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182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 78
~ A week later It’s been a week since Jacob passed away and just like the very day, I am still finding it hard to believe that he’s gone.Every day, every night, every minute, every second has been a goddamn nightmare for me. I have flashbacks of Jacob and I imagine the dreams we wanted together- the dreams that will never be reality. Thinking of Jacob has become a daily habit of mine, making it hard for me to believe that he is truly gone and will never come back. Since the day I learned about the death, I haven’t had a good sleep not because I couldn’t sleep but because each time I close my eyes I see his beautiful face and his bright smile dancing across my eyelids. It makes it hard for me to accept the truth and endure the pain. It’s been a real struggle for everyone most especially Austin. I mean, he is really going through it right now. I have never seen him so down and out before. He's just different now. He’s lost his appetite, barely saying a word to anyone unless absolut
182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 79
We pulled up at the church and I walked out of the car with Austin. He has a sunglass on and is refusing to remove it no matter what. I guess he put them on to make things easier for him. I understand that he doesn’t want people to see him crying, especially in a crowded place like this. Austin and I walked together, our footsteps echoing in the quiet church. He seemed lost in his thoughts, avoiding eye contact with anyone. As we matched to our seat all eyes were on us but Austin acknowledged no one as he found his seat. I sat down beside him, a comforting presence by his side. In the next minute, the pastor's voice filled the air, speaking words of tribute and remembrance for Jacob. Each word struck my heart, a bittersweet reminder of the void left by his absence. It still feels surreal, like a cruel twist of fate that Jacob is no longer here with us.While the pastor's words filled the entire room, I couldn't tear my gaze away from the somber sight of the closed casket positioned a
182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 80
The funeral service came to an end, and we returned home for the reception. I was engulfed by a sea of sympathetic faces, each person trying to console me with their own grief and words of encouragement. Their presence meant a lot to me, but my heart ached to break away from them and rush to Austin's side. I really want to ensure he is okay and offer him the support he desperately needs in this difficult time.I was really concerned after he finished speaking at the church. And back when we were heading home, he didn't say anything else, and I'm scared that he might be feeling depressed and could do something to hurt himself. All I want is to ensure that he's alright.While I was talking to Clarissa, the pastor's wife who was trying to console me, I glanced around the room, desperately searching for Austin. But to my disappointment, he was nowhere to be seen.My mind is filled with negative thoughts, and I'm really scared that Austin isn't doing well. I finally manage to excuse myself
182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 81
Everything is not the same now. Feels like all my life has changed, nothing is going to go back to the way it was before. As a matter of fact, this is now the new normal - being home alone with Austin and everyone else but not Jacob - never Jacob. It’s so hard to live in a house where I am used to seeing him and talking to him but now, I can’t even do that even if I wanted. Every corner of this room reminds me of Jacob and how sweet and loving he’s always been. I really miss him and just like last week, I can still feel his presence isn’t here but he is never here. It’s like I am being plagued by his absence. Every corner and angle of the house seems to whisper his name, reminding me of the moments we shared. I still miss him like I do every single day and I still crave to be with him but now I have come to understand that it can not happen. I have finally found the heart to accept the truth that Jacob will never be back and I might forever be hunted with his love and affection. I
182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 82
~ ASHTON’S POVI stood in front of the cemetery, my heart pounding with a mix of anxiety and sadness. I couldn’t bring myself to muster the courage to step in as I wanted to and I just couldn’t help but let my gaze roam around the yard, studying each gravestone. I have been doing this for nearly five minutes now, unable to stop. It's like I'm drawn to the stories and memories held within these grounds. It's both eerie and mesmerizing at the same time.I want to walk in but something inside of me isn’t ready yet. Maybe a part of me knows how hard it will be for me if I step in, or maybe I just still find it hard to believe the horrible reality. I’d rather be kept in an imagination than believe the truth of the death of my own brother.It’s been more than a week now since Jacob passed away and honestly, life has been pretty much messed up. As a matter of fact, I hate living knowing that I have no family left. Jacob was my only family and now that he is gone, I am all left alone with no o
182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 83
My heart raced as I tried to figure out which scent it was, my mind racing through memories. And then, like a jolt of lightning, clarity struck me. Her scent. The one I hadn't sensed in what felt like an eternity. At that moment, my eyes widened in sheer surprise. She's back!No! She can not be back! She’s gone and she is not supposed to be back. She’s never meant to be back at least not when I do not need her again. She’s not back! I refuse to believe that, I must be hallucinating. She can not be back. It’s been five years since she left and she has always been running away from me. It’s not possible that she suddenly decided to come back. I refuse to believe so, my nostrils must have failed me. A whirlwind of emotions and thoughts about her coming back into my life came crashing into my mind as it led me to this overwhelming and confusing moment feeling like I had no control over what I wanted. It’s hard to figure out how to react in a situation like this. I know for sure that t
182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 84
~ BELLA’S POVReading novels just hasn't been the same without Jacob by your side. I find it hard to concentrate and focus when all I can think of is the times he and I used to read together, wrapped around each other’s arms and clouded with a cozy blanket. I miss those days and I certainly miss reading with him. Although since reading isn’t on my agenda for now, I found a new hobby to keep myself occupied; watering plants and taking a long walk around the garden.It’s just so relaxing and therapeutic, always clears my mind, and finds some peace in it. Nature is definitely my new absolute favorite place too. I wish I had realized how amazing those walks were when Jacob was around. We could have spent hours just talking and enjoying each other's company, without a care in the world. It's those moments of pure connection and freedom that I now long for. I wish Jacob was here. While diligently attending to the plants, I happened to catch sight of Austin's vehicle as he made his way back
182days at the Lycan’s palace Chapter 85
Today is the day.I seriously can not believe that today Austin is going to mark me. It's such a mix of emotions for me right now. The thought of Austin marking me today makes me really nervous and uncomfortable, but at the same time, there is a part of me that is very curious and wants to go through with it. I mean, I need to do this right? It’s for Jacob and Austin too, I need to do this for both of them.Although, It's just so strange because Austin is Jacob's brother, and even though we have been intimate before, this feels like a whole new level. I'm not sure if I will be comfortable having him marking me. I know this was my decision, and I thought I was ready to do it when I said it but now, deep down inside of me, I can't help but feel really uncomfortable about it. It's like this overwhelming feeling that I'm just not ready, you know? Who am I kidding, I'm not ready at all. I don’t think I can do this. Since morning, I have been thinking about it nonstop, and it's driving me
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