Tate We all had a great time at the beach, it was fun just chilling, chatting and reading. Denver had a message to say that one of the guys on the team, Lucian I think his name is – has invited people over to his house for a party. Tammy has declined. I can see why. To be honest, the whole thing that happened with her has put Lilly and I on red alert. We’ve decided to go. I did offer to spend time with Tammy at home instead tonight but she mentioned that her parents are still at home. This is a first. Usually they just stop off then do a quick turnaround. However, for once they may actually be putting Tammy and her little sister, Willow first. Finger’s crossed. So, it was settled Tammy would spend time with her folks later this evening and little Willow. I am sure hoping this is a turnaround for them all and that some family bonding will take place. It’d be amazing for them both if their folks come to realize just how special Tammy and Willow are and that they deserve their parents

Tate I’ve woken up early again. This whole drama of Liam being such a jerk last night just kept playing over in my mind like a bad movie reel. It wasn’t as if I wanted to get off with Lucian, but hell what if I did? It’s my life, my body and I can do whatever I like. To say Liam has been acting strange lately is the truth. It just seems that whenever I start talking to some guy, well he gets all friggin weird on me. He and I definitely need to have a chat. He’s not my boyfriend even though I wish we were dating, he’s not my older brother who would get to lay down the law a bit, if I had one. But he’s neither of those, so who the hell does he think he is? You know what, I’m not going to see him today. As much as it crucifies me, I think I have to have some distance. Maybe, just maybe this will help me get over the insane crush and feelings I have for him. My mind wanders as I lay in the dark in my bedroom, my fists scrunching up the duvet, I am really pissed off. I hate waking up e

Liam You okay for me to pop over? I wait in my truck whilst I wait for to Tate to respond. I know she’ll be up already, usually Tate gets up pretty early and goes for a run. Her favorite day is the Sunday to run because she knows she doesn’t have to run around for school or anything. Sure. I guess. Right, that wasn’t what I was expecting just a half-hearted response. I shrug my shoulders and place my mobile in the centre console and start the engine up. Denver waves to me as he comes out the stadium gates, I raise my hand and wave back. I’m guessing he and Lilly are getting together today. It makes me feel a bit jealous. Why? Because I think now it’s what I want. Whenever I see them lately all cuddled up, the look that passes between their eyes and the way they have so much fun, it kinda makes me think maybe this is what I want instead of damn meaningless hook ups all the time. The problem is, I want this with Tate not any other random girl. I stick my music on and start listening

LiamI am bewildered and shocked amongst a whole lot of other emotions. It’s kinda difficult to wrap my head around what Tate has just told me. Holy Shit. She wants to give herself up, wtf? And to who? Jeez. I rake my hands through my hair. I didn’t go across the road to my house, space is what I need right now and to think about a whole lot of shit.Like first of all, who the fuck is she going to have sex with? And, why am I so damn knotted up inside and feel like I’ve got an angry fire in hell raging inside my body? It actually feels like I can’t breathe. Man, am I seriously choked up right now?Sure, I knew this time would come – let’s face it she’s eighteen already and I’ve been putting it about for years but Tate. I feel like punching something, anything. My fists are clenched by my side as I walk along the sidewalk in no particular direction. Is it too early for a beer? Hell, I shouldn’t even really be drinking yet but I do. My folks don’t say anything unless I’ve got so wasted

LiamI can’t believe it’s already Monday morning and so much has happened. The assault on Tammy, Tate telling me she wants to give away her virginity, endless gym and practice sessions no wonder I am whacked out this morning when my alarm goes off at five thirty.You got it. Hell on earth, it’s like still nighttime, man.We have a gym session again this morning then swim session. I’ll be done around seven thirty just enough time to grab some breakfast at the canteen on site at the stadium which is where we guys go for the gym. Also, we don’t get hassled so much there. It’s purely only for the football players, which means no girls around all angling for a picture with any of us or to try and get a hook up.My body aches, literally aches like my legs want to cave in and my arms from all the throwing yesterday and weights session. I know it should be used to it, but coach is pushing is so damn hard right now – it’s fierce.I haven’t got time to think of Tate right now and what is going