddox's POV I linked Xander on my way back to my office telling him to keep all unmated males away from the pack house and went straight to my office and locking myself in. Thankfully my office was empty, I rest myself against the door and slid down. dropping my head in my arms as I folded them over my knees. After a few minutes I suddenly realized I'm not sure if I brought what I need for today with me. I jumped up and ran to my desk, yanking the bottom right drawer open. I felt relief flood me when I saw the box sitting in there. I pulled the box out, pulling the lid open and see several syringes sitting in there. I pulled one out and rolled it between my fingers as I look at the poison that I have to put in my body as soon as I start feeling the effects of their heat. It's the only way I can get through it without going to them. I Have to inject myself with a mixture that includes wolfsbane. It's extremely painful, this will be my third time. No one knows I'm doing this but th
Maddox's POV It's 7:00pm and the full moon celebration is well underway since it started at 5:00pm. Knowing I can no longer hide up here and need to make an appearance I force myself to leave the safe confinements of my office and head outside. This is the first full moon celebration I'm celebrating since I've been rescued. The last two I was at my brother's pack and locked myself away in the pack house during the events. Unfortunately I can't do that now since I'm back at my own pack and I'm the alpha. So I put on my mask and plaster on my fake smile as I walked towards everyone. I made my rounds as I walked around saying hello to everyone. Trying to assure everyone that I'm okay as I could tell everyone was worried about me. I finally start to loosen up when I was standing with a small group. I had my back toward the woods when three members came from behind me and bumped into me. I felt a pinch in my back off to the side and quickly spun around grabbing the person behind me by
Maddox's POV I laid there crying with my head buried in Finn's neck after he rolled me over. He laid on top of me shielding my body from everyone. "I'm so sorry, I felt you... I heard you, You were so loud. He said while crying. I was so scared Maddox, we got hear as fast as we could!" He said as held onto me tighter while we both cried. We laid there for a moment with him holding me and my head buried in his neck. I heard the commotion going on around us still and the sound of Addison still chanting as she walked past us. The sounds of growls and snarls could be heard. The cries and screams of those men who were trying to hurt me could be heard as their cries became gurgly before they died out. Here let me pick him up I heard my father say. Finn slowly got off of me then my father laid a blanket on me before picking me up. Has he picked me up? I caught a quick glance at the scene behind me and seen there were even more men coming than was here originally. Nicholas's
Maddox's POV His eyes went wide as he watches me bring my fingers to my mouth, licking his juices off before sticking them in my mouth and sucking them dry. My goddess, I think I've died and gone to heaven I thought as I tasted him. He taste sweater than he smells. My mind so clouded in a lustful haze wanting to taste more of him as my wolf pushes forward harder with me. I growl as I attack his mouth, thrusting my tongue inside as I taste him again. He moans as he rocks his hips against me as I hungrily devour his mouth. My tongue searching every crevice as I can't get enough of him. I suck his lower lip into my mouth before biting on it and he takes a sharp breath in as he rocks his hips forward. My hands roam his body as I attack his neck. I suck, kiss and nip at it. "Maddox!" He cries out when I bite down on his marking spot, fully breaking the skin but not marking him. I felt his body tremble as he pushed against me. I can feel his heart pounding in his chest even harder a
Addison's POV"Finn hun, I don't know what you're talking about. What happened?""He.. he kissed me."He said still crying.I was shocked to hear this and so happy.I was afraid it was going to take way longer than this for him to be be able to allow himself to feel for Finn. To be able to get to the point where he would be able to kiss him."That's wonderful, but why are you crying then? Did you not want him to?""No, I mean yes. That's not what's wrong."He said as he slowly pulled away. He brought his hand up and touched his neck where his shoulder and neck meet."He, he bit me. I felt his wolf... He wanted to mark me. I thought... I thought he was going to go further.I got scared, it wasn't his fault. My stupid head thought he was going to rape and mark me.I... I freaked out.Oh goddess Addison, the look on his face! I seen the look on his face when he seen how scared I was.He.... He felt my fears. He felt so guilty, he felt like one of them! I did this to him!I felt what he wa
Addison's POVIt felt like I had just fallen asleep when I suddenly sat up taking a sharp breath in as I clutched my stomach."Fuck!" I said as I quickly opened the drawer on the nightstand next to my bed. I reached in and grabbed the pills before quickly swallowing them back with water.Feeling my body already heating up. I quickly ran into the bathroom. I turned the shower on as cold as I could get it.I tore my clothes off and quickly jumped in the shower. I instantly let out a sigh of relief as I felt the cold water rain down on my red hot skin. I leaned against the wall and slid down while letting the cold water run all over my body.Thankfully the pills that I got from my grandmother don't take long. About 5 to 10 minutes later I already started feeling the effect.I quickly turned the shower off and make my way to bed as fast as I could. My body already starting to feel heavy as my eyelids droop. I stumbled the last few steps toward the bed before collapsing on it.I struggled t
Maddox's POV"Finn are you awake?"I heard Addison's voice a few hours later as she slowly open the door and peaked her head in.Her eyes went wide when they landed on mine as I looked over my shoulder toward the door."Maddox?"She said as she opens the door further and slowly walks in looking at me confused and shocked."Quiet baby girl, I don't want him to wake up. He had a really rough night."I said to her in the link then nudged my head signaling her to come closer.She looked at me still confused as she walked over and sat down on the bed just behind me."I'm so sorry baby girl"I whispered, and she furrowed her eyebrows at me.I switched over to the link when I felt him start to stir. I really didn't want to wake him up yet, I knew he got absolutely no sleep last night and desperately needed this little bit of sleep."I'm so sorry I let you guys suffer, I promise it's not going to happen anymore. Enough's enough and I need to get over this. I can't keep doing this to you guys."