“Did you have to be so mean?” Lily slipped around my body, pressing her hands against my chest and gazing up at me.“The guy’s a douchebag.” I shrugged.“I know but imagine how hard it was for him to do that.”My eyes flickered over to Coach, who was watching us. “I think your dad probably agrees with you.”“Well, of course he does, silly.” Lily leaned up, kissing me.“Don’t worry about Jase,” Mr. Bennet said, clapping me on the back. “He remembers what he was like at your age. He and Fee were wild—”“Oh God,” Lily balked, stepping away from me. “I didn’t… I can’t…” Her eyes crinkled. “I’ll be over there, away from all the talk of my parents doing it.” She squeezed my hand before taking off toward her friends.“She’s different, you know?” Aaron’s dad gave me a pointed look. “You’re good for her.” “Did you know?” I asked him, thinking back to the times we hung out at his house.“I suspected something, yeah.” “And you didn’t tell Coach?”“Why the fuck would I do that? Jase is… he’s one
Until Peyton blurted, “Holy crap, that was so fucking good. You should have seen her face.” But it didn’t matter.She didn’t matter.“Anyway, I’ll leave you two love birds to it. I have an appointment with Mrs. B. Yay me.” She took off down the hall, and I frowned.“You’re worried?” Kaiden asked.“Yeah.” I let out a thin breath. “She’s hurting and I don’t know how to help her.”“Is her mom still clean?”“As far as I know. Peyton hasn’t said anything. And the social worker visits them. My dad made sure of it.”“It’s probably hard for her.” He hugged me tighter. “Staying with your family and then having to go back there and realize everything she’s missing out on.”A strange expression crossed his face, and my heart sank. “Kaiden, I’m sorry—”“No, Lily. Don’t do that. My dad and Peyton’s mom, it’s not the same.” But as he said the words, I saw the doubt in his eyes. “I have everything I need right here.”I leaned up on my tiptoes and brushed my lips over his. “I’ll love you enough for b
Kaiden’s hand curved around my hips, gently rolling me over him. It was so intense, so deep like this. But I loved being able to see him, being able to stare at him as our bodies rocked together.My fingers slid into the hair at the nape of Kaiden’s neck as I touched my head to his, circling my hips faster.“Fuck, Lily,” he rasped. “You feel…” “I know,” I cried.“You. Only ever you.”The winter sun streamed through the window, glinting off the dog tags hanging around his neck. I ran my finger over the smooth metal, as he thrust up inside me, drenching me in pleasure. “Play hard…” I whispered. “Fight hard…” I kissed him. “Love hard.”“Sounds like good advice to me,” Kaiden breathed the words against my lips and then no more words were spoken.Because sometimes actions said everything you needed to say.PeytonMy feet burned. It had been a grueling shift at the diner, but it was better than being here.I’d thought moving home with my mom was the right thing to do, but it was like living
LilyEVERYTHING IS GOING to be fine.I chanted the words like a prayer in my head as I stared at myself in the mirror.It was the first day of senior year. A day for feeling excited and eager and cautiously optimistic. A day to make bucket lists and plans for the future.A day to smile.But my smile was fake, and my bucket list contained only one item: survive.“Let’s go, Lilster.” My sister Poppy poked her head around the door, smiling. “Ooh, cute outfit.” She gave me the once over.Anyone would think it was her first day of senior year, but no, my sister was a junior. A confident, bubbly, popular junior.And I was… a wallflower.Shy, meek, Lily Ford.“I’m coming,” I said, checking my reflection for the last time.You’ve got this.With a weak smile, I grabbed my backpack and followed Poppy downstairs.“Good morning, my two favorite girls.”“Morning, Mom. Something smells good.”“I made blueberry pancakes.”“Hmm, my favorite,” Poppy said. “Where’s Peyton?” she asked, but seconds later
“I CAN’T BELIEVE she’s—yep, she got in Sean’s car.”Ashleigh, Poppy, and I watched as his car drove off with Peyton inside. Mom and Dad would freak if they saw her going with him. Sean Farrow wasn’t exactly a star student. But that was Peyton, always falling for the diamonds in the rough. She craved attention. I didn’t blame her though, she’d had a tough life.People often didn’t understand why we were friends. The wild child and the wallflower. Peyton Myers was everything I wasn’t. Beautiful, confident, and strong-willed. But she was also damaged. Damaged in a way only other damaged people could understand.I understood.We were different in all the ways society deemed important, but our souls were the same.She didn’t judge me or my issues just as I didn’t judge hers.“God, I wish I was as brave as her.” Poppy let out a soft sigh.“Oh yeah, Pops,” Ashleigh teased, “and which guy’s car would you be climbing into?” “No one’s,” she rushed out a little too quickly.“Wait a second.” My b
“Yeah, but I didn’t think he’d…”“What? Choose the trailer trash over Cheer Barbie?”“That’s not what I meant.”“Oh, I know exactly what you meant, Linds.” Peyton flashed her a saccharine smile. “Happy first day back.”Ashleigh snorted, but I rolled my eyes. “Peyton,” I said.“It’s okay, babe. Lindsey was just leaving, weren’t you?”“Yeah, whatever. Come on,” she said to her friends and they turned and sauntered off.“Do you have to poke the bear?” I hissed.“Oh, come on, Lil. She deserved it. Lindsey is a grade A bitch, who, might I add, is only going to get worse now it’s senior year.”“I wish you wouldn’t encourage her.”“Peyton’s right,” Ashleigh nodded, “she deserves everything she gets.”The hall ushered into silence as a group of guys entered the building. Not just any guys.Rixon East Eagles.They all wore their red and white jerseys, moving as one. A ripple went through the air as the whispers started, rising like a wave hurtling toward the shore.“Holy shit, they have balls,
“Okay, okay,” Coach boomed. “Quit bitchin’. I want you changed and out on the field in ten. If you won’t listen to me in here, perhaps you’ll listen to me out there.” He stalked off, his anger rippling through the air.“What do we do, Thatch?” Bryan asked me.“You want to play football, Bry?”“Shit, yeah, but they don’t fucking want us here anymore than we want to be here.”“Suck it up, buttercup.” I slammed a hand to his chest and patted. “If you want Michigan to come knocking, you’re going to need to show them what you’ve got.”“I don’t know, Thatch… It’s their territory.” His eyes flicked over to where Monroe and his guys were changing into their uniforms.“Look. Forget about them and focus on the game.”“Yeah, I guess.”We got changed, reluctantly pulling on the white and blue jerseys one of the assistant coaches gave us. It felt wrong to be in their colors, but I guess we weren’t Eagles anymore.We were Raiders.And fuck if that didn’t feel like some kind of treachery.“RUN IT AG
He chuckled. “We’re not all assholes. So long as you don’t come looking for trouble.”“I can’t make any promises.” If Monroe kept pushing, eventually I’d snap. But I was hoping to avoid that.“You can do it.” Aaron clapped me on the shoulder before moving around me. “Come on,” he said, and I followed him inside.It wasn’t like I had much choice.“WELL, will you take a look at that.” Bryan let out a low whistle. “It’s like a fresh pussy buffet.” “Dude, I’m eating,” I quipped, stuffing another fry into my mouth.“Yeah, and hopefully I will be later.” He grinned, sticking his fingers up to his mouth in a V and licking.“Fucking idiot,” Gav said. “But he’s not wrong about the pussy. Case in point.” He pointed over to a group of girls in the lunch line.I recognized them from this morning in the hall.“The blonde is hot. Hey, Thatch, isn’t that the girl who called after you this morning?”“Dunno, is it?” I shrugged. She was a cute thing, sure. In that obvious hot girl kinda way. But it was