Prologue Julianna Kennedy is a 20 year old university student and the sole caretaker of her seven year old little brother, who suffers from lung cancer. She can’t afford the money needed for his surgery, so the only option she has is to become a surrogate for a rich stranger. Ryan Winston is a handsome 24 year old billionaire with a cold heart. Because of his grandparents’ need to see a great grandchild before they die, Ryan is forced to hire a surrogate. But neither Julianna nor Ryan ever expected they were fated to be with each other. I knew this day would come soon but I’m not ready yet, I’m just scared. I couldn’t even see anything because my eyes were covered with a long black satin and also my hands were tied up. The most scary thing is it’s raining and thundering heavily. After some time I heard someone’s footsteps coming towards me and I knew he’s the man that I’m going to lose my virginity to. He came and climbed onto me as he placed himself on top of me. I could fe
After they left I looked at my father who was still standing in front of me while looking at me with a forced smile. “Dad..” I said as he sighed. “Your grandma’s wish is to see a great-grandchild before she dies so do it. I know what you’re feeling right now. I’m sorry son” He looked at me with a sad face and left the room. “Fuck” I cursed. Then I started to get ready and go to the office. I was late because of this grandma’s drama. As I went out of my house my chauffeur came and greeted me. I nodded at him. “Sir, which car do you want to use today?” He asked. Urghh.. I hate this. Why can’t this man just choose a car and come to me? “The car I always use and remember it’s Rolls Royce ghost. If you ever ask me this question again I’ll cut your tongue” He looked at me with a terrified look and nodded. What the fuck? I was just joking. Shit. I had so much work today and I was reading some documents. Then my chauffeur suddenly stopped the car. “Sir an old woman is crossing th
I thought I was ready and I knew this day would come soon but I’m not ready yet, I’m just scared. I couldn’t even see anything because my eyes were covered with a long black satin and also my hands were tied up. The scariest thing is it’s raining and thundering heavily. After some time I heard someone’s footsteps coming towards me and I knew he’s the man that I’m going to lose my virginity to. Then I heard his cloth removing sound. I knew he was looking at me and I could feel his burning gaze on me. No words could describe the fear that my heart was feeling right now. I started to bite my bottom lip because I wanted to calm down. I felt him as he came and climbed onto me as he placed himself on top of me. I could feel his scent and it made my heart beat so fast, It was the smell of damn expensive perfume. I was pulled back from my thoughts as he started to remove my nightgown. My body began to tremble because I was scared so I clutched the bedsheet so tightly. “Scared?” He asked h
“I think the little young master also likes grapes,” I heard her say. I smiled and rubbed my belly. Little traitor. Staying in my belly and likes to eat his daddy’s favorites. “When the young master’s mother was pregnant with him, she also ate grapes. Only grapes” She smiled and looked at my belly. My belly was not big but it had a small bump. “When will the young master come again?” I asked. Aunty Jade’s facial expression changed as she heard what I asked. “Young master won’t come again. His job is done and he doesn’t have permission to come here again.” What? Doesn’t have permission? What kind of nonsense was that? “He’s the father of the child. Why can’t he come?” What kind of father is he, if he can’t come to see his baby? “Young master has works. He’s a busy man. Don’t think that you can start a relationship with him because of the baby.” I wanted to laugh. A relationship? I haven’t even seen that man. How am I supposed to start a relationship with him? Pufft. I didn’
At least I couldn’t even see him. I’m not ready.. I’m not ready yet to read his notebook. I wasn’t there for him. I wasn’t there to share his pain. I wasn’t there to listen to his last words. What kind of a sister am I? I hate myself and not protecting Noah. Why? Now how am I supposed to live without him? He was my life. I did everything for him but he’s already gone. I just can’t go through this pain anymore. I lost my parents, Noah, and also my baby. Why am I just useless? Why don’t I just die? I can’t live with memories. Noah waited for the whole damn nine months but he lost every hope. I was late… I was just late. I wasn’t ready to let him go. I wasn’t.. I want him. He’s my only brother and the only family that I have…. It hurts and I can’t believe it. He’s gone….. He was waiting for me but I just couldn’t be there for him. Guilty is killing me… I want to die…. With those hurtful memories and thoughts, I fell asleep finally. I woke up after a few hours and it’s already evening.
~ Ryan ~ My whole world collapsed as I saw the woman who was laying on the bed. Her eyes were covered and hands were tied but I could recognize her. She was the woman I saw two weeks ago in front of the hospital. I could feel that she was scared. I looked at her red lips and my eyes fell on her body. Fuck… Her breasts, slim waist, long legs. Shit.. I felt my body was trying to take control. Fuck my lust. I looked at her neck and collarbones. Holy fuck… Fucking attractive. I couldn’t wait so I took off my clothes and climbed onto the bed as I placed myself on top of her body. She was scared, scared as fuck…. I slowly removed her nightgown and looked at her. My heart beat increased as I looked at her. Is she a goddess? Fucking gorgeous. With that I started to do what I was supposed to do to her. I was gentle because I knew this was her first time and it would hurt her. As I started to move the satin that was covering her eyes became wet. She’s crying and biting her lips. I saw her l
“Your thoughts are correct Ryan. She’s your mother.” Dad? Can he read my thoughts? How did he know? She’s my mother……. So gorgeous.... But where is she? “She’s beautiful” I smiled and sat next to my father. I looked at him and saw his eyes were red. Was he crying? But he smiled as he heard what I said. “Yeah, she’s the most beautiful woman” He said while hiding his sadness. “Where is she dad?” I asked as he looked at me. I felt sadness and at the same time fear. For some unknown reason I didn’t want to hear the answer for my question…… Because I have never seen her in my life. “Gone” He simply said and closed his eyes. Gone? Where? My eyes became red. She’s dead… Wasn’t she? “Dad..” I spoke but he cut me off with words. “Go now. You’ll be late” I nodded at him and got up to leave but he spoke again. “Don’t be like me Ryan.. You will suffer” What? Why? I stopped and looked at him because I wanted an explanation for that. “What do you mean?” I asked again because I didn
I was away for fucking five months.My heart was restless because next week my baby is going to be born and I should be there. And most importantly I want to see Noah. I asked him to wait for me. Shit. I was sitting on my bed but for some unknown reasons I was scared. I should go back before I regret something. Why am I feeling this way? Shit.. I started to pull my hair. What is this? Why am I acting like this? “Why are you upset?” I heard my father’s voice as he came into my room. “I don’t know dad. I’m scared” I was honest. I was really scared for something that I didn’t even know. “I was scared too at that time. Don’t worry everything will be fine” He patted my shoulder and sighed. “It was not about the baby dad. It was for someone that I saw for one day.” I buried my face against my palms and spoke. “Who?” I looked at my dad and he was somewhat curious. “A little boy. Noah” I said and saw the surprise face of dad. Yeah, he should be surprised because I never cared abo