POV Millie I wake up to only me on the bed, where’s X? I start to overthink everything, maybe he got what he wanted and now he’s done with me. We didn’t have sex last night, and although that’s because I said sex was excluded from the deal of the game, he does only have sex with Adria after all. I’m starting to spiral in my thoughts and I need to stop, he could simply just be in the bathroom, his office, or anywhere else around here. I get up still feeling completely spent after last night and go to the bathroom to freshen up. I get in the shower letting the hot water wash over me. I stare at the meticulous white square tiles that cover the shower walls, everything in this house is so thought out and done with precision. When I’m out of the shower, I go through my bag and pick out a pair of light-wash jeans and a navy blue shirt. I grab my phone off the bed after spending a good two minutes searching for it between blankets and sheets. I have a text from x Hey babe, I
POV Millie I sit on the beach letting my fingers slide through the now cool sand, watching the waves crash on shore. In this moment, I wish the waves would just take me away with them. How much of what Adria said was true? Was she just trying to scare me away again or is it the honest truth and I’m just blind to it all? The thing is, I really don’t know X, he doesn’t owe me anything, we’re not in a relationship, so technically, he could do whatever he wants and I have no say. Who is Aspen though? I’ve never heard of her before, is she another Adria, just in another country? This is all just becoming too much for me, I let my guard down too much with this guy and I need to put it back up or I will be the one paying for it. “Miss me?” I hear a voice from behind me, his voice. Stay strong Millie, stay strong. I look over my left shoulder and there he is, in his usual black hoodie with the hood up, black jeans and hands in his pocket looking as good as ever. He walks
POV X Why do I have to be such a dick? Why couldn’t I just tell her that I thought of her nonstop while I was away, why couldn’t I say I hated leaving her Friday morning, while she lay there naked in my bed looking like a goddess? That I thought about our night together over and over in my head, wanting more, wanting her beautiful lips wrapped around my cock again while I come in her mouth, wanting to get lost in her all over again, to be buried deep inside of her like the air I need to live? But I didn’t, because I’m a fucking idiot. It’s been an hour since I left Millie on the beach and she still hasn’t come up. Why did I have to be so harsh to that sweet, beautiful girl? I’m feeling like shit now. I decide to text her Babe come up now It was a long few days in Colombia, I barely even had time to sleep and now that I’m back home, I’m even more stressed out because Adria loves to stir the pot. I didn’t hook up with her or Aspen while I was there, but I did have to go out to
POV X Why do I have to be such a dick? Why couldn’t I just tell her that I thought of her nonstop while I was away, why couldn’t I say I hated leaving her Friday morning, while she lay there naked in my bed looking like a goddess? That I thought about our night together over and over in my head, wanting more, wanting her beautiful lips wrapped around my cock again while I come in her mouth, wanting to get lost in her all over again, to be buried deep inside of her like the air I need to live? But I didn’t, because I’m a fucking idiot. It’s been an hour since I left Millie on the beach and she still hasn’t come up. Why did I have to be so harsh to that sweet, beautiful girl? I’m feeling like shit now. I decide to text her Babe come up now It was a long few days in Colombia, I barely even had time to sleep and now that I’m back home, I’m even more stressed out because Adria loves to stir the pot. I didn’t hook up with her or Aspen while I was there, but I did have to go out to
POV Millie I arrive at Barney’s a few minutes after eight o'clock, the parking lot is pretty full for a Wednesday night. I walk the distance of the parking lot and make it to the front door. The place is filled with people, mostly around my age from what I can tell. I scan the room for Chase, after a minute or so, I see the back of his head, he’s sitting at the bar. I try to squeeze through people, careful not to knock the drinks out of their hands. The music is loud but not blaring like X’s club. There is currently a band playing on the opposite side of the room. I reach Chase and sit on the dark brown barstool beside him. He’s looking pretty casual tonight, his hair is not done as perfectly as usual, in a good way, and he’s wearing a plain navy blue shirt and jeans. I think I like this look more on him than his regular stiff appearance. He looks me in my eyes first, and then up and down. “Wow, hey Millie, you look great! Thanks for coming,” he says over the band currently playi
POV X Millie's eyes widen at my forwardness, I’ve left her speechless and in deep thought which makes me secretly smile on the inside, I've got her right where I want her. “Let’s go,” I say once more raising an eyebrow in invitation. “Uh,” she says scanning the area where the shitty band is playing and that’s where I see that motherfucker. Chase. What the fuck is she doing here with him? We get into one little argument and she runs into his arms? I'm ready to end this prick once and for all, I start fuming and see Millie is now looking at me out of the corner of my eye. She puts her hand on mine and I look over to her. She has a worried look on her face and shakes her head knowing what I’m thinking. “Please don't cause a scene…” she says. I know better than to cause a scene in a public place, I'm not stupid, even though I do have a few cops that secretly work for me but she doesn't know that, so instead I say one last time, “Then let's fucking go…” I say heated. She nods,
*Warning* This chapter contains in-depth sexual content. POV Millie I know what I have to do. I need this challenge for him to be over. He wants sex and that’s what I intend to give him. I’m not going to do this just to let him have his goal be made, but I genuinely want it too. I know what’s going to happen when it’s over, it’ll be over. He will have gotten what he wanted, and he’ll move on with his life and so will I. It’s what needs to be done for us both to go back to what we know, our worlds are like water and oil, they’ll never mix. I’m in a weird state of mind right now, feeling a bit of sadness because, after tonight, there will be no more X, but at the same time, I am nervous and thrilled to be sharing my body with him. I text Steph to not expect me for a while. When we exit his expensive car, I follow him to the penthouse not saying a word. We get inside and he turns on the lights and leads us to his bedroom where my bags are still sitting on the floor. I
POV Millie It's been forty-five minutes of laying in X’s bed and still no trace of him. His actions tell me everything I need to know, what I have already known, just confirmed. I don’t regret sleeping with him, it was hands down the best physical and emotional connection I’ve ever had with a man, but at the same time, I’m heartbroken. I’ve fallen for this person hard and way too fast. It took me about a year just to question if I loved Chase. I wish it could’ve just worked out with Chase or someone like him, for there to be minimal drama, an easy-going relationship, maybe even a little boring, but most of all, available for a future in some way. With X, it’s a dead end, he got what he wanted all along and now the dead end has been reached. I stand up off the bed and shamefully get dressed feeling worthless. I grab my bags off the floor and walk out of the bedroom with my head down full of depression. I tread down the hallway keeping my eye on the door I need to exit fr